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Kryska's Kicks: How to Get In the Game

Kryska’s Kicks: How to Get In the Game

You need bitches and marijuana. Jk, you just need money and at least half a brain. The result of my very first camp in LA (more…)

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Kryska's Kicks: A New Passion

Kryska’s Kicks: A New Passion

Where I been? Where’s Kryska? Where’s Danbo? How I spent $1400 in 1 short month (more…)

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Roads

When you watch someone set down on a dark and twisted path… how should you feel?

Undoubtedly, for her sake, I must say that perhaps I played a part in it too. Her emotions, her current way of dealing with problems, and maybe even her habits.

I always knew that within in the past weeks, the way you have acted towards me was not necessarily how you “wanted” to act towards me because you wanted to. You just acted that way because you didn’t want to restrain yourself. I had already told you many times that, if you kept talking to me like that, you would end up talking to or about people in the exact same way.

Reading your latest post…honestly that’s the most uncanny thing I’ve ever seen you do. Not just to me, but about anyone in general. Perhaps you’ve never actually changed because I never saw you that way, or you’ve changed so much I can’t tell who you are anymore.

I know you’re too stubborn and proud to listen to me, or anyone else, but as a plea for your future: don’t be like this

You might argue, it’s a private thing you wrote, but it’s not private. It’s openly written on the internet…and negative things keeps getting worse without you knowing it. Worst of all, even when others do tell you (if they dared), you won’t acknowledge it.

Be what you were. Be the sweet girl that I met 2 years ago.

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Sweetness

As the day of my graduation pushes forward, I look back. Did I get anything out of my UCLA days? Did I really learn anything from my $200,000 education? Sure I learned stuff pertaining to my major, but I guess the most valuable experiences I had were emotions, love, and my limits.

My emotions: I’ve always been a guy who’s more sentimental than most girls I know. Deep down, I care about a fleeting memory or I’m the kind of guy that worries what you’re doing at 3AM. Sure, part of that is jealousy, but there should be a certain degree of trust. In any case, when I first started my love life in college, I let my emotions run rampant. I didn’t care who it was to nor did I care what I said to them. I know myself I’ve said some down-right nasty things. I know I’m not perfect, or even close. But life is a journey, and I’m glad my time here at UCLA allowed me “get a grip” on my emotions. To dull myself so I would be less affected, but still to the point where I can level with people.

My love: As cliche as this sounds, I’ve never “truly” loved a girl until my last girlfriend. Even then, it wasn’t all the time or all the way. Perhaps my perfectionist self saw the flaws and couldn’t bear myself to fully love someone I viewed had critical problems. Yes, that makes me a true scumbag for saying that I’ve dated a handful of girls and never loved them. It wasn’t that they’re not pretty, not what I wanted, or provided nothing I could appreciate. I guess, I never took relationships seriously. But when I needed to truly take it seriously, I wasn’t ready yet. And god it was a clusterfuck. Sure she blames me for making her a nasty person today, but that doesn’t exactly excuse her actions. Perhaps I picked the wrong one to finally love. Perhaps I really did do her wrong and she was absolutely perfect. Who knows? But, after this last roller-coaster relationship, I’ve realized that I truly have the capacity to change for a better person. The capacity to be “the better person”, or at least “treat her like a princess”. Of course, a particular individual took the literal meaning a little too far on the surface level, but that’s not the point. In any case, until I find my next love, I won’t indulge in leading on girls or having half-assed relationships. The women I’ve met at UCLA have taught me that another person’s time and feelings are not to be toyed with. Thank you ladies.

My limits: Contrary to what my last 2 exes would say, most people who truly know me would understand that I have an immeasurable amount of patience. Sure I lash out a little in-between, but I’m always that hopeless romantic that would wait 2 hrs for my date to show up. Or, put up with someone I truly couldn’t tolerate for an extended amount of time. I do feel that my last ex would attest that I had absolutely zero patience for her, and maybe I did, in the end, but that was never the way it was. Perhaps it was because some things I’ve just said a thousand times about what not to do and etc. Perhaps I was having my manstruation. All sorts of excuses. But hey, now I look back, all I see was a boy that hasn’t discovered his true potential. Screw the excuses and be a better person. Funny story is, I really did do that. I did it for a full month with my last ex, but her attitude and toxicity would make any person want to commit suicide. The consistent dissing and death threats weren’t exactly what you call “positive energy to feed off on”. She says that I subjected her to a full year of that treatment. Now, I’m not going to be a sack of shit and lie. I did. I was terrible. Whenever I got angry or frustrated at her, I ran my mouth. I deserve a slap across the face for the shit I said every time. Now, that I know she can agree. However, what she fervently denies is that she did the same things back. The only chance she would admit it is if I said I influenced her to become that way. Perhaps? Who knows, but like I said to her many times before: if you want to act like the mature one, then be the mature one and be a better person; don’t just criticize me and do it to me right back. But I digress. I put up with that for a full month. I was just feeling good about myself earning a few side bucks playing League of Legends and getting my own personal project at my research lab. And you know, even if you loved the person so much that you’d take a bullet for them, that amount and that degree of verbal abuse just broke my heart. So this is where I draw the line. My limit. I’ve never took “shit” from anyone before. I’ve always fought back. But now I know, not every time I have to choose to fight. Not every time I have to participate in a fight. And most certainly, not every time do I have to put up with it. I’m also a human being, just as anyone. Mortal, soft, and having plenty of weaknesses in my emotions. If you’re presuming I’m headed to saying that I’m going to turn into a cold-blooded playboy, that’s not what I’m getting at. What I’m saying is, I am a better man and even after some pretty terrible experiences, I still am glad for it. Glad that I learned and glad that I knew what person could do to another person.

At the very least, I’ve now truly understand my capacity for love and how I can handle it. Perhaps I’m still not fully ready yet; not the ultra-smooth charmer I hope to be. But, it goes without saying that I’m on my path, I’m on a brighter path. I can almost taste how bittersweet my experiences were.

Now look here: what comes after bitter in bitter sweet? “Sweet”. Maybe it’s finally time to get a glimpse of what sweetness is.

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Keep changing, keep growing. - Unknown

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THIS IS HOW YOU REACT TO SOMEBODY ATTEMPTING TO SPEAK A NON-NATIVE LANGUAGE.

SIMILARLY, THIS IS ALSO HOW YOU RESPOND TO ASSHOLES WHO LAUGH AT SOMEBODY ATTEMPTING TO SPEAK A NON-NATIVE LANGUAGE.

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Handled with class.

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Jennifer lawrence *cough cough ✋🏻

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laugh your ass off here

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If you loved me half as much as I loved you we would have a love that would never end. Nothing could tear us apart. That’s how much I loved you. If only.

Journal (via love-lessons)

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I love you and I always will and I am sorry. What a useless word.

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Stay low key. Not everyone needs to know everything about you.

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Kryska's Corner: Road to Gold -Season 6-

Kryska’s Corner: Road to Gold -Season 6-

This season has not been kind… The Fabled Gold. Always looks good. (more…)

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Kryska's Tech: Skullcandy Uproar Wireless Review

Kryska’s Tech: Skullcandy Uproar Wireless Review

Let the hate train come Yes, I paid $49.95 for it. (more…)

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#Audiophile #Bluetooth #Headphones #Skullcandy #Uproar #Wireless

Kryska's Tech: Microsoft Band Review

Kryska’s Tech: Microsoft Band Review

The band. Hi guys, I recently acquired another piece of fancy tech. Since this one is a relatively obscure gadget from a giant tech firm, I figure I’d take a crack at it. (more…)

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