soliloquy's super hell blog

jamie/sol/any other username or name you remember me having | she/it | plural* transsexual aroace femmething in my mid-20s. | creature on the internet

[soliloquy64]

WELCOME TO THIS BLOG'S FINAL FORM

My name's Jamie and I've gone by many names before this one, all of which are still valid. Yeah. Except that one.

This blog is primarily a reblog blog, as I am a huge believer in abusing main and just taking you people along for the ride.

I will be posting on here primarily going forward, so if I EVER get off my ass and finally make music or something, you guys will probably get demos or early progress reports or whatever.

I am not involved in any specific fandom, closest I would say is my eternal adjacency to the MCYT/Hermitcraft community (love you freaks). In the past, I've been involved in the Homestuck community and Earthbound/Mother community.

Things That I Enjoy A Lot: Sonic The Hedgehog, MUSIC, old technology/internet culture, Snoopy/Peanuts comics, cats and other cute critters, Undertale/Deltarune, Earthbound, weed lol, sports (NFL, PWHL)

I'm a system, one that I believe to be primarily born out of trauma and OCD, that fluctuates its function, members, and activity enough that I don't fully identify with any particular label.

For system related posts, I try to keep most of it over to @psychoboost-soliloquy, where my headmates post about their existence. We will all use this blog, so you probably won't notice front shifts or anything like that.

This blog is relatively politics-free, as I have a lot of political tags blocked on this website. I go to other places to engage with politics, and often times, i just read articles on my own time and keep my opinions to my friends. I will occasionally discourse post about social issues, or talk about hard subjects. For what it's worth, I'm a leftist.

This is not OFFICIALLY an 18+ blog but to prewarn you, i will occasionally reblog suggestive or otherwise kink related things and otherwise 18+ things from time to time. If you are uncomfortable with such things, or a minor, feel free to not interact with me because of this. Regulate your own experience!

[ruthimages]

[im-mender]

Smoking on that we'd

[soliloquy64]

everytime i paint my nails i feel so weird using my hands at all

[soliloquy64]

vyvanse is really working for me so far

[wizard0rb]

[owldude]

[interestingmistakes]

Reblogging this manually. Op doesn't want credit for fear of being terminated.

[notahorseindisguise]

everytime i wear an outfit like this i think about this tweet

[snoopyoftheday]

snoopy of the day

[bad-love]

I just wanted to add this quote from the peppermint patty peanuts wiki page about Charles M. Schulz and his relationship with his gay cousin. The source here leads to a book that I did not read but the original source is Schulz's wife who confirmed this in an interview. If I can find the interview again I will link it here but uh. just in case someone tries to claim Schulz was a homophobe on this post again.

[moth-tunes]

nothing makes me pause and want to obsess over something like when a pop album really resonates with me.

this blog started with a review of one of those. and it is momentarily revitalized with:

Virgin by Lorde on Apple Music

Album · 2025 · 11 Songs

this is not a review, but a reflection on how i talk about and listen to music. the review would be honestly quite boring. it's one of those albums that I instantly clicked with. I walked out of my apartment within seconds of finishing the album to find it on CD. Music like this is so special, because it's rare when music moves you, feels perfectly molded for your specific core and your ears SPECIFICALLY.

every single song when i listen to an album i tend to habitually express somehow with my body language or a comment to myself how i felt about it. if a track's kind of mid I'll do an "ehhhh" hand gesture to myself, or if it's bad I'll say "oh my god that sucks" or whatever.

For this album, for 95% of the tracks all I could muster was, a sort of "well yeah no of course i liked that it's a great song duh" it didn't like. knock my socks off or change my life. it just was a REALLY GOOD MUSIC LISTENING EXPERIENCE. every single song felt nice and fun to listen to and it was so empowering to listen to an album like that.

So why was one of my immediate responses to try to justify myself? To sit down and engage with other people's perspectives to either seek validation or get mad at someone for having a bad take. Am I not allowed to just click with an album without having a dissertation in my head as to why actually this album is just as good if not better than Melodrama? Even if it's not, it doesn't matter anyways!

the beautiful thing about music, and often the frustrating part of it, is that everyone's ear is tuned a certain way. certain things will resonate with someone while either flying under someone else's radar or even being a negative. It's how Imagine Dragons keeps charting while people like me sneer at them. It's how Drake continues having stans. Everybody's standards for what a "good song" is is different, even within the community of music freaks like me.

The older I get, the lower my tolerance for music discourse gets. People who base their entire life on listening to the best most critically acclaimed shit and sneer at anything that has any amount of flaw i honestly hate more than the types of people uncritically bumping the new ed sheeran album or whatever.

i lost my thread. there's a reason i stopped using this blog, beyond the fact its aesthetic no longer represents my music taste well. but perhaps as my opinion and perspective on music matures i should let go of the side of me that feels the need to justify why i love an album, and instead spend a little bit of time just loving the albums that give me that dopamine rush on first listen, like this album. I'm no better than anyone else.

Lots of my musical heroes listen to albums and stuff that I find very corny and bad. I think it's time for me to acknowledge that sometimes something is just special to you because it is special to you.

[ryebreadedd]

made a goldfish mii and got obsessed with her, her name is goldie and her goals in life are a hotdog with large drink

[fullfrontalfish]

She's just like me frfr

[achillesinhighheels]

Artist Elaine Thi shot her self-portrait on a Nintendo 3DS (2026)

[rabbitkinglune777]

shout out to women this pride month

[rabbitkinglune777]

*starts beatboxing*

[stupid-twink-girl]

looks like ive never posted this here lol

[princncess]

its like a gacha pull talking to my plural wife i might get the one who usually fronts but there are the rarer ones also . dormant ones would be a legendary but i havent seen those

[joyce-stick]

Kaguya-sama wa Kokurasetai: First Kiss wa Owaranai

(dir. Shinichi Omata, studio A-1 Pictures, based on the manga Kaguya-sama wa Kokurasetai: Tensaitachi no Renai Zunousen by Aka Akasaka)

[some-pers0n]

How it feels being a little hater with your friends in private spaces and never actually going out of your way to harass or bully anyone

[manuciruja]

awww the like button turns into a rainbow when you press it! that's so cute...hey staff what's with all the trans women you keep nuking?

[manuciruja]

i think we should be ridiculing them more for this. you don't get to try and go all "queer website" when your staff likes to go on nuking sprees targeting the trans fem users

[lakevida]

she's sooo fucking mad that we stop her from running into the garage to huff sawdust and poisons