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Lately...

So, like always I don't always get on tumblr but when I do I like to catch people up although I'm not aware if they actually read this, this is a way for me to take things off my shoulders.

Lately I've been missing my boyfriend more then I usually do. Maybe because he's 9 hours away or maybe because I miss having him with me. Each day I find myself becoming more and more in a "want" situation. I want him to be with me, i want him to come and see me and I want him to be how he was with me while I was living where he is at. He says it's hard because he knows he cant see me but he still tries and I understand but at times I just feel lonely without him. Depressed.

I love him with all my heart and I am very excited for our future. Our future is the only thing that really keeps me going. <3

#longdistancerelationship love #missing him #hopeful #couples

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Thoughts

I haven't been on tumblr for a long time. I guess I'll catch up people on my life so far. My life currently is in a weird stage. I have an amazing boyfriend whom I love and adore. We've gone through a lot but he always fought and did everything in his power so that we can be where we are today. Almost a year on January 21. I'm pretty excited but nervous. Last time I completed a year with someone we got ripped apart. Even till this day I remember everything that happened the promises that I was promised that now are broken. I've tired to forget and fully move on but it's not happening. I don't love the guy. I love him as a person now. Nothing else... In December he's going to have a child. Crazy to think that I'm actually counting the days. I'm happy for him. He got what he always wanted and now he's blessed with a boy. Still hurts on nights like this that I can't sleep and cause me to over think things and remember my past. You know what they all say "everything happens for a reason" it's true. Everything does happen for a reason. If we never got ripped apart I would of never met my current boyfriend. I'm thankful in a way for that but I'm blessed with both past and present. I don't have anyone to talk to about all this but I know that one day I won't need too. #life #overthinking #cantsleep #lonely