Rayn

20 year old girl trying her best

[sparklingrayn]

♡Introduction♡

Hi hi~ I'm Rayn♡

I'm 20 years old, and I've never really had an online presence before, so I am super nervous><

I hope I can talk to cool people and make some friends on here!

☆Some things about me☆

°○ I really connect with Jiraikei and want to know more about it!

°○ I enjoy art and music!

°○ I'm on VRchat a lot, although it's a bit scary sometimes... But I get to be a super cute anime girl on there♡

°○ I am ADHD and have very big feels><

Feel free to ask me, I want to post lots here ^o^

[sparklingrayn]

Gonna start posting on my mainblog lmao, I'll have this one for other stuff ig

[loser-otaku-girll]

I'm a jirai, and I think that menhera as a concept is an ablest idea made to make suicidal urges and self harm and stuff are bad, but Christ I wouldn't actively try to bring others down with me that's just rude

Menhera was made before jirai as a way of coping its not ablest to want to get better. Which is where jirai and menhera split its like mentally ill is u wanna get better its more menhera but if u wanna get worse/dont care about getting better its more jirai

[sparklingrayn]

Isn't menhera just short for mental healther on jp 4chan/2chan?

[sparklingrayn]

I am so borrred

I want to drink and get messed up!!!!

I want gummies to pass the time!!!

He won't even be on headset so theres nothing to do, i forgot how i lived before him

[sparklingrayn]

I want to drink... please let me drink im so sad

[sparklingrayn]

God i want to drink so bad

I can't have edibles anymore, that was literally the only thing keeping me away from drinking

[mun-urufu]

I’m bored let’s make a reblog chain

what are u wearing rn:

what you wish you’d be wearing (does not matter how expensive or outlandish id be):

what situation/place are you at rn:

favorite clothing style(s) all around:

I’ll begin:

wearing rn: dark green cargo pants, trekking shoes, light blue shirt and dark blue jacket

what I wish I’d be wearing: dark green cargo pants, dark green jacket with more pockets, combat boots

situation rn: traveling

fav style: mix of street ware/millitary esque (comfy and efficient don’t judge me) or dark academia + cottage core

Tagging some ppl to get this started: +OPEN TAGS (if ur tagged feel free to not do it no pressure)

@im-a-sentient-magic-carpet @daggerhobbit

@thecrazyalchemist @enochianghost @just--a--random--human--being @hadoom @uwathebestgirl @pennyroyald @hyperfixationbullshit

@wolffuwu @rp-rs @styxwaow @asters-tempo

[thecrazyalchemist]

Wearing rn: gray shorts and a pale-light-blue T-shirt with a purple-blue drawing of a fish with symbols around it and the word Seattle written in cursive underneath

What I wish to be wearing: idk.

Where am I rn: my room

Fav style: traveler-esque, dark academia, Victorian, lab clothes

@aggressivenesswhilecrying @alchemicalwerewolf @anna-is-bored @annotated-catastrophe @anotherhumanperson

@be-gentle-with-littluns-2 @bleep-bloop-boo @breadismylifeline @chocolate-cake-enthusiast @cloverthesimp365

@coswinx @dragonerd8224 @dumbass---tm @four-leafed-queer-gal @f4y3w00d5

@green-001 @givemeasong-singamelody @homelessnerd @homocidalpotat @horoscope-misreader96

@i-eat-so-much-grass @ima-bellwoo @jaydove-writes @justanotherenbyhere @loki-god-of-mischief-13

@meshaamem-li @morningdew112358 @mun-urufu @names-confuse-me @oliviartist

@onetimemacaroni @passtheranchpls @pteren @raylaismad @rosiiclouds

@sentientballofpeas @sketchy-potato @supermilkshakebanana @a-dam-heartstopper-fan @thebookshelflord

@thehumandictionary @the-letterbox-archives @theoncelee @touslin @twordishdragon @unstableunicornsofasgard

