(spazz)

Jazz lover, aspiring aesthete, tired

[bobmckenzie]

"I can fix him" "I can make him worse" OK well I can sit behind him and wrap my arms around his middle and comfortingly rock him side to side

[spazzjedi]

😭😭

[spazzjedi]

Is Tumblr still anybody’s safe space?

[spazzjedi]

AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH

Owner of Tumblr confirms site’s shift from “surging” to “small and focused” | Ars Technica

they're trying to kill Tumblr. AGAIN.

LEAVE US ALONE

[spazzjedi]

One is what I am, and one is what I am working to become, not by using drastic measures, but pure science with a dash of willpower.

It’s about damn time I started loving myself. I deserve it.

[steelycunt]

emails couldve been something beautiful. in the right hands

[spazzjedi]

they still are

[steelycunt]

emails couldve been something beautiful. in the right hands

[spazzjedi]

they still are, depending on between whom it is going back and forth

[burrowandbengals]

The passing of Matthew Perry is genuinely hitting hard. He portrayed the hell out of a character that I adored for many years of my life. A character that was hilarious yet insecure, confident yet awkward, a character that never failed to put a smile on my face. 'Friends' has been watched hundreds of times at this point and now it won't hit quite the same. Matthew, like all of us, had his struggles and I can only hope that he is at peace.😔

[spazzjedi]

I’m glad he passed. His life seemed to have been an endless struggle and he deserved better. The FRIENDS reunion special really hit me when he cried.

Maybe he paid his dues and finally he won’t be in pain anymore.

[wetheurban]

You shouldn’t have to beg for anything you know you deserve. Read that again.

[andhumanslovedstories]

had a genuine revelation in therapy that made me burst out laughing, been a while since I had one of those

[andhumanslovedstories]

therapist was talking about urge surfing (the idea that urges are waves that come and go if you ride them out, so the more you delay acting on the urge, the more likely you are not to do it) and then I was talking about how the transient nature of my emotions is actually what gets me so mad, like it’s actually very very annoying to be so so sad but to also be thinking “I know I’m very sad right now but unfortunately I am going to feel better later so I can’t destroy my life for one minute’s gratification,” and it’s just so annoying because if I knew or at least believed that I was gonna be sad FOREVER it would make things much easier, but instead I’m so mad at the knowledge that this too will pass. like it’s a manifestation of weak will to not feel bad forever.

and my therapist was like, “so even at the worst times, you still have hope”

and I was like “holy shit dude” because never once in my life have I considered that the little bastard voice that tells me not to smash all the dishes because they’ll be a pain in the ass to clean up in ten minutes is the last gift/curse of Pandora’s box

[andhumanslovedstories]

hope is a thing with wings, i.e. a bird and like most birds is 1) very beautiful, 2) very annoying, and 3) sometimes shits on you

[mckitterick]

Urge Surfing - what a powerful concept!

no wonder I’m such a fan of caffeine (and probably why all those coke fans of the 80s got so much done)

it’s like lubricant for putting ideas into motion. just ride the wave!

[pandora-s-shit-deactivated20220]

Having ADHD is that your brain either feels like

Or

And it can switch in a matter of seconds.

[devinwolfi]

bold of you to assume im not

[joyfully-it-devours]

THATS IT THATS WHAT IT LOOKS LIKE

[oysters-aint-for-me]

birdy.., !’

[meow-moment]

Yep that's what it's like

[spazzjedi]

I want this so much right now. Just me, a glass of whiskey with discernible body and some jazz. It is incredible how your preferences change with age.

I love my 30's

[spazzjedi]

An ode to the sense of urgency

Urgency, that pressing sensation That drives us with determination To act, react, and not delay When time is scarce, and wanes away

The limited time we're apportioned Before the sands of time have fallen So heed urgency's clarion call And give your all, your all-in-all

[wetheurban]

Make your love life a living testament to the peace you find in independence, so that when someone does enter your sphere, they're adding to an already beautiful existence, not creating one for you.

[spazzjedi]

How I wish I’d lived like this before that special someone did enter my sphere.

[ashstfu]

i am so in love w life right now. i wake up super early & i do pilates. i love to hear the chirping of birds in my quiet house on a sunday morning and i play jazz records and silently make myself coffee and enjoy it with a poem. i am developing a habit of eating fruit everyday and i take long walks in the evening and i love watching people do their thing. i visit the beach atleast three times a week, i love the sea and feeling the gentle breeze of the wind on my face. spending my time at beautiful coffee shops and bookstores. i study on my living room floor and actually love that. i read every night before i go to sleep & listen to music while watching the hills illuminated by lights. my friends come over every friday and we cook dinner together and have a little dinner party, i drink wine in the bath, i buy myself flowers and take myself out for dinners. i actually feel good & fulfilled w my life <3

[ashstfu]

i also dont have instagram <3 deleted it three years ago and honestly, one of the best decisions i’ve ever made

[spazzjedi]

Please God give me the courage to delete Instagram

[spazzjedi]

I did not know there was a new Swift remastered album release today. Looks like some part of today (length of the album) will definitely be spent productively.

[spazzjedi]

I AM SO TIRED. WHEN CAN I SIT ON A BEACH SOMEWHERE AND SIP SOME FRUITY DRINKS OH LAWD

[spazzjedi]

This was such a slap in my face, I loved. Woke me up really nicely. I talked to a professional today. My only request was that they ask me really good questions that would lead to realisations like this.