The beginning of the end.

Documenting my demise one post at a time.

[sordidthoughts]

2023 and here we are. Rediscovering this account and getting sad looking at the old posts lol. Life is good. We bought a house. There's a lot of love.

[sordidthoughts]

But damn it's 2022. Is it time to get with the times and just use a digital journal? Fuck idk. Hm I still prefer to handwrite things though so maybe I should just get a regular one. This digital archive will live forever, but a journal can be thrown away and then just the memories in mind will remain. I don't really think I want anyone to ever read what I write regardless but the handwritten journal just sounds more appealing in some way. I feel like I should do both. Is that weird. Eh who's to say. These are my thoughts, for me, not anyone else so I guess it doesn't matter!

[sordidthoughts]

I think I'm going to get a journal. I've always thought journaling was stupid but I can't say I've ever actually tried. Maybe if it's cute I'd be more apt to write in it. And get some cool gel pens.

[sordidthoughts]

Almost 5 years since I created this account. I'm married to the person who broke my heart. I believe he's changed though and wouldn't do it again. Some might think that's naive since the saying goes, "once a cheater, always a cheater." But who knows. My heart tells me that's not our story. My head remembers though.

[her-minds-a-mess]

Even after hurting me a million times, he would still ask me why I couldn’t ever trust him.” she said bitterly.   “But see, that’s the thing with toxic people. They’ll stab you in the lungs and then ask why you’re having trouble breathing.

(via her-minds-a-mess)

[sordidthoughts]

Cheater: SCORPIO, Cancer, Gemini, Aquarius, Taurus

Cheated: Leo, Capricorn, Sagittarius, Aries, Pisces, Libra, VIRGO

[nuttysinoemi]

QUOTE #1571:

Nothing is sexier than a man or woman who can face temptation and have the level of maturity to say, “This isn’t worth losing what I have.”

[rezadoo]

Cheating is more than an action that hurts your partner. Cheating hurts them, yes, but it also hurts every single relationship they will ever have in the future. But more importantly, cheating shows you what kind of person you are. It shows you what you do when things get rough, how easy it is for you to let down your responsibilities and commitments. Being a cheater says, essentially, that you are the type of person that when the going gets tough, you simply drop it before it even starts. No determination is involved. All of a cheaters desires center around themselves and no one else; in other words, The cheater only cares and “loves” so long as everything goes according to their wants. When their partner wants something else, they are upset. So they have an affair because they have found a new person that REALLY gives them all they ever wanted….. Until they realize that this too is absurd and the cycle continues. Don’t cheat. Be loyal, be responsible, and be someone that has integrity.

(via rezadabir)

[littlebrokenthoughts]

I want to hate you. I want to hate you so badly. I want to despise every inch of you, to feel a burning fire of disgust ignite within me when you so much as inch into my thoughts. I want to pick out every one of your flaws, to hurt you and humiliate you so much that you even feel a fraction of the pain you’ve caused me. I want to see crash and burn and to be able to sit back and laugh, to announce that karma’s a bitch and that you deserved it. But every time I hear your name, my heart still beats that little bit faster. And every morning I wake up, I still hope it was all just a bad dream. I want to hate you. But I can’t. And that makes me feel so fucking sick.

It’s been 127 hours since you left me. And 99 hours since I found out you cheated. (via littlebrokenthoughts)

[nuttysinoemi]

QUOTE #1555:

A man that can’t answer your questions when you ask, without getting defensive, is often a man who is keeping more than just the answer from you.

[ttheeraandoommess]

Never trade honesty over something temporary and unworthy.

[ferrutz]

Once you cheat you will have to gain that trust until the end of time; or the end of your relationship. You’ll never truly have it back.

[cassholeeee]

how can you cheat on someone and still look at yourself and think you’re a good person

[acupofmiso]

“Honestly, it hurts,” she says. “Because its taken me this long to finally face the ugly truth: he wasn’t the person I thought he was, and he never loved me the way I thought he did. And what’s worse? He never felt a single ounce of guilt for deceiving me.”

A Story A Day #96 (k.m.)

[kati-cat-lady]

yep.

[nenapisana-zadnja-stranica]

[0ne-more-troubled-soul]