sorensvent

if you know me no you dont

[sorensventacc]

Hey my name is Soren, ive been on tumblr for about 3 years and have had multiple accounts i decided to make this one cause I feel like shit and rants really help. I wont be posting a sh but I will be talking about. Im 16 please respect I will block you if ur weird and respect the fact im a minor.

[sorensventacc]

Tw/manipulation

Tw/self-harm

Tw/$A

I dont understand my stupid ass sister who's older than me mind you keeps threatening to do things to me and my dads yelling at me for saying two words to her. She's saying stuff no one should ever say but no she doesnt get yelled at she only yells shes bipolar and autistic she doesnt know any better! Like stop so am I im not over here making death threats. And im self harming more not cutting but other things I wont share cause I dont want anyone who sees this doing them. I just want someone to here me. She's been through nothing shes been a sheltered homeschooler her whole life. Im here ive been $A'd, groomed, suicidal, manipulated my whole life and a lot more I wont get into... I hate everything theres only my friends keeping me alive atp.

[sorensventacc]

I WANT A GIRLFRIEND SO FUCKING BAD. Like im not sad all the time and I dont talk how I do here its just my personal thoughts here but I'd say im nice, protective, and caring. I also am like always online and love calling and will talk tk you every chance I get

[anaphylacticmind]

I may care about you, but not enough to destroy myself

[randomfriendlyloser]

i cant even pretend like i'm not hurt. i am. i'm too sensitive. i'm too vulnerable. i get hurt easily. i'm afraid of everything and everyone. i take everything seriously. i dont want to put on an act

[star-vemaxxing]

"lose w8" "low cal" "a4a" "mia" "bed" "binge" "⭐️ving" "gw" "ugw" "cw" "sw" "edtt" "edblr" "edtw" "bmi" "calories" "water" "workouts" "lax" "cooffe" "tea" "purg3" "mealspo" "thinspo" "goals" "motivation" "gum" "ice"

[sorensventacc]

I know it's making me worse

[sorensventacc]

Memories so fragile and fading away with time

I'm nailed to this adult-sized bed, kneeling at your feet

Begging for forgiveness again

I cry out to you every night in the sharp chord of desperation

Can't get this feeling outside of my head

Can't get this feeling outside of my head

Can't get this feeling outside of my head

Can't get this feeling outside of my head, no

You're alone at sea and I'm stuck here with

With my friends, writing letters to you

[sorensventacc]

Why does everyone always leave

[sorensventacc]

Just a little stoned:3

[sorensventacc]

I want to kill myself.

[decayingrain]

I'm so lonely but im scared of you seeing more of who I really am.

[sorensventacc]

Why is this literally my thoughts

[rawthoughts-world]

Am I the only one making scenarios about me committing? I lay in bed thinking about all the details and sit there and cry. I feel so guilty about it.

[cannagracie]

feeling irredeemably lonely. it might be too late for me

[ghostofluv]

Maybe I deserve all the terrible things that happened to me

[slashvent]

realizing no one will ever love you the way you want to be loved. no one will ever see you how you want to be seen. it's all so fucking useless.

[tyynicbubul]

I keep waiting for someone to notice i’m not okay without me having to say it.

[sorensventacc]

Great job, Soren! Ur alone again