[across-stars]

trapped in carrousel for his crimes

[across-stars]

also PSA, this was basically me the last 1.5 years, just going around in circles

will be taking a short break from tumblr, some personal thoughts below ^-^

i'm making some changes though; moved (though still unpacking and sleeping on the couch) back in with my mom and bro, got a job for the weekends as a waitress at the same cafe my bro works at (there will be a trial period of a month, but I have good hopes since I already helped clean up after an event yesterday night, and while I was exhausted I also just really need the money), I'm going to university 4 days a week to study (and also to not have to be around my fam and in the small flat too much)

...and I'll be taking a break from tumblr (and social media in general, but tumblr is really the only platform I'm dedicated to, reddit and insta is just doomscrolling)

I'm mainly writing this post as a reminder to myself to allow me some distance, since I have made my tumblr experience quite a bit of a burden through the many different themed accounts, side blogs, and other commitments like things I wanted to track... but I'll be quite busy the next few months, and I think it will actually be good for myself to keep me busy with studying and working and spending less time with myseld and my thoughts. I really want to re-commit to my studies, and also deal with my doomscrolling, which I think will be most effective if I just cut down on internet time in general

I want to keep believing there's good in the future for me, even after an increased decline in my mental health over the last +/- 16 months, especially after having received news less than 2 weeks ago that yet again the waittime for my clinical assessment has been moved

I have an idea for the future for myself, the main elements being having my own place and having financial safety, and I want to believe it's possible to achieve that peace <3

I'm finally taking concrete steps again towards this future, towards peace and safety

good luck, tumblr, see you around

[kalichnikov]

I'm not joking even a little bit when I say mass effect 1 is the greatest western rpg ever made

[breadedsinner]

My favorite Renegade Shepard moment is when they say they don’t want Ashley on the ship, and Anderson tells them he didn’t ask for their stupid opinion so shut the fuck up. Inspirational.

[illusivesoul]

Bioware tries to make Shepard's death and resurrection a significant and impactful event in the narrative of the trilogy challenge (Gone Wrong) (Only managed to do "I got better" jokes)

[kauriart]

LT. Kaidan Alenko

[dataheights]

Tali'Zorah 6/10

[point-maitimo]

« Our influence will stop Saren! in the battle today, we will hold the line! »

A kind of poster for the Virmire mission. My favorite quest from the first game! So iconic. Now I thought that the picture shows the characters that can die during this task. So much responsibility on Shepard!

[lunalorien]

Replaying Mass Effect again and wanted to draw Kaidan 💙

[danzadair]

Thinking about Kaidan Alenko, the character who was put into combat training as a teenager because of powers he did not choose, who killed an abusive authority figure when he was only trying to protect someone else, who entered the military because he never had any other option because of you're biotic and not asari you're a soldier, who's implants to hone the ability he never chose gave massive headaches, and that could've given him a lot worse, who always does everything by the book because he knows what can happen if he doesn't keep control, who admits the love of another person makes him feel human.

You know. The boring squadmate.

[spacefarerz]

Dr. Michel's eyes are so pretty I wish I had picked that shade of green for my Shep 😪

[spacefarerz]

[spacefarerz]

Amaranthine

[cryptid-jack]

Kaidan found his sweater, finally

[spacefarerz]

he's so pookie coded 💕

[spacefarerz]

unexpectedly hit me in the feels. guys it's us!!

[spacefarerz]

the Noveria minigame was surprisingly fun

[spacefarerz]

more Shepard