@utterqueerdisaster @violet-hady @xylophonerabbit

[alchemicalwerewolf]

wearing rn: light blue t-shirt and black knee shorts +a hairtye on my wrist

what I wish to be wearing: pretty much this actually

where I am rn: my living room

fav style: steampunk

@emmaspersonaldiary

[emmaspersonaldiary]

Wearing rn: a oversized scott pilgrim t shirt

What I wish to be wearing: shorts

Where am i: my bed

Fav style: comfy sweats

@getyourpaybackwithsomepayback @ya-what--ya-erster

[albiealivetmrw]

wearing rn: stretchy teal pj pants and sage green slogan shirt (also used as pjs)

wish to be wearing: something linen for a shirt and my fav lightweight black pants oughhh need them rn but they’re in the washer

where I am: my bed under my covers w my window open

fav style: T shirt and black shorts for warm weather: t shirt, hoodie, and sweats for cold weather.

@writingraccoon @ethereal-bumble-bee

[writingraccoon]

Wearing rn: a long, loose rainbow dress

Wish I was wearing: If the weather had suited it, I would be wearing my enjolras cosplay rn (and if we're being really unrealistic, I would be wearing a binder underneath)

Where I am: on my couch, waiting for my breakfast to cool down so I can eat it and leave for the event I'm going to

Fave style: COLORS I love wearing bright colors, loud patterns, loose clothing. Hawaiian shirts, the aforementioned rainbow dress, swishy skirts, I LOVE THEM

@alchemicalwerewolf @be-gay-do-several-crimes @coolvoidcomputer @dead-welsh-king @bumblingest-bee @eryanlainfa @ethereal-bumble-bee @elihoneybee @exis-j-harvey @faggotryandtransjesterism @glassamphibians @hey-look-at-the-stars @ilovebeesandallthat @itsgrapes-exe @ithappenseverytime @keithbutgay @meganwasbored @narnianvalkyrieofberk @origami-butterfly @oliapfel @orbitalbeetle @plutoarttv @permanentboxatsheepsheadraces @pealeii @roleplay-fanatic @sleepyyghostt @saveugoodmadam @varibean

SO SORRY IF I FORGOT ANYONE I PROMISE IT WAS AN ACCIDENT ACT LIKE I TAGGED YOU AND DO IT

[hey-look-at-the-stars]

wearing rn: black tight t-shirt and tan shorts

wish i was wearing: honestly i’m so comfy but maybe different shorts

situation/place: on my bed on the phone with my bsf

fav style: relaxed and put together

no pressure tags: @giant-clown @ferno-does-random-shit @webboygirl @charcoalsdestiny @thelazywitchphotographer @moiistdirts @alostlittleriverlotus @gods-most-autistic-cat @sameasieverwas @i-have-no-idea-111 @queers-of-marybelltownship @disappointingcabbage @piney-45 @astridcookie @2econd2ight2eers @angerycat @rebelrobinrules1984 @nellysview @sad-trash-pigeon @conanssummerchild @neveseos and anyone else who wants to/that i didn’t tag

[i-have-no-idea-111]

Wearing rn: black long sleeve t-shirt, baggy black jeans, oversize black shirt and red converse

Wish I was wearing: my pyjamas

Where am I: school...

Fav style: grunge and stuff like this

Tags: @caroliendsk @galaxys-universe @nothing-is-black-and-white @aledthebooknerd

[galaxys-universe]

wearing rn: green checked flannel, t-shirt, unbuttoned button down shirt, black shorts and space socks

wish i was wearing: my favourite pajamas and girl in red hoodie

where i am: my dads house

fav style: oversized idk

@jokes-randomness-galore @lonely-girl-1612 @runwiththerain @totalcharliespringsimp 

@dakrapatops @yelenapines @s0lit4ir3 @sad-girl-shit11 @bleep-bloop-boo

@ali-da-demon @a-dam-heartstopper-fan @judy2009 @mybedroomceilingsbored @carrotsinnovember

@osemanobsessed @itz-magz9 @annotated-catastrophe @imthatweirdratinthecorner @tatersgonnatate

