[soldierslept]

girls who slay together stay together B) 

[soldierslept]

fordanesti. 

Greta chuckled softly, placing her own hand ontop of his own holding it softly she shook her head. ‘ Well hey – I was able to tell you…I am not gonna push it all on you…I know you still need time to recover…It’s just I guess I was so lonely – I got the impression that maybe this was alright that…perhaps you felt the same…but as long as I somewhat matter to you…I don’t mind.’ Greta removed her hands from Alucard’s sliding them out from his, she turns on her heels as if to walk but instead reaches a hand and moves it through brown strands giving a small chuckle of embarrassment. ‘ Can we…pretend I didn’t blurt out my feelings like a girl with a crush? ‘ Greta removed a necklace that was hidden underneath her collar, walking over to him she placed it over his head onto his shoulders. ‘ This…has always bring me luck…perhaps it can do the same for you Alucard, who knows it might be able to bring you the happiness you so deserve…and the right person.’

                          it was understandable; trying to find a partner just to escape the feeling of being alone. but that isn’t what alucard wanted to be for her, just some alternative to having nothing - and he doubts that she wanted to be for him, either. they had time, lots of it, he hoped, to figure out what they meant to each other. to make sure whatever this was wouldn’t pass. though she pulls away, removing herself from his touch completely, and he doesn’t try to stop her. though what she says surprises him, that she’d prefer they both forget this conversation ever happened. it had meant a lot, when she told him that she loved him, was willing to wait for him to be sure of this. he wasn’t sure if that was a part of the conversation she’d prefer for him to forget, but he knows he doesn’t have the right to ask her to sit and wait for him while he figures himself out. alucard knows that there are likely dozens of men and women who would readily take his spot if given the chance, and she deserves someone who can give her what she needs. face tints pink once more when she gently brings her necklace over his head, allowing the pendant to fall and rest on his chest. alucards hand raises to hold onto the pendant, thumb tracing over its intricate design.   “ ... are you asking for me not to get attached? — if you have any reservations on waiting we can forget any of this happened.. ”     he felt it redundant to remind her once more that he cares for her, because she knows that, and he wishes he could give her more, but instead he stops himself from saying it, eyes falling down to look at his pendant once more.   “ ... no, i apologize, consider it forgotten, ”

[prettynerdieworks]

[promptfairy]

𝐇𝐔𝐑𝐓 / 𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐓   ♡   𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒

    change any gendered language to your needs.  ♡

“   you  don’t  have  to  hide  your  tears  from  me .   ” “   you’re  doing  great ,   okay ??   i mean it .   ” “   you  are  so  strong .   ” “   please  don’t  ever  give  up .   ” “   i  will  always  believe  in  you .   ” “   why  do  you  always  think  you  have  to  do  everything  on  your  own ??   ” “   it’s  okay ,   i’m  here .   i’ll  always  be  here .   ” “   you’ve  always  been  strong  for  me .   let  me  return  the  favor .   ” “   just  listen  to  my  heartbeat ,   okay ??   ” “   come  on ,   take  a  deep  breath .   it’s  gonna  be  alright .   ” “   please ,   just  hold  me .   ” “   you  always  meant  the  world  to  me .   i’m  sorry  i  let  you  forget  that .   ” “   i  never  stopped  loving  you .   ” “   you’ll  feel  better  if  you  talk  about  it .   i’m  here  to  listen .   ” “   you’re  so  much  more  than  the  mistakes  you’ve  made .  ” “   i  forgive  you .   ” “   you  are  so  fucking  powerful .   ” “   i’m  not  leaving  you  here .   ” “   i  trust  you  more  than  anyone  else  in  this  universe .   ” “   it’s  okay  to  be  confused .   nobody  has  all  the  answers .   ” “   i’m  so ,   so  sorry .   you  didn’t  deserve  that .   ” “   healing  is  not  linear ,   but  it’s  always  moving  forward .   ” “   you  can  admit  that  you’re  hurting .   it’s  okay  to  not  be  okay .   ” “   hold  my  hand ??   ” “   you  are  my  home .   ” “   no  matter  what  anyone  else  says ,   you  are  so  important  to  me .   ” “   don’t  worry .   i’ll  protect  you .   ” “   shh ,   it  was  just  a  nightmare .   you’re  safe .   ” “   don’t  talk  about  yourself  like  that .   ” “   just  say  the  word .   you  know  i’d  do  anything  for  you .   ” “   you  are  loved .   ” “   i  just  need  a  hug .   ” “   i’ll  destroy  anything  that  so  much  as  thinks  of  harming  you .   ” “   don’t  ever  let  anyone  make  you  feel  ashamed  of  who  you  are .   ” “   you’re  not  alone .   you’re  stuck  with  me  forever .   sorry .   ” “   well ,   hello  sleeping  beauty .   you  fell  asleep  on  me .   ” “   if  you  don’t  take  your  butt  back  to  bed ,   i  will  carry  you  there  myself .   ” “   i’m  sorry  to  wake  you  up ,   but  i  really  need  someone  to  talk  to .   ” “   i  hate  seeing  you  like  this   …   please ,  let  me  help .   ” “   you  are   &   always  will  be  precious  to  me .   ” “   i  can’t  believe  that  asshole  said  that  to  you .   it’s  not  true ,   you  know .    ” “   you  want  me  to  punch  him  in  the  face  ??   ” “   you  deserve  every  good  thing  in  the  world .   ” “   you  know  i  always  have  your  back .   ” “   you  don’t  have  to  worry  about  anything ,   as  long  as  i’m  around .   ” “   stop  apologizing ,   okay ??   i’ve  already  told  you  i’ve  forgiven  you  a  hundred  times now .   ” “   don’t  beat  yourself  up  over  this .   be  kind  to  yourself ,   it’s  not  your  fault .   ”

