I'LL BE GOOD.

[soldatassass1n]

🇸‌🇴‌🇱‌🇩‌🇦‌🇹‌🇦‌🇸‌🇸‌🇦‌🇸‌🇸‌1🇳‌. a private & selective dual-muse blog for bucky barnes & his alter, the winter soldier. both are written as explicitly DID-coded. canon divergent.

A STUDY IN: loss of autonomy ; regaining dignity ; independence in small steps ; leaning on friends ; looking for the light.

SAVING THE WORLD WITH: @plutomused, @sndrd, @screwhope, @kurjaks, @timelovcd, @angerbuilt !

CARRD. MEMES. MUSINGS.

[soldatassass1n]

@timelovcd  asked: 🃏 Are they the type to forgive / hold a grudge until the end of the universe?

𝐖𝐇𝐄𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐁𝐔𝐂𝐊𝐘 𝐇𝐎𝐋𝐃𝐒 a grudge or not depends on what the person did to wrong him. if it's a simple mistake, something that he can empathize with easily, he's likely to forgive ( & relatively forget, given his memory issues ). but with most things, he trusts his intuition with others, trusting it to tell him if someone is bad news or not ― & it's these types of people, the #trulybadvibes people, that bucky tends to hold a grudge with. for example, while he personally doesn't hold the memories of HYDRA, you can be certain that there won't ever be forgiving of those abusers. winter, similarly, holds a grudge against those that they remember ― & they have a better memory than most might think, given the damage to their brain.

tldr ; bucky's more likely to forgive for relatively minor things, while both he & winter hold grudges against those who have taken away their freedom.

[vampirebitesandbloodvials]

love is stored in the bite mark

[raesource]

headcanon questions

if you are sending to a multi-muse, remember to specify the muse that the questions are being sent for . feel free to edit these as you see fit .

🌟 What’s something small they did as a child that hinted at who they’d become?

❤️ Who is the one person they’d drop everything for, no questions asked?

💔 What’s the one wound (physical / emotional) they’ll never fully recover from?

🗡️ What’s their “I’ve killed for less” trigger?

☀️ What’s their happiest childhood memory?

🌧️ What kind of weather matches their soul?

🍽️ What meal do they cook when they need to feel like themselves again?

🎶 What song instantly makes them emotional & why?

🌙 Do they sleep peacefully / fight nightmares every night?

🔒 What’s a secret they’ll take to their grave?

🪞 What do they secretly hate about their own appearance?

💪 What random skill are they weirdly proud of?

👶 Baby picture of them - what’s the most embarrassing thing about it?

🏠 Describe their home when no one’s watching—messy, spotless, chaotic cozy?

😭 What always makes them cry, even if they hate admitting it?

😂 What’s the dumbest thing they’ve ever laughed at for way too long?

🧸 Do they still have a childhood comfort object? Where is it now?

✏️ What nickname do they secretly love being called?

⚔️ How do they act when they’re furious but have to stay polite?

🩸 What’s the worst injury they’ve ever had & the story behind it?

🕊️ What would instantly calm them down in a panic attack?

🔥 What’s something they’d burn the world down to protect?

🌹 What scent reminds them of the person they loved/love most?

🪥 What’s their most oddly specific daily routine?

💔 What’s the one apology they’re still waiting for that’ll never come?

🃏 Are they the type to forgive / hold a grudge until the end of the universe?

🌌 What’s their biggest “what if” that keeps them up at night?

🦋 What was their “I’m not a kid anymore” moment?

🎭 Do they wear a mask in public? What’s the real them like underneath?

🧳 If they had to leave home forever with only one bag, what do they pack?

🌑 What’s the darkest thought they’ve ever had about themselves?

☕ What’s their comfort drink?

🖤 What’s a “villain” trait they actually possess?

🤝 Who is the one person they never want to disappoint?

🎁 What gift would utterly destroy them (in a good / bad way)?

🩹 How do they react when someone they love is hurt?

🌅 Are they a sunrise / sunset person - what do they think about while looking at their favorite?

🧣 What texture/clothing item makes them feel safe?

🦉 What piece of advice do they give everyone but never follow themselves?

🔪 What’s the most violent thing they’ve ever done for love / survival?

🦋 What seemingly insignificant memory do they cherish the most?

🌹 What is their love language & how badly do they need it right now?

🪨 What’s the hardest choice they’ve ever made?

🧋 What food/drink do they hate that everyone else loves?

🕰️ If they could relive one day of their life, which would it be?

