eyes tell a thousand words - johnlock
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— extremely rushed, i just wanted to post something for my page
may be deleted if this totally flops </3
— eyes tell a thousand words
solaris
john watson x sherlock holmes
- sherlock POV
There he stood proudly, with a promising smile and enlightened eyes locked on his newly wedded wife. No other trace of thought, not even a pinch to his shoulder, could pull his gaze away from her. Away from her, and to me, it was unattainable. It was even absurd to think that I, with rough brown hair and a bruised face, could even become nearly as fascinating as the gentle blonde-haired lady with skin smooth as porcelain. Though, even though I, the great Sherlock Holmes, observed from the sidelines playing the appreciative friend, sinfully yearned for his attention in a moment that had no involvement in my existence.
A selfish bastard I was, to even think of taking the light of Mary Morstan. To have my hand taken gently by Watson, just as he does with her.
I felt the shame, through and through.
The con of being gifted with such a great mind is having to deal with a strong imagination that often tugs at your heartstrings at the wrong time. A mind distracted by the possible future I could’ve had with such a man. More adventures, more memories, more time. This end was inevitable. It was only a matter of time before he left our home, distanced himself, and found a love of his own. I only wished I had made a bolder move beforehand. Regret is what drives me to ache for Watson more. The thought that I, Sherlock Holmes, could’ve even had the slightest chance with him. It felt like a crazed idea at the time. Though now that I stand here, at my dearest friend's wedding, I only wished that I’d realized it sooner, that my time with Watson had been limited from the start. I only wished that I forced myself to place myself in Mary’s spot.
But, I am not a lady. For I do not have the same golden hair as she does, or the slender face complimented by her glowing color, and the subtle curves of her body. No, I do not have the touch of a woman that Watson hopes for. On account of this, I must shield my thoughts behind a stubborn face and act proud for my dear Watson.
I watch, with a slow gaze, as he takes his wife into a soft kiss. One that I’ll never be given the chance to share with Watson because I am but a troublesome, psychotic man with no heart.