[soldierslept]

fordanesti​.

Greta blinked feeling his hand remove itself from her face, however feeling the warmth surrounding her own she looked towards Alucard, her hand gently squeezing his own as he held them inbetween, looking down she thought for a moment lifting her head, she approached capturing his lips with her own, she held it for a few moments before pulling back her hand remaining onto his cheek as she did so. ‘ I’m always gonna stay with you Alucard…y-you can’t get rid of me that easily…and if you’d need…I’ll wait for you…I just wanted to let you know how I feel about you….I—I love you Alucard. I know it’s fast…b-but I can’t hide these feelings anymore…I tried but…’ 

                      head is bowed after she kisses him, once she’s pulled back --- allowing her to speak but not saying anything back in response.  not yet,  at least.  he's... well, speechless. he hasn’t felt loved in... well, a long time. he isn’t sure if he feels that now.  he thoughts he had felt it with taka,  with sumi -- but he was wrong. clearly.   “ .. and i --- i care for you deeply, too. ”    but he was still unsure if it was love. there was a lot that greta didn’t know about him,  and he was... well,  afraid.  there were so many opportunities that she had that she could still choose to walk away, and he can’t....    “ i’m sorry. ”   he is.  he wants to be who and what she needs right now... but he can’t.  he isn’t that man.   “ it’s -- hard for me to commit. but you matter to me, greta. ”

[soldierslept]

“Really? That’s what you’re scared of? You?”

                                there wasn't much time that alucard has spent alone. he's faced monsters and near-death experiences with the belmont, but until his mother had passed.. well, a few years ago now, and after he was left to attend his castle, the belmont hold.. he never truly knew what it meant to have no one in his corner until then. it had been --- scary. he was scared of going back to that, become the man that he had turned into for a short while. alucard was too proud to admit that aloud. he knew how time had slipped away from him, how easily he fell into the habits of his father the moment that another had wrong him. adrian would like to believe that he was stronger than that, that he had some backbone. but he caved. easily. far sooner than he had expected.

                                that scared him. the person he becomes when he has no one else to hold him accountable. but that was harder to explain, not something he was quite ready to get into as of yet.    " yes, well.. "      he looks back up at trevor after a moment of thought, nodding his head forward as an invitation for him to go ahead.   " what about you, belmont? what is it you're scared of? "

[soldierslept]

ind .  highly selective .  alucard tepes .   characterization based off of netflix adaptation of the action-adventure gothic horror game castlevania .  as adored by andrew . ✌️

[soldierslept]

sorry for not bein on much, my mood has been sorta low so it’s been effecting my activity 

[naughtyandnicerpmemes]

ANONYMOUSLY TELL ME YOUR HONEST OPINION ABOUT ME. I CAN’T REPLY/COMMENT, JUST PUBLISH.

[justmorerpmemes]

Frightfully Fearsome Starters

“Whoa whoa whoa… it’s okay! It’s okay…”

“What’s got you all riled up?”

“Really? That’s what you’re scared of? You?”

“I don’t want to talk about why. So don’t ask.”

