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Sometimes a space to express horny thoughts so it's +21 /nsfw

Guess who's birthday it is today! 🎂🎉🥰

And I've just seen I'm just under 100 followers away from 4000 - so can we boost this and help me to reach 4k for my birthday pretty please 🥹🥹

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Tokuhiro Kawai

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You worth it ❤

#made a first step yesterday and reached out for help for my mental health issues #it was scary and draining but it made me feel better to talk about it and actually receive medical care for the first time in months #I tried to pushed through it but being overworked + stressed is just not good for you and nothing is worth ruining your health

Kinda ironic that I first started this blog as a space for my submissive/kinky side and it seems that it just slowly becomes my sad girl diaries instead lol

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(trigger warning: depression)

Even though I am genuinely severely depressed and everyday there's like thick, dark clouds overwhelming my mind, and I just wanna quit there's still rare moments that feels like sunbeams breaking through?

Like I'm here feeling the ugliest inside and out and then there're strangers telling me they think I'm pretty out of the blue?? Why are people such angels sometimes?

There would be a day, where the sky is grey and it's really pourring rain and it's depressing, then golden light is breaking throught the rain and it's just so beautiful all the sudden? Sometimes I think of how sunsets and sunrises are constant, but they are all so unique...You see it when you really take in the colors and light for a couple minutes...pictures don't do them justice...I'd just notice simple things about nature, about the outside and then I feel like I just don't wanna quit just yet and stay here for a bit longer to not miss out on this, to not never see it again.

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I bought two small plants this week, a purple one and an orchid, because I missed having plants and flowers in my space...I used to always have at least one orchid, then stopped for like 2 years...Also tonight I dreamed about buying ivy and thinking about buying a drooping plant that caught my eye at a (real) florist a couple of weeks ago...

It's random but seeing pretty, alive things keeps me going these days. A positive, I guess?

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You have to let people love you. You have to let people get to know you. You have to let people help you. Being so completely selfless that you try to erase yourself off the face of the planet and never ask for anything and reject everybody's offers of support makes you very hard to love! Unfortunately. Emptying yourself out of everything that makes you, you is not actually what your loved ones want from you, generally. They want to make you happy! They will be so so sad if you don't give them the chance. It's not all selfish. I promise.

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One of the most dangerous things in the world is not being able to say no to people because you don't want to upset them or dissapoint them. This will completely ruin your life in every way possible, at work, in your private life, your sex life and your friendships. It's a way of removing your own consent in your own decisions and go against your wishes, it is always a crime against yourself. Let yourself have a say. Upsetting people is better than traumatizing yourself.