so, i know its been a while since ive done this, but
HRT UPDATEEEE!!!
so its been ~3 months, and ive officially started spiro! also had my blood drawn for the first time, so that was fun. some changes ive noticed is definitely the mood swings. my mood can very easily shift; at least much easier than it was able to before. another thing is that ive noticed less body hair. like, its still there, but it feels like its not as noticeable as it used to be, or it grows slower, of sum like that. also also, i officially measured myself again, and i am at a b cup finally! the fat redistribution is definitely helping that fact, but also i can feel the breast buds growing very rapidly, theyre much bigger than they were before. ive also restarted my antidepressants, so now im taking 3 different medications. the tenderness in my chest can fluctuate from time to time as well. there are some days i dont even feel anything, but there are also days where my chest is almost constantly in pain. of course, like i said, it fluctuates anywhere between the two. but its usually somewhere in the middle
now for the kinda gross tmi stuffs, if you dont wanna read this, just skip to the next paragraph now...but to those of you freaks that are curious: my libido has also been over the place as well. some days i dont even think about anything sexual, but then there are some days where its nothing but that, of anywhere in between. when i first started, it was pretty dull, like there was nothing there, but now those kindsa feelings are starting to come back
ive also felt my sexuality start to change a little. i felt that i was more attracted to feminine/androgynous people more than masculine presenting people. like, im still pansexual (or at least i think) but the best microlabel ive been able to think of is "berrisexual" (please tell me if im using this wrong). obviously, for simplicity's sake, i just tell people im pansexual, but if i really get to know someone, i would rather tell them that. plus its a really cute name :3
i feel like ive been dressing more kinda masculine recently? not like too insanely masculine, more androgynously if anything, but not, like, constantly wearing skirts/dresses. although i still LOVE and ADORE my cute lil skirts, i dont feel like i have to always wear them to be a girl anymore, yknow?
anyways, thats pretty much all i got. cant wait to log the next part of my hrt journey :3
