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he wasn't even looking at me and he found me
Kaledo Art
AnasAbdin
ellievsbear
RMH
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Xuebing Du
JVL
noise dept.
PUT YOUR BEARD IN MY MOUTH
"I'm Dorothy Gale from Kansas"
Cosimo Galluzzi
@theartofmadeline
NASA
#extradirty
shark vs the universe
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@soul-wanderer
bonus:
look around, look around at how lucky we are to be alive right now
Hollanovaas goes Switzerland:
Luca convinces them to go hiking in the mountains when they're back in Switzerland during their summer break. Shane overpacks even though it's just a day trip, while Ilya is just excited to explore the nature.
It's all fun and games until they come across a herd of sheep and of course Ilya is the one who starts petting them and instantly befriends them. Eventually, Shane convinces him to keep going, but the problem is that suddenly the sheep start chasing Ilya, who begins to squeal and run ahead, in an attempt to escape them. Ilya and Luca keep walking at a regular pace and Shane turns to Luca with an amused smirk and asks, "There's no danger, is there?"
Luca laughs and shakes his head, "Absolutely not. They just want more head and butt scratches. But it's more fun to watch him try to outrun a herd of sheep."
Shane very much agrees and they eventually catch up to Ilya, and Luca grins at him and tells him "You know they stop running after you when you stop running, right?" earning himself the most impressive scowl and pout of all time
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Heated Rivalry (TV) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Luca Haas/Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov Characters: Luca Haas, Shane Hollander, Ilya Rozanov, Ottawa Centaurs - Character Additional Tags: Pride, Pride Parades, Pride night, Domestic Fluff, Fluff, Fluff and Humor, Humor, Ilya Rozanov is healing, Polyamory, Established Relationship, queer joy, pride month, Autistic Shane Hollander Summary:
Luca asks Ilya and Shane if they have ever attended Ottawa Pride. When he learns that they have not, he gets the whole team involved and thinks they should do a Pride Night for one of their games too.
Or: Ilya and Luca go to Pride, and Shane is happy to help, and the team somehow gets dragged into all of this as well, but they all end up loving it, after all.
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Heated Rivalry (TV) Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Luca Haas/Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov Characters: Luca Haas, Shane Hollander, Ilya Rozanov Additional Tags: Eating Disorders, Recovery, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Angst with a Hopeful Ending, Hopeful Ending, Anxiety, Mental Health Issues, Polyamory, Public Backlash, Dead Dove: Do Not Eat, Getting Together, Coming Out Summary:
Luca Haas had always been a happy child. He had always been an anxious child, too. He's always been a perfectionist, and it's all starting to catch up to him when he gets drafted to the NHL and when he starts playing on the same team as Ilya and Shane. Matters become more complicated when he starts to develop feelings for both of them and has to find a way to cope. He does find a way, but it ends up costing him more than he could have anticipated, and Ilya and Shane are right by his side when everything is falling apart.
Heated Rivalry - Silly Screenshot Edition
Shane, baby, relax. You are doing great! That's the man you are gonna marry someday, your 'tism totally secured you that hot stuff :)
Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Heated Rivalry (TV) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov, Luca Haas/Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov Characters: Shane Hollander, Ilya Rozanov, Luca Haas, Harris Drover, Ottawa Centaurs - Character Additional Tags: Birthday, Developing Relationship, Feelings Realization, Hopeful Ending, Fluff and Humor, Fluff, Humor Series: Part 5 of Domestic Hollanovaas Summary:
The locker room was loud after practice, full of the usual chaos and banter they had all grown to love and appreciate, even if things tended to get loud and messy fast. It was, also, Ilya's birthday. Which was exactly why everyone should have been suspicious when he stood up on a bench and announced, "As birthday boy, I have a request." A chorus of groans immediately followed. "No," Shane tried to intervene before Ilya even had the chance to explain. Ilya dramatically pointed at him, "You don't even know what I was going to say." "I know you, that’s enough,” Shane sighed, shaking his head a little. Ilya just grinned and continued as if nothing had happened. "For my birthday," he declared, spreading his arms, "I should receive one kiss from every teammate."
Or: The one where Ilya might be a bit of a menace on his birthday to get Luca to admit his feelings for him and Shane.
When Shane can't be with Ilya for his birthday, he makes sure a cake and balloons get delivered to Ilya's place, with the promise of celebrating properly the next time he visits him
I accidentally made the Vegas penthouse scene look like a blueprint for the initial sketch 😭🤣
love the duality of "thankful for everyone who cared enough through the past weeks to talk me off the ledge, because my brain went to some dark dark places" while simultaneously thinking "everyone hates me, I know they're all lying or one step away from leaving"
we contain multitudes, I suppose
Fandom was literally created for freaks by freaks. If you can't handle freaks in the freak hobby, then get out.
Luca brings up the idea of inviting everyone over to an "End of summer BBQ" as a way to get together before the end of their summer break and to catch up before the beginning of the season. It's great to see everyone again, including partners and their kids, and Ilya is immediately on board, while Shane needs a little more convincing initially - not because he doesn't like having their team over, but because he likes to plan and be prepared. Ilya and Luca promise to do most of the work and Shane can give his input on the things that matter to him.