👑 In their own story, are they the hero / villain / someone else entirely?

🌡️ What temperature do they keep their home at & why?

🧸 What would their younger self think of them now?

💌 What’s the letter / text they’ll never send?

⚰️ What do they want written on their gravestone / what do they want people to remember them for?

[soldatassass1n]

@forcenexus  said: ❛ you guys can never aim for shit. ❜

𝐒𝐄𝐑𝐆𝐄𝐀𝐍𝐓'𝐒 𝐁𝐑𝐎𝐖𝐒 𝐃𝐑𝐀𝐖 together & the expression on face is near-indignant at other's assumption about prowess. slowly, bucky turns to look at anakin, unimpressed & dry look on features in return to other's quip. ❝ excuse you, ❞ he snorts, hands working on reloading gun while gaze remains on other, a clearly practiced motion. so what if he's showing off ― anakin told him he can't fucking aim, & it's been ages since bucky's had to defend against a claim like that. ❝ utterly disrespectful. i'm a fuckin' sniper, man. y'don't know shit. ❞

[angerbuilt]

don't mind as she grabs a blanket, a bottle of water and settles down onto the human-sized dog bed in the middle of her living room. she curls up into the fluffy bed, a happy little hum in her throat. "come join me. it's so nice under here."

[soldatassass1n]

𝐇𝐄 𝐖𝐎𝐔𝐋𝐃𝐍'𝐓 𝐇𝐀𝐕𝐄 purchased such an item for himself ; but lover seems to adore it, gifted by someone else close, & the smile that comes to sergeant's lips is one of warm adoration. ❝ you do look real comfy there, ❞ bucky agrees, taking his phone with him before he's settling next to her, back propped up against the front of couch. it is pleasingly comforting, helps to thaw the eternal cold he feels inside, & bucky presses closer, reaching for her for a kiss. ❝ wanna stay here all night, babe ? ❞ it doesn't sound like such a bad idea, really.

[uniiicornmemes]

On anon or not, tell me who you ship my character with.

[soldatassass1n]

@skyguarded said: there was a better way to go about this, you know.

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐋𝐎𝐎𝐊 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐒𝐄𝐑𝐆𝐄𝐀𝐍𝐓 gives shiro is one of calling bullshit, brows raising with an almost indignant expression on features at other's attempt to say that there was a different way to go about conflict. bucky glances around to the unconscious & beaten bodies strewn about on the floor, & then steel-blue eyes meet shiro's once more, partner in crime this close to chewing other out. it's the stress of the situation that makes bucky this close to breaking, but shiro doesn't necessarily know that, & the sergeant, despite his qualms, doesn't want to ruin a good relationship with choice words. so instead, bucky forces himself to take a few deep breaths in attempt to calm, & once he finds heart pounding less readily in ears, he tries to speak. ❝ there are always different options that i weigh in my head, shiro. if i'd waited, i could have lost the element of surprise, & gotten you killed. that's what we didn't want t'happen, yeah ? ❞ the sergeant gives a heavy sigh, reaches out to place flesh hand on other's shoulder. gentle squeeze is given to reassure, before bucky murmurs, more tired than he lets on, ❝ can we just go home ? there's a warm meal waitin' for you. ❞

[deadbeatmaker]

it’s okay to murder people but it’s not okay to disrespect your wife btw

[deadbeatmaker]

it’s okay to murder people if they disrespect your wife

[mournfulroses]

Fyodor Dostoevsky, from a letter featured in Letters of Fyodor Michailovitch Dostoevsky to his Family & Friends

[soldatassass1n]

SOLDATASSASS1N. indie private & selective dual-muse blog for bucky barnes & his alter, the winter soldier. explicitly written as DID. canon divergent. written with care by nix (29, he/they, est). ©

[soldatassass1n]

happy pride from this nonbinary bisexual best friend of captain america !

