Vast World of Emotions

All my original poetry. Let me know what you think

[somelettersonapage]

When I get really lonely I go running back to you.

The next time I may not make it out alive.

[somelettersonapage]

Darling, I wonder if you would adore me so if you knew how I can be; if you really knew me.

Would you still believe all those things you said about me?

Oh darling I hope so.

[somelettersonapage]

You think you’re average?

You walk this life unnoticed that is all.

Too many souls go unnoticed

For they have not yet found their other half

That makes things clear.

That other soul that takes their sunken greatness

And drags it to the surface.

Darling you say you’re nothing

But oh god do you have it all wrong.

You are everything.

No one is nothing and yet

Nothing is exactly what we all believe.

[somelettersonapage]

Do ever think that you were made too soft for this cruel hard world?

[somelettersonapage]

The tears run down my face like a waterfall.

Faster and stronger the water pours.

It’s getting harder to breathe as every second passes.

I try to scream for help

Anything to make it stop

But no one hears me

I’m drowning in a sea of my own emotions

And oh what a curse it is.

Man overboard is what I want to scream

But it’s time I stop fighting.

Once I let go it will be just a matter of time

Until I come floating back up.

Silent.

Finally at peace.

[somelettersonapage]

My mind is a scary place

Yet I cannot imagine anything else.

[somelettersonapage]

Blue is the color that runs through our veins.

The color of the pathways on our arms that tell us that we are alive.

Red is the color I see when I try to feel alive.

Red stains everything.

When the red comes pouring out of me you do not understand because

Blue has always been your favorite color

But

Red will always be mine.

[somelettersonapage]

I just need one night. And in the morning I promise we can go back to being strangers.

[somelettersonapage]

Figuring out where to start is always the hardest

But once your do there’s no going back.

One day you’re crawling,

You’re walking (one foot in front of the other)

You’re running full speed

Through your life

Towards your destiny.

Don’t look back

Run so fast you feel like you can fly.

You’re floating now.

They’ll try to stop you

But darling don’t let them.

You’re smarter than that.

Smarter than all of it.

No one is perfect they say.

But to say you are imperfectly perfect

What a fucking cliché.

We’re better than that.

More, so much more

Greater

Than we let ourselves believe.

  Together we’ll see

See ourselves through the others’ eyes.

Do you feel it?

My heart pouring into yours.

  One day baby you’ll see

You’ll feel it all.

The effect you can have on this chaotic world around us.

On that day your soul will shine

And I will be right there smiling back

You did it.

[somelettersonapage]

You say you really like me and I believe you but I can’t feel it.

[somelettersonapage]

I’m trapped behind this glass staring out. I gaze at the world around me while I wonder where you are.

 Everything seems so clear yet so obscure.

 I want to feel loved; cling to your touch.

 I want to embrace the cool breeze and golden rays beating upon me.

 But how can these come to be when I feel as though I don’t exist, watching from within.

[somelettersonapage]

You and I were lonely and lost at the time our lives crossed paths. Like children we let our imaginations wonder, creating one another into people we are not.

We liked the idea of the other which we allowed our minds to cultivate.

But just as reality causes a child to fall to the ground at the realization that he cannot fly by his idea that he is a superhero, our relationship cracked and crumbled all around us at the realization that we could not love each other by our ideas of one another.

[somelettersonapage]

I am often searching for myself, for I am constantly lost in a sea of emotions.

[somelettersonapage]

I’d love to wrap up this box that holds my thoughts.

 Wrap it up and pass it along.

 Think. Think. Think.

 Beating. Pounding. Screaming.

 This is shit. Bullshit.

 Keep writing.

 Thinking. Heart beating.

 Live. Breathe. Feel.

  I must live to feel the pain, the heartache.

 I’m not a writer. I’m not a singer.

 I’m just a body trying to survive.

I ache to make it known that I’m more than skin and bones.

 I’m nothing longing to be everything.

 Craving more

 For you

 For me.

  Naked body. Naked soul.

 I can’t do this anymore.

 Shattered and cold

 Blanket my soul.

  This shape in my chest

 It breaks and aches.

 In this darkness will we ever see the light.

[somelettersonapage]

I’m always searching for myself in a sea of others’ words.

In thoughts that have been forgotten.

I find pieces of myself

Scattered across

Countries I’ve never seen

Generations I’ve never lived.

[somelettersonapage]

Warm bodies touching is not the cure to an empty heart.

[somelettersonapage]

Sometimes People Just Don’t Know What They Want

Saturday night I came home to flowers at my door left there by a guy who is not you.

Sunday morning I woke up in the arms of a guy who is not you.

Flowers and naked bodies.

They want me,

I want you

And

You don’t know what you want.