The thing is, Luca loves team get togethers, but he also knows they make Ilya happy - not that anything can fix his depression, but it does help his mental health to be around people he loves. Luca also knows that while these days ask a lot of Shane, he still enjoys them, because he never really had this before, not with people who wholeheartedly loved and accepted him anyway.
These BBQs become a tradition after that first year, and they all look forward to it, especially watching everyone's kids grow up and meeting the newest additions to a family.
One summer, a few years later, it's Ilya, Luca and Shane's turn to introduce their newest family member to their team that has become family to them over the years, and especially Ilya and Shane are beaming with pride as everyone wants to meet their son, and if Ilya is tearing up, everyone knows not to mention it, and Shane looks so endlessly soft as Luca leans into him, knowing their son would grow up with a family that would always love and support him, no matter what
Western Sara Lance is my sexuality
Legends of Tomorrow || 6x08 ||
movies I've watched in 2026
Io non ho paura | I'm Not Scared (2003), dir. Gabriele Salvatores
HudCon & Hollanov approved mental health days for everyone ❤️
Chapters: 16/? Fandom: Heated Rivalry (TV) Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov Characters: Shane Hollander, Ilya Rozanov, Yuna Hollander, David Hollander, Grigori Rozanov Additional Tags: Developing Relationship, Developing Friendships, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Light Angst, Found Family, canon compliant parental abuse, Autistic Shane Hollander, Eventual Smut, References to Depression, Grief/Mourning, First Time, Forced Proximity, Roommates to Lovers Summary:
One moment Ilya and Shane believe that the draft will turn them into opponents. But when they both get drafted to the Metros, the narrative changes. Yuna knows her son doesn't want to live with one of his older teammates. She also notices Ilya looking lost. So, there's no harm in suggesting they live together, right?
I haven't always been this sad.
I haven't always been this sad.
I haven't always been this sad and solemn and not much fun to be around. There was a before, though in hindsight, I could not point out where the before ended and the after began.
The thing is just, my sister left when I was four and no one ever explained anything to me.
The thing is just, I was always a little behind, and always a little ahead, too.
The thing is just "She's really smart but she can't focus, so it's best to send her to a different school."
The thing is just, that I was still so smart, but never fit in, so I changed schools more time than I care to count. And at one school the bullying got so bad, but I did not understand, because I was autistic and no one knew, and it got so bad that those are the only two years of my life I barely remember.
The thing is just, my mother got sick when I was still so young, and I was being bullied and suddenly I was left alone at home, and no one found that weird, even though I was only 13.
The thing is just, that she got really very sick and she got really very mean, too. And my parents had broken up when I was still so very long, but they had spent so long fighting through me, that I got used to the abuse at such a young age.
The thing is just, that she never got better, just got worse, and I was already getting so sad, but I finished school at 16 and that's when I became responsible for everything, including keeping a roof over our heads. And it was too much, but I didn't have the words for it.
The thing is just, I was 16, 17, 18, and work was hard and I was autistic and had ADHD and I didn't know. I only knew "I am tired, I can't do this anymore" and my father did not understand.
The thing is just, I tried to end things then, twice, and doctors aren't sure how I survived, when the truth was I did not want to.
The thing is just, I was 19 and there was nothing left. No job degree. No perspective. No will do live. Stuck at the hospital, where I was forced to eat and forced to live and was told that most patients return. And when I got out, we had no money left and I had to choose between food for myself or food for the dog. The dog always won.
The thing is just, I went back to school after that, because fuck this. Maybe I do have a chance. And I knew this was my last chance, so I got my diploma, and I got accepted into university, and I was the first one in my family, with no one to help me. And I got so overwhelmed and I had to work to make it work, and then we almost lost our apartment, and it took me almost 5 years to get my degree and I knew I was different by then, because why was I struggling more than anyone else?
The thing is just. Waiting lists were closed. And when they opened, it would be another half year, and then my struggles would be scrutinized. Because I'm a woman. I got my autism diagnosis and had to seek a different specialist because the refused to see the ADHD. I did not want either. I got both. And a disability status on top.
The thing is just. I had a dream job. Things were looking up. I lost it when I had to reapply and my boss favoured someone they personally knew. I spent weeks crying. I found a new job, but my boss there was an actual monster, who got rid of me for speaking up about racism and ableism and bullying that happened to me.
The thing is just. I haven't found a job since then, because I stopped being a people pleaser and started asking for accomodations I need to survive. Not even thrive. Just survive. But asking for a flexible schedule is already too much, despite my disability and caregiver status.
The thing is just. I'm not depressed. I'm tired. I'm exhausted. I'm living in a system that does not want me. I'm living in a world where I became too much for everyone around me. There's no one left. There's nothing left.
The thing is just. I know the system won't change. And I'm too tired to keep fighting for my right to exist.
The thing is just.
The thing is just.
The thing is just.