@pennyroyald @green-001 and anyone else who wants to join no pressure

[sad-girl-shit11]

Wearing- a ford oversized t shirt and motorcycle boy’s sleep pants

What I wish I was wearing- this

Where I am- on a road trip home to my cats

Fav style- either dark academia or cottagecore

@automaticsoulharmony @dormienscattus @mybedroomceilingsbored @patiori @sagaofadyingstar-thesequel @zzzubie

[automaticsoulharmony]

Wearing- sweater type shirt, flare jeans I drew stars on, and nice socks

What I wish I was wearing- something slightly comfier

Where I am- sitting on my couch

Fav style- honestly idk anymore

Npt: @roseandgold137 @jpg-of-dorian-slay @masterofthew1cket @rootbeerrex @fatallyaddictedtofiction @little-doggy-girl-kisser @10dunksfansinatrenchcoat @6kate1bishop6 @ohtobecat @angelwiththeblue-box @thebat-musicman @saphic-with-t @sapphicmoonlightlilith and anyone else!

[masterofthew1cket]

this is probably the most straight girl taggame ive ever done lol

wearing rn: black cargo pants evanessence shirt w/ fishnet sleeves under and b&w adidas superstars + slipknot hoodie😎💥🐀💯‼️

what i wish i was wearing: uh idk adidas trackpants or somethin

where i am: under a tree waiting for the bus to get to my skewl so i can go home💔

fav style: whatever the fuck those korn guys had going on in the 90s

npt: @monscrow @eden-has-rotted @moreghoulsandghosts @poolboyservice @yoshiebear @idiotmaggot @continuousmeowing @bitchboy @moldyburger1 + anyone else💥🐀

[bitchboy]

TY FOR THE TAG <3

wearing rn: black shirt with the sleeves cut off and blue fuzzy pajama pants with stars on them

what i wish i was wearing: some band shirt idk, super baggy tripp pants, cool studded belt, fingerless skeleton gloves, cool necklaces, zipup hoodie, fake raccoon tail, knee high converse... actually im not sure how good this would look im just combining all the things that i like 😭😭

where i am: in my bed i just woke up at 4 pm..

fav style: scene, and mall goth

@notlikeotherwarlocks @manliestman @raytorosguitarstrap @skully-64 @th3creationofadam @heaven-helpus @ihave-6-dollars @d3l-t4co @d4nger-d4ze no pressure and open for anyone else to join!

[notlikeotherwarlocks]

Wearing: Yellow shirt with frigs on it and some pajama pants with black cats on it :3

Wanna be wearing: Raccoon tails, baggy pants, my doc martens (i should wear them more tbh), uhh a band shirt

where I am: in my bed, I'm gonna make my lunch in a bit ^_^

fav style: scenemo and also mallgoth

@thefandom-casserole @kerfy-derpy @what-in-the-dickens

[dirt-and-wyrms]

-green hoodie

-green hoodie but maybey fresh from the dryer

-am in my bed :3

-i really unironically love cowgirl-wear but i also love goth and punk style <3

@cr33p-a-z01d @theronanlynchshow @shepherdzcane

[theronanlynchshow]

what are u wearing rn: sabrina carpenter espresso shirt & coffee print fuzzy pj pants

what you wish you’d be wearing (does not matter how expensive or outlandish id be): a whole-ass ballgown

what situation/place are you at rn:

situation: mental breakdown

place: my room

favorite clothing style(s) all around: chaotic academia, vintage 70s-80s fashion, fairy grunge

tagssss

@roadkill111 @lady-hibiscus @kutie106 @monarchofthequeerpotatoes @maturefruitboy

@emilem-forevermore @asters-tempo

also open tags <3

[kutie106]

thxxx for the tag!!

what are u wearing rn: collared shirt under a sweater with a skirt & tights (it’s picture day at my school I never dress up this nice)

what you wish you’d be wearing (does not matter how expensive or outlandish id be): My color guard costume (we just got them in they’re so pretty)

what situation/place are you at rn: School bus

favorite clothing style(s) all around: Androgynous fairy grunge

@forestgromlin @musical-dash-trash @iloveyapping @paloma-ascends-into-hellfire and anyone I forgot to tag or wants to join!!

