a digital doll's archive

romance, poems, devotion observations of a wannabe omniscient and omnipresent being

[soulglare]

10:12am 7.27.26

if only the memories werent so strongly attached to you

then i wont be haunted by them

i said goodbye forever to you again for the second time in a dream

we got to hang out again

i miss your presence and i dont miss it at all

well,

i only miss the surface

everything underneath drained me empty

the surface was easy to walk on

the surface was easy to see

nothing to trip on

it was easy to be

didnt have to wonder what was going on beneath

just enjoyed the time together

nothing deeper than teeth

sunken into soft convenience store foods

let go of my memories please

i see your hands still pulling at the sleeves of them

or are those my hands?

i know they will continue to haunt me if i dont detach from them

but they are my memories

they belong to me

i have the right to hold onto them

like how i hold onto thorny roses

and i bleed the exact same deep red as the petals

[what-even-is-thiss]

I think a lot of people were raised being told that things are bad with no explanation as to why they’re bad and I don’t think I know enough about psychology to make any big statements about that

but anyways I think a lot of people see cheating on your partner as bad because they were just told that sex outside of your partner is bad or something but really cheating on your partner is bad because you had an agreement based on trust with them and you broke that trust so like why should they trust you with anything else now

[eneloh]

[ruicui]

oversharing online is so important cus like what if someone needed to know that

[anglaised]

“trad wives just need to realize their inner queer!” i promise u the white women that believe in the great replacement theory don’t have inner queer thoughts they are just nazis

[derinthescarletpescatarian]

[ageae]

[waltzingbi]

*me, literally sick with want* whatever

[stuckinapril]

[mopdog8]

[stuckinapril]

I’m not the woman I was a few years ago or even a year ago but I still like to hold her hand and remind her she did her best with what she knew

[normal-with-adhd-is-a-joke]

Conservative beauty standards are back with a vengeance which means it's especially important to go out this summer with bellies out and bodies unshaved. Also be unapologetically disabled with mobility aids and wearable medical devices and stim toys and ear defenders and all that stuff. You need it. People need to see it. Everyone needs to be reminded that life is unquestioningly more enjoyable when you're not living inside an arbitrary set of rules created by people who are offended by all the wrong things.

[zemerlule]

I want the kind of intimacy that makes us nervous to even look each other in the eye

[homunculus-argument]

Day 174/365 of listing something good I saw today:

A teen boy in a parking lot got out of a car, holding his elbow up at an odd straight angle, and approached a lamp post with an awkward but cautious gait, and pressed his arm against the lamppost. While it's none of my business what other people do and why, I did wonder what the goal of this exercise is, as he didn't hold his arm up evenly enough for it to be an useful measure for anything, and trying to measure up what spot on the lamp post would be roughly on his shoulder-height didn't seem like a piece of knowledge that would be useful for parking right, or anything else for that matter.

Getting closer while passing by, I saw he had a little friend! He wasn't measuring anything, but carrying a small spider on his forearm, trying to gently persuade the little beastie to climb onto the lamp post instead of running around in the car or on his person.

[squeakitties]

it’s actually crazy how passion and sincerity is the answer

[mournfulroses]

Federico García Lorca, from "3 Tragedies; Blood Wedding, Yerma, Bernarda Alta,"

[twistaloo]

It makes me sad seeing a video of a little girl engaging in some normal play activity and all the comments are about how she’s gonna be a mother when she grows up. Haha what if I just kill all of us though