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which means if i chunk this rock at him

sophisticated-stoner

I haven't made legitimate, for realsies, non ironic new years resolutions in maad long

but fuck it why not

masters. healthcare admin, business, fucking dance therapy idc what it's in but we doin it

social life. one that i'm actually engaging in. not forcing myself because it's healthy or any of that bullshit. just... people. who i want to be around.

doggo. I don't actually have any plans for him i just felt like he should be mentioned:)

money. big ang voice: diamonds. not for anything in particular just to have some. stop living like a broke ass lmao

i really wanted to buy a fancy ass monitor but I stopped myself... still want one but I made a deal that I can get it only if I build myself a new PC to use with it

hmmmmmidkwhatelsehappy30tome

sophisticated-stoner

lmaooooOoO so I managed to get the first one done like a week before the end of the year. starting school next week :)

social life.... I mean I would say its definitely healthier now than a year ago. not necessarily active but *shrug*

doggo... well that fucking sucks. rest in peace my baby i love you sooo much and miss you every single day

money... oop. I think im actually more broke now lmfaooo

I kinda cheated on the PC lol. bought a pre-built one but with a motherboard i can fuck with and so far so good, tweaked it a couple times since I got it. mounted a game capture port, upgraded ram. im still broke tho so shit gotta wait

anyway for this year I guess... fuck it let's be bold

-slay my classes

-find a fucking job you unemployed slut

-find a fucking man you lonely ass bitch

-find a fucking hobby you boring ass hoe

idk. if im being honest id be fine with just cruising by and not making too much progress. as long as I dont go back to the miserable and traumatized state I was in a year ago, i think ill be alright

#personal #new year old me #recovery

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thepoisonroom

it's because you're always identifying with that damn character

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vikingfunerals

the commodification of friendship is the most annoying thing to come out of the internet in ages. like actually i love to break this to you but you're supposed to help your friends move even if it's hard work. or stay up with them when they're sad even if you're gonna lose sleep. you're supposed to listen to their fears and sorrows even if it means your own mind takes on a little bit of that weight. that's how you know that you care. they will drive you to the airport and then you will make them soup when they're sick. you're supposed to make small sacrifices for them and they are supposed to do that for you. and there's actually gonna be rough patches for both of you where the balance will be uneven and you will still be friends and it will not be unhealthy and they will not be abusive. life is not meant to be an endless prioritization of our own comfort if it was we would literally never get anywhere ever. jesus.

im almost impressed with how well I've been able to stay in a good mood and not get in my head during any of this holiday stretch

like compared to last year when I was just feeling devastated for like 2 months straight. this time I genuinely didnt feel some type of way about being alone. there were a few times that I was even glad to be alone.

of course those sad thoughts and fucked up emotions eventually creeped their way in. but to be fair ive literally always been a sad bitch on my birthday, even in the pre-trauma days. so its kinda par for the course. and it didnt even start at midnight so thats somethin

#internal ramblings #personal #recovery