Ramblings of a Sparrow

A personal blog for Sparrow. I maintain a WoW RP blog for Syreli Morningshadow and numerous other characters. Feel free to send me messages or asks. Lots of random inspiration, writing and self made mood boards for my characters and their partners.

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Dr Who Test Board ~ 

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Kal and Sy test board. 

@iron-and-light

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Nobody tells this to people who are beginners, I wish someone told me. All of us who do creative work, we get into it because we have good taste. But there is this gap. For the first couple years you make stuff, it’s just not that good. It’s trying to be good, it has potential, but it’s not. But your taste, the thing that got you into the game, is still killer. And your taste is why your work disappoints you. A lot of people never get past this phase, they quit. Most people I know who do interesting, creative work went through years of this. We know our work doesn’t have this special thing that we want it to have. We all go through this. And if you are just starting out or you are still in this phase, you gotta know its normal and the most important thing you can do is do a lot of work. Put yourself on a deadline so that every week you will finish one story. It is only by going through a volume of work that you will close that gap, and your work will be as good as your ambitions. And I took longer to figure out how to do this than anyone I’ve ever met. It’s gonna take awhile. It’s normal to take awhile. You’ve just gotta fight your way through.

Ira Glass (via akuanocturnal)

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Aleriin Test board. NSFW themes

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Az and Lyl test board 

@boendark

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Atticus and Lee test board

@iron-and-light

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Nola and Rin test board

@bloodied-talon

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Sy test character board

@syrelimorningshadow

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降雨kōu sjØ ☦1990!

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Inspiration for the start of a short story to come

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If you could look out over the sky and learn everything you had wanted to know, would make the view any less perfect? There are times when, for an instance I believe in something far greater than myself.

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In a time of destruction, create something.

Maxine Hong Kingston (via promptly-written)

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Love this

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This~

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The Start

The days seem to fade in a mixture of grey scale colors. A Jackson Pollock filled with nothing but black and whites.Day in and day out I face the world in my monochrome, color blind vision. My brain tells me this is normal, it is better than seeing nothing at all. It tells me that I should be happy to at least have the vision without worry of emotions. I don’t bother asking my heart because it has been silent for years, cold and unfeeling. A pattern set in long ago, and I do not fight to break it. 

Familiarity took it’s toll. I got too safe, too comfortable in my grey world, protected and safe. I set my sights on you, and it was as if everything suddenly caught fire. Bright lights, colors I had never experienced, started to move around me, and I took a breath like someone who had been drowning. Gasping, panting, unable to catch my sight, it was my heart that started to beat so loud I could not stand it. Creaking with life, it moved to break out of my chest in it’s entirety. Pain enough to make me double over shot through my body, and I clutched hard, trying to cage my heart but failing in the most decedent ways. 

You were like my own personal hell. One I had never known, but still somehow managed to hate. It’s not as if you did anything wrong, but I still sat there despising you for bringing my heart back into an equation I didn’t want in my life. I knew then, that you would be the death of me, and I couldn’t tell if I craved or feared it. 

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Changes

I am going to devote this blog to my writing and personal use. <3 Love you all.