jk I have lots, but I'm trying to work on pushing myself farther and farther.
my biggest kink is people making me worse. brainwashing and corrupting me by conditioning me to cum to acts I used to hate is SO hot.
currently the limit I'm working on is puke, I find it so repulsive! but one of my doms loves it and I really only exist for the pleasure of others sooo...
she started desensiting me by making me watch videos. she always starts by wrapping me up in a cozy blanket and cuddling with me, making me feel so safe and comfortable. I'll lay against her, with her legs wrapped around mine, trapping me against her. she slowly starts groping my tits and my thighs, warming me up before slipping her hand between my legs. I'll be feeling so warm and fuzzy, so blissful, and then she'll pull out her phone and force me to watch videos of pretty girls throwing up all over themselves.
the first few times she did this it made me feel so sick and disgusted, not horny at all. I kicked and squirmed for her to let me go, but she kept me pinned against her and forced me to watch the whole video while she yanked my hair and harshly rubbed my clit.
I caught on pretty quickly it's better to just enjoy it, and it's working! my repulsion is going away!
after about 2 or 3 weeks of wearing me down, she tied me up and put me in the shower. I didn't know exactly what we were doing, but I knew it had to be something messy. she let me sit in the shower for a while, feeling the cold tile against my skin, wondering what she planned for me. suddenly, she put a funnel down my throat and forced me to chug an entire gallon of milk.
I didn't love how it felt in my stomach, but I kept reminding myself it doesn't matter how I feel. I couldn't stop choking and gagging as the cold milk flooded my throat, my dom just stoked my hair and kept the funnel full. As soon as I had finished the gallon and the funnel was removed, I felt like I could throw up immediately. I could hear my stomach gurgling and I kept hiccuping and burping.
I was kneeling there, groaning and panting and gasping and moaning, desperatly trying to stop myself from throwing up. I finally understood why my dom found it so hot: vomiting was like an orgasm!
She quickly shoved a thin, 11 inch throat dildo down my throat, and I immediately threw up around it. I was totally powerless, I couldn't do anything to stop the gagging or the puking. I was absolutely covered in it.
My gag reflex has been fucked out of my pretty well, so every time I threw up it would only be about half a cup of liquid. At first I the milk would gush out of me every time the dildo hit my throat. after a while, I managed to get a hold of myself and focus on not throwing up. but it would only be a few seconds of respite before another wave would come, covering my face, my body, everything.
by the time we finished I was sobbing, covered in filth, looking like the sick, disgusting thing I am.
I still find it awful when the puke is brown or has bits of food in it (ewewewewew) but I'm sure she'll rewire my brain even more soon enough!