[mcflymemes]

PROMPTS FROM OBSESSION *  assorted dialogue from the script of the 2026 film, adjust as necessary

i've often wondered what it means to truly love someone. and then, i realized it's what i feel for you. it's a love that defies the limitations of the world, that remains steadfast even in the face of chaos.

even if the world lost its color, if hope faded into the night, my love for you wouldn't falter.

i don't think romance is real. i think love is real, but not romance.

romance fades. love is a different thing.

you are so lucky you weren't scheduled today.

hey, are you good?

did you get it back?

it's gone! i dropped it down a fucking drain. of all days...

today's been awful.

i'll see you at eight?

i can meet you early if you want. you don't have to be alone just to secure the spot.

don't come back here complaining.

for a very long time, i've tried to find the best way to tell you that you're the only person i've ever met with the same sense of humor as me.

okay, right off the bat, way too strong.

my feelings are strong.

i know i'm not gonna stop you.

dude, i love trivia night. it's all i have. i wake up every wednesday rock-hard thinking about trivia night.

you gotta take her somewhere else. you have to be clear about your intentions.

do you even try to flirt with her?

if she means this much to you, and i know she does, do it right.

are you serious?

you definitely didn't say fuck.

how do you know about the gun?

how many gunfights have you been in, [name]?

stop being an ass.

didn't you say you have a crazy story?

i'm saying no to being around bad, drunk singers when i just want to go home and sleep.

who's gonna sing salt-n-pepa with me?

don't let me forget, i got you something.

i might quit. i'm just not happy there.

i feel like i need to make a big change. i'm not feeling... love. i need my head in the right place to bring this to life.

i wanna write. the good, the bad, the ugly. real shit.

is that stupid?

is that all that's been bothering you?

you always go out of your way for me, and not just me, for everyone...

you said you had something for me?

why don't you come inside, and we can have a few drinks?

i know what you're trying to do.

i have never seen you act this way.

it's not your fault.

can we go, please?

i just can't sleep in my bed. i don't want to be alone.

it smells like you.

i'm sorry i was so weird earlier.

will you sleep with me?

please, i get in my head. i'll stare at the ceiling all night if i'm in here by myself.

given the circumstances... i needed this.

you kissed me!

can you lay with me?

what the fuck happened last night?

you wouldn't believe what a crazy night i had.

i seriously think she needs help.

i slept on the floor. she was freaking me out.

how am i supposed to get home then?

i want to be transparent with you abuout some things.

i know you like me, [name].

i've known you for so long, and i'm just now realizing i don't even know that much about you.

why are you giving it to me?

i love you so much. i don't think i could live without you.

i thought we were having a nice date?

you're cute when you sleep.

make a deal with me.

i am the happiest i've probably ever been.

i was waiting for you to come home.

i can get dressed and go with you.

no one on this earth will ever comprehend what it feels like to love someone as much as i love you.

can i stand outside?

do you like me?

can you tell me you love me?

i can be anything you want me to be.

i love you in every reality.

let's fuck, [name].

you wanted this, but i'm so glad you did.

you made a shitty wish, and you want to reverse it.

what the fuck is wrong with you?

i wish for a billion dollars.

why don't you love me?

you owe me that.

we can make this work baby.

i'm sorry for the theatrics.

[soldatassass1n]

SOLDATASSASS1N. indie private & selective dual-muse blog for bucky barnes & his alter, the winter soldier. explicitly written as DID. canon divergent. written with care by nix (29, he/they, est). ©

[ohisms]

✱˚｡⋆ ↪ THE 𝐒TAGES OF 𝐈NTIMACY.   a collection of various action prompts centered around the varying stages of intimacy.  feel free to adjust as desired. heavily mature content, dni with this post if you are under 18, & DO NOT use these prompts for non-con scenarios.  )

SETTINGS.

[01.] finding privacy in a cramped dressing room.

[02.] cramming into the backseat of a car together.

[03.] slipping into the lonesome alleyway behind the bar for "time alone".

[04.] pulling them away from a party after hours of relentless teasing.

[05.] getting handsy under the table at a fancy dining establishment.

[06.] taking the long way home and pulling over on a dark stretch of road.

[07.] staying behind at the venue after everyone else has left.

[08.] the hotel room door barely clicks shut before hands are on them.

[09.] a tent in the middle of nowhere where no one can hear anything.

NEW TERRITORY.

[10.] finding yourself staring at their mouth and getting caught.

[11.] pulling back from a kiss to look at them, then immediately going back in.

[12.] memorizing the shape of them for the first time with your palms.

[13.] that exploratory first kiss, reserved and shy.

[14.] a gentle first kiss that morphs into intense want.

[15.] feeling the shape of their body through their clothes.

[16.] asking for permission to remove one of their garments.

[17.] finally succumbing to the thick tension & colliding feverishly.

[18.] fumbling with buttons or zippers because your hands won't stop shaking.

[19.] admitting out loud that you've been thinking about this for a while.

HEATING UP.

[20.] pulling them into your lap in the midst of a heated kiss.

[21.] discovering that they're wearing [ GEAR / LINGERIE ] under their clothes.

