sober + boring

Finding myself through recovery and grief

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While I was my father’s caretaker before he passed  I would feel ashamed of being bored or restless or distracted. I would feel guilty about not thinking about him 24 hours a day. It took some time to really believe that it was okay to take a mental break. When you’re life is consumed by someone else’s illness parts of your mind will shut off, your mind will blur the edges of ideas and memories. As I grieve, I take great joy in finding moments I can be alone with my thoughts and rest my mind. 

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Getting sober means realizing you say embarrassing things even when you’re not drinking 🙃

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On grieving: It has been difficult for me to share just how hurt and scared I am to be without my dad. Whenever I try to verbalize what he has meant to me— I feel overwrought and dramatic. In my journey of grieving and understanding life and death, I decided to read this book. Grieving can be humiliating, I thought a book would help me understand better how to share my experience.

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I’m working on being comfortable with recovery and sobriety. When your addiction defines you and you find recovery, you start to wonder who you really are and who you want to be.  

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Choose your own adventure

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Cats help, my cat helped me have patience and compassion for other living things. She is my meditation, my release, the unswayed companion who has seen me at my worst and now on the road to being better-- and also, one tough motherfucker.