“It affects you that badly…? I had no idea…”

“What are you trying to do, scare me?”

“WHERE DID YOU COME FROM?!”

“You need to stop this… looming you do.”

“A cowards way out, how disappointing.”

“Alright that’s my terrify quota finished for the day.”

“This is one thing you should be afraid of, yet you choose to be a fool instead.”

“You’re shaking. You’re not scared… you’re terrified.”

“I don’t need to hold hands- y’know what I’ll take that offer.”

“Fear always has me, I’m just trained to continue onward regardless.”

“STOP. With your SPOOKING… now!”

“You terrify me sometimes.”

“Why were you scared of me all this time?”

“Oh just get over it. It’s mind over matter.”

“Yes, it’s an irrational fear. That’s what phobia literally means.”

“With fright, often comes stupidity and manic decisions to follow.”

“Fear makes a great paralyzing agent.”

“Get away from me- you get away from me!”

“I’m scared. I don’t know what to do I’m scared…”

“Focus on me, and snap out of it. We can’t have you clamming up right now!”

“It’s holding you back, are you going to keep letting it like a coward?”

[soldierslept]

“  just let me sleep for five more minutes.  ”

                      it was tempting, allow her a few more moments rest. though it was nearly the middle of the day now, and he figures she shouldn't be spending all of her time asleep.

                      " --- you have to eat, sypha. " he comments, sitting on the bedside next to her and placing a hand upon her shoulder. " i can get started on something if you promise to meet me back in the kitchen. remember, you're eating for two now. "

[scifi-fantasy-horror]

by  Song Nan Li

[cluless-deactivated20210213]

so you missed me? I did miss you, I already told you that.

[soldierslept]

fordanesti​.

Greta moved her eyes to look at Alucard, reaching her hand forward she gently slid it under his own, lacing her fingers with his she held his hand up her head turning to once more look up at him. ‘ Alucard…I wanna be there for you…I wanna be by your side…to give you this all the time….to make you understand…that you’ll never be hurt again.’ Greta gently pulled his hand close, pressing small kiss along his fingers, nails on her other hand gently brushing over skin as she placed his palm to her cheek, holding it into place. ‘ I…I wish for you to feel loved again…that is…If you’ll have me.’ 

                          that sounded... nice. really nice. it would have been easy to agree with whatever she said, he knew that he wants her, and he wanted to be the person that she believes he has the potential to be. but this all - it felt too good to be true. it made him feel like shit, even having the thought that she was being disingenuous. alucard has never known greta to be anything but upfront and honest with him even when he would have preferred a white lie. when she comments that she’d like for him to feel loved again, he can feel his stomach twist, heart thudding in his chest. “ i - ” alucard pulls his hand back from cupping her face to instead hold her resting hand in both of his.                           “ i want you, greta. still, i... don’t think i’m able to be what you need me to be just yet. ” his gaze finally drops again, resting on their hands, his still holding onto hers in hopes that she won’t try to pull away. “ i don’t want to make any promises to you that i won’t be able to keep. ” he knows that he has a tendency to run into things head on without much thought, and he’s scared that might be what he’s doing with her.   “ --- is it selfish of me to ask you to stay? ”

[alexandralumetta]

I'm trying some outfit for the Actors!au and my bigger concern is" I'll make Alucard a fashionable goth or is his aesthetic still in the 80s"?

[soldierslept]

                    once the others arm was draped over alucard’s body, he slides himself further beneath the belmont. hands snake around the mans neck, leaning back to smile back at him, and at the stupid smirk that he kept on his face.  “ -- right. don’t let it get to your head. ”  though it may already be too late.  “ you know, it’s the least you could do. ”  he pauses,  leaning himself up to gently press his lips against trevor’s.  “ we don’t have to get up yet, do we? ”  ||  @bcllmcnt​  cont. 

[soldierslept]

“  why are you looking at me like that?  ”

morning after starters.

                                the mornings following eventful nights were always things that he enjoyed, the gentle touches and tired small talk that they have with one another before getting to their feet. and zerenity was beautiful when she lay beside him like this, hair draped over her shoulder and her hand placed on his chest.                                  though perhaps attention has spent a moment too long on admiring her physique, so to speak.  when she questions on why he was looking at her like that, his gaze returns back to her face, a look of feigned innocence crosses his features. " looking at you like what? "  he’ll tease, hand coming up to gently tuck a strand of hair away from her face.   “ .. you make it incredibly difficult for me to keep my eyes off of you,  you know. ”