I Hate Eating

20 he/him Just some bipolar anorexic

[somefagsdiary]

INTRO POST:

Heyy small introduction to me outside of my plethora of issues: my name is Corey, I’m 20, I use he/him pronouns, and I love writing (mainly poetry and short stories), reading books that make me look like a performative knob, and playing unhealthy amounts of sudoku!

I pretty much post whatever is going through my head on this blog and that is usually related to bipolar, adhd or my ed as those are the core things I struggle with. I’ve had my ed for six years now and have been overweight, a healthy weight, underweight, and severely underweight and I’m here to tell ya now all of it sucks when you have an ed so if you can get help please do

Please feel free to shoot me a dm/send an ask, but please know I’m not here to be “buddies” or a “coach” if you know what I mean so don’t come asking for that. I’m pro recovery just can’t seem to find it for myself and post here to find people in a similar place and just generally feel less alone.

This is a side blog so I follow back with my main one where I occasionally post my poetry

[somefagsdiary]

Broke up with my boyfriend I’m so ready for the weight loss that will come with this misery let’s gooooo

[loveridden1999]

person (non-practicing)

[cannibalings]

have you reopened the wound? will you reopen the wound? when will you reopen the wound?

[kosmogrl]

depressed at 11 was crazy i should have become a child prodigy

[mariposas8494]

Did you take your meds?

[somefagsdiary]

OMAD today was a pint of beer and 250mg vyvanse genuinely who gives a fucking shit living is ass anyway I might as well roll the dice a bit to get away from this fucking boredom

[somefagsdiary]

I’m pretty much doing a minor OD on my meds every single fucking week because I don’t want to make the full blown decision to commit but I’m still hoping every damn time that I don’t wake up in the morning. I think my body is seriously breaking down from it but I’m past the point of caring

[somefagsdiary]

If anyone has any questions about ana, bipolar or adhd send an ask! I’ll answer pretty much anything and I’m losing my mind atm so the distraction would be nice

[somefagsdiary]

I genuinely feel so broken. Fuck this life I don’t want it anymore

[somefagsdiary]

I’m 48 hours into my fast and damn near had to stop a stranger on the street on my way back from therapy to call me an ambulance because I couldn’t walk and could barely stand up and it was so hot I thought I was going to get heatstroke lol. I have never reacted so bad to a fast before it’s honestly scaring the shit out of me. Made it home finally but I’ve never had a headache so bad I can’t even sit up now without my vision going maybe this is the end of my current honeymoon phase 🥲

[sourcarmellia]

i can't be the only person who hates being called neurospicy. it's such a weird term. i'm neurodivergent. i'm disabled. call me that.

[syrenki]

there is something within me that i would like removed

[laterkiss]

everytime i want something i should be shot in the head

[lainey03]

i really hate when people bring up the "your calorie counts are always wrong by x amount!" thing when trying to be anti-ed. i've never met someone who reacted by stopping calorie counting, i've only ever seen people lower their counts. i did it too, i was like "well, my real goal is 1200, but it'll be off so i'll eat under 1k" and then did 800 for 1000 and so on and so forth

[somefagsdiary]

FUCKING EXACTLY!!! This has always pissed me off so bad it’s such an unhelpful thing for someone to say literally wtf goes on in some people’s minds. Well intended or not it’s so annoying

[somefagsdiary]

Feel like I’m gonna puke took like 5 times the highest dose of my new adhd meds for literally no valid reason at all wtf is wrong with meeee that on top of not eating or drinking water is making my whole body wanna give the fuck up

[maxxie-or-smth]

every 5 minutes i go wow i NEED to kill myself and then i ignore it because i have things to do