Have A Nice Day

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[some-tea-slurping-entity]

Honestly when i get home from Vietnamese class I immediately want to continue reading. I need to be soooo disciplined and productive. I need to be need to be need to be.

And tomorrow I will no longer put off doing the reanalysis that I am supposed to be doing because I am supposed to present it at a conference in barely more than two weeks and it needs a lot of love and attention in order to be presentable. I don't want to fake it till I make it, it should actually be decent.

I am pretty pissed off, not gonna lie. Like, yes I have been too slothful for the past three years but good god if the institute were not such a soulsucking place and if my supervisor were even slightly involved then I would have worked much harder.

I want to scream

[foxes-in-love]

[some-tea-slurping-entity]

I have been super frustrated all day. My official unemployment is drawing near and yes I will be entitled to unemployment benefits but on the condition that I prove that I am actively searching for a job. Now, call me stupid if you want to, but I thought that this would mean applying to 2 jobs a month or so. Turns out it's at least 6. If someone had told me that then I would have probably worked harder. What is worse is that, after the first 3 months, I cannot refuse jobs for the reason of it being too far away because there is no valid excuse for not being able to move house in order to find employment. Well fuck that, I am not moving no matter what happens.

The best case scenario is that I find a part-time job that I actually enjoy after a couple of months, worst case scenario is something I don't even want to think about. Like, it's not genuinely bleak and I am not genuinely in dire straits, financially, but the expectation was that I could half-assed "look for jobs" while I would finish my dissertation. Now it seems more like a choice between not getting an unemployment benefit or spending a massive amount of time searching for a job I don't even want. And even a part-time job would already make it much harder for me to focus on my dissertation.

Lord... Things are going to be okay but this is not nearly as relaxed as I thought it would be. I won't blame someone else for my lack of awareness but when people told me "you need to actively search for jobs" they could have been more specific about how much effort will actually be involved in that.

A sense of urgency has set in that I should exploit in order to get more work done. I have just finished reading another chapter from a handbook. So I did something useful. And that did make me feel marginally better. Yeah... it's time to start hussling.

[foxes-in-love]

[parkchanwoohoo]

[oliviawebsite]

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[were--ralph]

they slayed

[kitschke]

i kinda love this response. just try reading my comment in a nicer voice and you'll feel better

[tippyturret]

[gunsandfireandshit]

[some-tea-slurping-entity]

Will I ever fully clean my kitchen? Like... fully. We may never see the day.

[some-tea-slurping-entity]

Well, I did it. I ordered oral minoxidil. Best case scenario is it stimulates hair growth in all the right places. Worst case scenario is it gives me heart palpitations and water retention in all the wrong places.

Based on my previous experiences, every time that I have tried to do something good for my health it has backfired, so tbh my expectation is that I will bitterly regret this.

[humanpeoplefanblog]

saw this amazing post but rbs got turned off so. get funged idiot

[formerlyluckymanticore]

Reblog if you will never. Ever. Use AI in your writing.

[some-tea-slurping-entity]

I have several problems in my life but probably the one that I grapple with the most often is my lack of discipline. I have never been able to successfully improve it, only managed to have temporary successes.

[some-tea-slurping-entity]

Some intimacy would be nice but unfortunately it's not in the cards

[some-tea-slurping-entity]

I spent about 70 euro on tea, mamma mia

[thegaymertrainer]

Ribbon dancing I was not aware of your evolution 🤯

[some-tea-slurping-entity]

Teaching is fun but lorrrrd on some days it takes a lot out of me. Today, I taught from 9:15 to 11:00 and honestly I haven't done anything for work for the rest of the day. Which is bad and makes me want to compensate for that during the weekend, so... yeah...

Just 4 more times until the end of the teaching period. And checking all the reports/assignments. Oof.

But I have also learnt a lot of new things myself, so it is also very rewarding in that sense.