[bumbylbee]

tysm for the tag!! :D

what are u wearing rn: a thrifted brown skirt with a sequin pattern and a cream colored shirt (most of my outfits are dependant on a sweater to pull them together, which i am currently not wearing lmao)

what you wish you’d be wearing (does not matter how expensive or outlandish id be): literally anything from my pinterest boaard

what situation/place are you at rn: my bed, i just woke up lol

favorite clothing style(s) all around: gremlincore/boho/fairy grunge/cottagecore/idk, clothes

@musical-dash-trash @ivys-head-is-spinning @weapproveadamandsteve @weirdo-of-the-woods @wren-is-a-wreck

[wrens-waffling-again]

AAAAAAAA this looks like so much fun!!!

What u are wearing rn: a bright blue hoodie, straight leg jeans, and my favorite pair of converse (don’t judge me it’s a Thursday)

What u wish you’d be wearing: dude idk maybe the same pants with like a cute shirt and a big jacket???

What situation/place are you at rn: I just got to school (save meeeee)

Favorite clothing style(s) all around: uhmmm I don’t know how to explain it but think the big sister or babysitter in a coming of age movie? I like downtown style too

<3 : @safetypinsama @sondheim-girly @swimreadrepeat @sleepycloudi

[safetypinsama]

thank you for the tag aaaa

What I'm wearing right now: Baggy black zip hoodie, black tank top with lace at the top, baggy black pants, and dance shoes

What I wish I was wearing: My favorite Grey hoodie with a white camisole and bootcut jeans </3

What situation/place are you at right now?: Theater rehearsals after school, off stage of course, I'm not part of the fight scene they're working on so I'm on my phone lol

Favorite clothing styles: grungy and Gothic styles in general, gyaru (I like several substyles) and girly kei (though I'm drifting away from it in favor of more alternative fashions that fit me better)

Tags !! @mad0katsuki @tenantoftheorpheumcircuit @sizzlingcandyjellyfishhhhhh and literally all of my moots,, sorry tagging on my phone is terrible TT

[deactivatedbcitsucks-deactivate]

Ty for the tag ^^

What I’m wearing right now: a two piece pink Miffy pijamas, more specific it’s a shirt and shorts.

What I wish I was wearing: actually I’m comfy like this hehe

What situation/place are you right now? looking at my cell phone in my living room

Favourite clothing styles: girly kei, dark girly, lolita fashion (specially egl, hime and shiro), mori kei, executive clothes, grunge, 2010-2015 fashion, 50’s-60’s fashion and coquette.

Tags! @loser-otaku-girll @silly-nini1 @isaacdeesnuts @yu-and-rei-vi @drchokoloko @cloversmainblog and whatever who wants to

[loser-otaku-girll]

Ty :3

What im wearing rn: a ghostface shirt, blue and white star pj pants and long black socks

What i wish i was wearing: uhhh idk im pretty comfy

Where am i/what am i doing: living room sofa eating bread and scrolling

Fav clothes style: most j fashion

@j1raiv4mp @bitter---wing @cuteeth2 @genesbluejeans @gothjirai @goofylouie @miffyscreams @x-choutenchan-x @silly-nini1 @angelicfrill @yourbeloved-maid @yourdreamsweetheart @t4tskkism @unlucky-in-love @orchidmantiss @oshidorifuufu @omg-ame-chan @stylecanon22 @pinksite4 @strawberry-meltdown @notsocutelife @xmoonshardx @xxxxholic @jellyfish-sadist @jiraiema @landmine-marie @porcelainguro @porcelain-dollzz @sulkingangelx + any moots i didn't write im tired and going off memory

