achebound

yearner|trying to find myself in what I write🍀

[soiwrite4you]

And as for my final act of love,

I won't be me. I won't reach out to you.

Even if I am dying on my knees,

I won't ask you to hold me.

And when I am burning alive ,

I won't call you for saving.

I'll turn you into my muse,

and keep you alive in what I write.

I'll carry this ache as the last proof of love.

I won't undo myself for you.

And when my heart breaks,

I'll let it learn it's own rhythm again.

When nights lean heavy on my chest

I'll stand my ground-

Not reaching ,not calling your name

how my love sounds.

I loved you once and that's enough for this lifetime.

I'll carry it as proof.

My hands empty,

My heart full of love at rest,

Finally letting you go and watch you from distance.

From my "something unsaid"

[soiwrite4you]

But who do you call,on the days

When it feels like ending it all up.!?

[soiwrite4you]

I hate it when I am happy,

So I have nothing to write.

Why do I have to feel miserable

Just to write....

[soiwrite4you]

Left alone with my ache, Crying in the dark I scream through my scars, So that you see my wounded palm Holding on to a life, I want to quit. Little did I know how to live

-inmyhead

[soiwrite4you]

In my mind,

I scream as loud as I can.

Until I lose my voice.

Until the brain shuts off.

The noises steps back and

the peace become loud.

Louder than the screams ,

I make in my mind

-inmyhead

[soiwrite4you]

and darling,

Please don't leave my hand in the middle of the road,

you already know I don't know how to cross them alone.

From my "something unsaid"

[soiwrite4you]

May time be kind enough to let you meet me again,

when you know how to hold me,how to love me and not left me in ache alone.

[soiwrite4you]

I loved you in ways,

I wanted to be loved.

You saw it all. You felt it all.

You took all my love and left me none.

All I remember of you is -

You knew it all

And still choose to do nothing at all

From my "something unsaid"

[soiwrite4you]

and then I find myself thinking about you,

How you said you would love me too

All the promises which were broken,

How you took away the love once spoken

I sit in the room with your memories,

Trying to remember your laughter and promises

How you were meant to be with me forever,

But now I'll sit alone,loving you forever

From my "midnight stars"

[soiwrite4you]

and all my fears are unfolding ,

in front of my eyes and

i am not able to do anything to fix it.

[soiwrite4you]

and losing you feels like ,

The world is ending and

All I wanna do is call you again and again....

[soiwrite4you]

and if I am worthy of anything,

All I wanna be worthy of is you!

[soiwrite4you]

Am I stuck! Or Am i lost? Who am I When the noises steps back? Who knows- maybe that's where I begin. Standing near a cliff I don't know the height of. Just me and my breathe, Crossing the winds in silence. Is gravity pulling me in, Or tearing me apart? Who knows- Maybe this is the only path.

-inmyhead

[soiwrite4you]

And,whom do I turn into when all the anger takes the wheel? the one I claim to be me— or the one I swore I'd never be?

-From my "midnight stars"

[soiwrite4you]

There is a fire inside me , That keeps me burning There is a restlessness in my mind, That keeps me searching No idea either it is saving me or breaking me apart, All I know is this journey has emptied my heart..

-From my "midnight stars"

[soiwrite4you]

and despite everything I hope & I just hope I hope I hope I hope Maybe that's all I can do .

-From my "midnight stars"

[soiwrite4you]

and I fell for you, Like dried leaves falling from a tree In the blur of my eyes, In tears of joy Holding you a little tighter, Like a child unaware

-in my head