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Topics List: Sweets

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CAKES

CANDY

CHOCOLATE

CONFECTIONS

COOKIES

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Instant breakup:

I need to take my birth control.

You owe me 15 quid.

I have your hoodie.

I'm going to be petty and not give it back.

I still can taste the food on my tongue that you made me.

But I've forgotten how you smell. I don't know how you walk anymore.

It's been a day. You've already become a distant memory in my mind.

Can you now, actually define me as "kind"?

I've never slept in your bed. You've never slept in mine.

I'm wearing underwear I bought just for you. I thought it try and redefine.

There's shitty condoms in my drawer. And scraps of you left around my room.

You think I hate you. But I just don't like you.

- written by me

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Heaven is burning:

I don't want to talk about it later.

My rooms a mess. My teeth are crooked.

My throat burns and I need to drink some herbal tea.

-written by me

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Y'know I think it is okay

Y'know. Because I've blossomed and I've bloomed.

I've gained a confidence. An independence. I didn't quite have before.

So I think it will be okay.

I know it hurts. And I know it is awful and a cookie cut experience we have all had.

But you were texting your ex. I was moving on with my life. I was creating something.

So beautiful. So gorgeous with you. I thought that's what you wanted too?

You were texting your ex, I was writing love poems.

You were texting your ex, I was making Spotify playlists.

You were texting your ex, I was raving about how GOOD you were.

Do you get it now?

That I will be okay. That I have found a stability, I don't think you could comprehend.

I love who I am now. Life has never been more full of colour. I have never felt more like myself.

You have never been more lost.

But I've finally found myself.

I always felt like my existence revolved around those in my life I could fall in love with.

It's kinda like how we thought every planet revolved around the earth. That we were the centre.

Until we found out we revolve around the sun. We are not a centre. We are only a piece.

The Copernican revolution.

Cause that is what I've had.

I've realised you are not the centre.

You are only a piece.

You are the earth and I am the sun.

- written by me. The Copernican revolution

[weltenwellen]

Kim Addonizio, "For You", Lucifer at the Starlite

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Friends

I didn't think we would last forever.

I knew we wouldn't

That assumption would be unrealistic

But I would've thought we had longer

Longer together

If I knew this was when our path would die

I would've stayed your friend

As I was willing to sacrifice your friendship for a summer set romance.

A lasting summer set romance.

But it feels our time has been cut in half

Your company is all I enjoy

But I have enough friends

We cannot stay in contact once this ends

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Conversational poetry

I guess I just miss him

But you're still dating him

Yeah but I miss

HIM.

Who he was. What we were. We're together but I miss who we were last month. The last two months. I want to go back to what it was. I miss who he was.

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Spark

Our story is ending.

The ignition to the flame dying out

I won't let you see my disappointment

As you poured water on the flame

I began to pour oil

You started to pour oil too yet soon it was watered down

The light fading

Our spark

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I will love every atom of your existence.

I will love you for your weakness.

Love you when strength cannot make its way.

As it need not to.

I will love you in your darkness.

I'll be the stars amongst night when all feels shattered.

As I love you when you're bright summer mornings and dark winter nights.

I will love you through despair and when words cannot make their way.

Because your soul is beautiful and your eyes shine.

You are kind. You are empathetic.

I will love you through it all.

Whether rain or shine.

When all feels too rotten to say.

Or when strings can't tie to make you explain.

I will love you everyday.

-spacedust333

[spacedust333]

Existence feels like being stuck in an enclosing room

With blank white walls.

Seeing everything and nothing in blankness.

With the right words or actions

Enclosing walls expand.

But with each wrong word or act

Suffocation creeps in.

Perfection feels necessary to avoid complete destruction.

But through mistakes a pattern is spotted.

A way to make it out.

This sequence couldn't be found without flawed existence.

Yet, flawed existence must be calculated.

Too many flaws and all is lost.

Too much perfection and all is stuck.

A balance I cannot seem to find.

Escaping my forever enclosing mind.

- spacedust333

[derangedrhythms]

I do not know what so attracted me to him—those who say that certain souls recognize each other instantly and cling to one another inexplicably are right.

Olga Tokarczuk, The Books of Jacob, tr. Jennifer Croft

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I'll stain your lips with pomegranate bliss

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Laying in bed is so much more comfortable when paired with sadness

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Stolen Innocence

I know you love me,

Yet, what an ache that settles in my heart knowing this fact.

Your kind eyes. And gentle soul.

To love a taken soul. Stolen.

So how can I walk this garden with you.

With ripped to shred roses. The decay of orange and lime.

Your eyes tell thousands of wants.

To hold and exist with me.

But how can you do such a thing?

As my body cannot be protected by your grasp.

My body still belongs to her.

Her hands chained to my chest. Her words burnt into my brain.

You cannot be a safety net. Any form of net was shredded through razors.

Don't you get it?

This garden. This safety. This life.

Has been shredded once. Then a thousand times.

As so much was taken. Not just the present. But the future. And looking before that, would be filled with bittersweet tonic water.

There is so much salted ground that you stand on, whilst in my company.

So much I cannot give. As my body became a vessel to be used.

So this experience I replay in life.

I know you love me.

But can you experience my hesitation?

My cold demeanour? How souless and empty my eyes can be?

Even when gazing upon beauty and grace.

For me, to love is to ache.

And to experience my heart, may make you ache as well.

So I know you love me.

But this feels conditional.

- written by me

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First kiss

The words "I can't" I whisper.

With an undertone of sadness and agony.

I gaze into your eyes.

I fear there's a lingering disappointment.

But there is no greater disappointment, then what I carry in flesh and bone.

I know not to cross the yellow line.

Know it'll be too much.

Too dangerous.

Yet, shame enhances all of my being.

The person on the other side of the mirror.

Looking with hatred.

Wishing for normal.

As there is so much I want.

I have dreams. Desires.

But something about the descent into intimacy feels like a bag over my head.

And my bones are weak. Brittle.

Breaking upon impact.

So I CAN'T.

And it's tragic.

Because I want to.

- written by me

[spacedust333]

At the end of the day, you can't hate yourself into loving yourself.