[bunnrio-deactivated20250111]

tysm ! ♡

what i'm wearing: da pjs. mother mother concert shirt, white patterned pants, red varsity blouson (accidentally got too much blood on the sleeves and didnt bleach it so it now has permanent status of pj robe ehe☆)

what i wish i was wearing: some of my girly kei pieces tbh i wanna feel cute. or just comfier pj pants

what situation/place: procrastionating on work in my room and dreading my next online class hhhhhhhhh

favourite clothes style: dark alt!!! especially with lots of edgy themes and frills!!! gothpunk, emo, dark girly, dark coquette, gothic lolita, etc etc!!!

ummm gonna try tagging moots that arent tagged lets seeeee @jiraidanshi @jiraigoddess @raynpuddle @sailorjirai @lavenderpilled @dev0ted4ngel @jisatsu-hime @tapiokauwu @persocons @jiraimaxxing @sinnerangelic @jiraicakes @sleepy-princette @ashen--nightmares @coffee-dere @heartshattering @cyber-ais @bunrotten @jirai-in-heavy-syrup (if any moots do/dont want to be tagged in the future lmk in an ask! i wont answer it publically so dw :3)

[sparklingrayn]

What wearing? Just underwear><

Wish to be wearing? I am free and content rn

Situation? Watching kaguya sama with my bf on vrchat and some warhammer40k painting videos

Favorite clothes? Girly kei and ouji fashion? Subcul fashion of anytime is fun, as long as I feel cute♡

Tags? Anyone who sees this (moots&followers):3

[relatablepicturesofgilgamesh]

you what

[sparklingrayn]

Jirai reference?

[bunnrio-deactivated20250111]

i wanna get drunk,,,

[sparklingrayn]

I decided to quit edibles

What should i replace it with?

Only thing I can think of is doing performances again

Maybe vtubeing or becoming an independent musician????

Weh

[sparklingrayn]

I think we were moots but i lost my account :/

Ye! Welcome back!!

Forgor that you need to follow me back to become moots lmao

[sparklingrayn]

What if I started up Vtubing again?

I can work hard><

Working on a vroid model rn and I'll import it to vrchat

[nyaa]

[wishfuldeity]

ive said this a few times now but like

making stuff a floret "need to make mistress proud" thing really makes it so much easier

the idea of showering (which i will do after this) seems genuinely really appealing right now, because i imagined how proud mistress would be for me overcoming executive dysfunction and getting an important thing done

something something immediate internal reward? idk

[sparklingrayn]

Is it unusual that i got so upset i had to stop watching an urban exploration video because the building was heavily vandalised like destroyed?

Im ok with graffiti, i think, but the walls were purposefully ruined and smashed:(

[sparklingrayn]

Do i even deserve that money though. I feel so disconnected from my indigenous status... i grew up in a white ladies house from ages 4-19

[sparklingrayn]

Random thing...As an indigenous gal, im I eligible for that cs claim?

I grew up in the foster system...apparently i was taken when i wasn't living in a reserve but ordinarily i think i would've...I think. I don't know much about my past, I feel so confused about everything .

Another cause of exempt from the claim is if the removal was caused from abuse (excluding neglect and emotional abuse for some reason)

I wasn't....mistreated in the foster system...my boyfriend tells me other wise. But I could've had it far worse you know? I know some kids bounced house to house and no one helped them with their mental health or anything.

Its just...It'll be nice if i could get $30,000 monies from *staying* in the system until I grew out of it. I didn't even get much help getting out of my old home into my apartment besides getting my furniture inside and getting some free stuff (birthday and Christmas gifts of moving out stuff)

Another area of money im entitled to is cows and plows money. I think i get more money from that, honestly. Don't know when it's being distributed, though. Apparently, there's also money from my band that's getting handed out sometime Christmas or next year. My brother is dating and has three kids with the chiefs daughter, so I got a bit of inside information, hehe.

I hope i get it before next year. Moving in my boyfriend would become so much easier i think.

M-maybe I can get a house? Or move into a bigger apartment first, then in the future get a house?? At the end though, It'll be nice to live without worrying about money.