[22.] kissing away from their lips, down the length of their neck.

[23.] desperately grinding on them through layers of clothing.

[24.] dirty talking directly into their ear to turn them on even further.

[25.] pushing them onto a piece of furniture before straddling them.

[26.] lifting them onto the countertop while making out.

[27.] tugging their hair to expose more of their throat to your mouth.

[28.] the wrecked way they say your name for the first time.

[29.] fabric tearing because neither of you has the patience for buttons.

[30.] removing an obstacle of clothing with your teeth.

UNRAVELING.

[31.] biting down on their shoulder to muffle how good it feels.

[32.] the sound they make when you find the spot that undoes them.

[33.] begging without any trace of pride left and meaning every word.

[34.] their composure cracking for the first time, they finally stop holding back.

[35.] repeating "don't stop" like it's the only language left in their mouth.

[36.] leaving possessive marks in places only they'll see.

[37.] whispering "look at me" right before you take them apart.

[38.] trying to be quiet and failing, so they clamp a hand over your mouth.

[39.] flipping positions so fast neither of you remembers who initiated it.

[40.] their nails dragging down your back hard enough to sting later.

[41.] being told to open your mouth and doing it before the sentence is finished.

[42.] having your hands pinned above your head.

[43.] the desperate scramble to get closer when there is no closer to get.

COMING DOWN.

[44.] fingers lazily tracing the marks they just left on your skin.

[45.] pulling the blanket over both of you without being asked.

[46.] that silent, dazed smile when they catch your eye across the pillow.

[47.] the shaky laugh when neither of you can remember where your shirt is.

[48.] going to get water and bringing a glass back for them without asking.

[49.] lying chest to chest, feeling their heartbeat slow back down against yours.

[50.] the quiet "hey" that means something completely different now.

[51.] "come here" said softly — not urgently. just wanting them close again.

[52.] the reluctant moment of untangling.

[soldatassass1n]

@mvnces  said: ❛ i’m here. ❜

𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐃𝐒 𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐏 𝐀𝐓 𝐄𝐃𝐆𝐄 of tongue, making trying to speak useless. tremors rip through them & chest heaves as they work to regain semblance of normal pace of breath, a feat that makes even the soldier work. the only indication that they heard him, at first, is a slow reaching of flesh hand to other's thigh, & then a firm squeeze has their nonverbal reaction, begging him to continue the words of reassurance. it isn't too often, anymore, that these episodes where winter is needed arise ―

𝐁𝐔𝐓 𝐖𝐇𝐄𝐍 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐘 𝐃𝐎, they pack a punch, & the soldier has to fight against the constant & throbbing sensation of arm, phantom pain that makes them grit teeth. when words come, finally, they're not the ones intended - but they get the message across, because the soldier is in no state to mince words or demands. ❝ NEED YOU, ❞ they get out finally, turning to fully face lover (recognizable this time, which is a feat) before they attempt to bury their face in the crook of other's neck. familiar scent is what starts to ground them, & soon they're releasing a soft sound against riley's skin. ❝ . . . thank you. ❞

[soldatassass1n]

@hexsreality  said: ❛ there is something wrong with me. an emptiness. ❜

𝐁𝐔𝐂𝐊𝐘 𝐊𝐍𝐎𝐖𝐒 𝐖𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐒𝐇𝐄 means when she makes such a statement, at least to some extent. he knows of the yawning void that threatens to take over whenever things are too much at once ; too loud & overwhelming to properly take anything in. he feels the void close in tightest at those moments of highest stress, turning inward & trying to use what coping methods that he's developed to fight against it. but in those moments, when the darkness feels as overwhelming as it does, he often has to cling to whatever small spark of joy that he can ― & it isn't easy.

𝐁𝐔𝐂𝐊𝐘 𝐃𝐎𝐄𝐒𝐍'𝐓 𝐁𝐋𝐀𝐌𝐄 𝐖𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐀 for having this proclaimed emptiness, nor does he fault her for dealing with it however she has up until now. but he wants her to know ― reaching out to touch at hand, a gentle reassurance that he hopes conveys what he means ― ❝ there isn't anything wrong with you, wanda. i know it can feel like that, a feeling that wraps like a hand around your throat & makes it so you can't escape. but you can, & you will. with time, & patience, from yourself & whomever else you let in to help. ❞ he offers a half-smile, concern written plainly on features ; concern for her, & for her well-being. ❝ wanda, ALL I WANT is t'be one of those people. let me help you. ❞