Hey, how are you no one?
I'm going to vent and I honestly could not give a crap if you or your fucking friends read it you cunt. I am 20 average fuggin years old and I am confused. I am confused with how I feel and why the fuck I do the stupid things I fucking do. I've realised that since she hurt me I have become a home wrecker, dirtbag, slut, depressed, lonely and down right disgusting but not all the time. You see I dated this girl in school and then come the end of "08" I was a high school dropout (year 10 waddup nerds) i was 15 when I left school and started mowing people's lawns at commission homes (projects 4 da yanks bra) anyway as fuggin lame as this shit is a very long and complicated drama filled story short we still love each other but oh what do I go and do to make things interesting you wonder? Well I'll tell you friend, I decided to drink one night got absolutely (sorry) fuggin maggot and went home with her mum. I'm not getting into details so just turn your brain on and see what you come up with but I regretted it as soon as it started. 6 months after stated incident I went to my friends 21st and upon my arrival who do I happen to see? Oh damn I wish I could state the 4 letter long name but I'm a man of secrecy and I respect privacy. Anyway, she was looking more gorgeous then words could do justice. I saw her she saw me and then a couple hours and beverages later we started talking and then if you've ever seen your ex out and felt it again you know what happens. BUT at this point she doesn't know and I don't remember about what I did. At the time she was all that was going thru my thick head. Night ended with us splitting ways, she went with the girl twin I went with the boy. Time skip 6 months I get a message while out saying and I quote. "You, ___ and mum are out of my life forever, I fucking hate you, you cunt" Yeah I know right? I jest I deserved more, but since then I've stated I'm "moving on". Since I "moved on" I've done nothing but ruin relationships between partners, old friends, new friends and sisters just to name a few. On top of that I'm sure I've broken at least 1 heart on the way besides my own. I sound like a dickhead I'm going. Bye.
