speaking between the void's thighs

Because shouting into the void does not describe what happens here. sideblog. poetry, ed recovery, ed not recovery, ramblings, pretty pictures. you name it, bruv. xxiv.

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"I used to dream

Of the current tearing me apart

Until I was whole again"

-unknown

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“I do not deserve to be afraid to talk to you I do not deserve the anxiety of never knowing which side of you I will get I do not deserve to pretend to be someone else in order to preserve a false peace I do not deserve to be yelled at when I ask you if you like the cut of my bathing suit I do not deserve this.”

— an epiphany

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This quote always starts getting notes again around holidays. You lot stay strong and remember that you deserve the best 💚

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One word in little light

Different words in fuller sun

Would she speak about me like that, too, 

Were I not around?

Lie about her likes, gently let me down 

to other tolerant, even enthusiastic, ears?

Then the early morning confessions come and I

-tendrils of my bleeding heart reaching out, I-

sometimes give my own, if words so small as mine

-if thoughts so unorthodox as mine-

even count.

“Are you still naive?”

a voice in my head asks

“Do you still not know how to do this?”

[studystarve]

Here are some Medical Tips/Facts about EDs

1. If you are eating very little, make sure you are consuming some sodium (not too much) so that you don’t induce hypotension. 

2. Make sure you eat a banana or potassium. Many people with EDs collapse without it.

3. Learn the difference between water soluble and fat soluble vitamins. In short, water soluble vitamins are flushed from your system after it extracts the needed bits. In fat soluble, the extra unused nutrients from the vitamins are stored in your fat/body and can become VERY toxic to you if you contain too much of it. 

4. Do not exercise if you are fasting or have eaten very little. This can destroy your health so quickly. 

5. If you aren’t eating enough for a very long time and are underweight, there’s a chance you will lose the ability to have kids/ make someone pregnant. 

6.  Laxatives and vomiting completely diminish you of electrolytes. Electrolyte potassium plays an important role in helping the heart beat and muscles contract. Make sure you replenish them via sports drinks, pickle juice, etc.

7.   Your metabolism will crash. That’s why most former people with EDs end up rebounding into obesity. 

8. Food restriction and/or vomiting will cause gastroenteritis. This in turn causes bloating and nausea (plus a whole slew of other symptoms.) 

9. Severe binge eating has been known to actually rupture the stomach and cause a life-threatening condition.  

10. The brain consumes around 1/5 of your consumed calories. Lowering your calorie consumption damages/impairs the brain. 

11. You will lose your sex drive. The hormones, testosterone and estrogen, are produced by the fats and cholesterol we eat. If none present, the hormones fall. 

12. Make sure you have some iron. You can self induce Anemia if you don’t. 

13. Start recovering or encourage your followers to recover. We all know what damage we are doing to our bodies, so I don’t wish it on anyone else. Recover. 

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Play songs of healing like war marches.

[imaginarygirltnt]

"I am a skeleton made out of flowers,

Seeds lodge themselves in my bones,

Tangled roots spread across my frame,

A delicate network of nerves and veins,

I am garden on a cemetry floor,

Beauty born of compost and worms,

Watered by rain and shallow tears,

Sinking into rich earth,

Hoping to rise again."

--Treasured Corpse by Imaginarygirltnt

[rivkahhannahsf]

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Oh beautiful!

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"I am a city of cravings,

A castle of ravings,

I ravish time

and space,

In beauty pagents

and ugly feelings,

Exhaling sweet words

on smog filled breath,

Blowing sugared kisses,

to twisted hard-candy figures,

Searching for the cool taste

of water on a raging, sour sea. "

--Bittersweet by Imaginarygirltnt

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"I am a kite

And I am floating away

Among the shapes in the clouds

And the roads I am sculpting there

I experience vertigo

And am searching for where I am tethered

I need to speak with

The person who tied the knot

Just to hear their voice

I need to become a bird, to land

Did I not once have a nest?"

- ungrounded

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Late night poetry dump~

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a merciful august

Why'd you have to think about it

Why'd you have to reopen it

I keep on going

I have decided to live in kindness

I have carved a path by carving everything off

After such a harrowing summer

A merciful August came

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No. 7

My regards to the world

In the gold light of the sun

There's much to be learned

And too much to be undone

I love you too much to hear

I love you too much to see

Wasn't stupid like my brother,

I'm just stupid like me

I've got offwhite wings

And a heretics voice

I get a slap on the wrist

Cause I make the most of my choices

And I want to understand

But I'll hunt it myself

I'll find the tablets

And bring them back to shore

-.

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We size each other up like predators

All eyes and teeth

I don't believe you for a second

I don't believe

We're all charisma

and calculated comic relief

I don't believe you for a second

No, I don't believe

Spent enough time talking that I know how I sound

Spent enough time hurting that these stiff muscles ache

Saw the shape of a mentor and a friend come around

Like a shadow beneath an iced over lake

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, that my eyes pin you down

I'm only looking at your core, for a way out

I'm sorry if I'm spitting venom at undeserving targets

And I'm sorry but the walls aren't coming down

I'm an archer at my window, I'm a guard at my own door

I'm a valkyrie and a furie and I'll never tell what for

I'll turn you inside out like they turned me before,

Its cold in my castle but it's got heated floors

-.

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Validation has become your drug

A dangerous and addictive substance from the start

Do you remember your withdrawals?

You must end your dramas

You must act and connect through love

I think I fell off

A snake of broken glass twists through my abdomen

Devouring

I am coming back

Look up

-.

[ephemeral-autumn]

“I try to teach my heart not to want things it can’t have.”

— Alice Walker (via naturaekos)

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3.46

Write my life as a study of how to need less

How to take up less space, how to be easy to forget

These silent footsteps are doing their best

To pass without a trace, insignificant

Sometimes I haunt these halls, and I draw the attention of the party guests

They swore they heard someone speaking, but their mothers hushed them,

Darling, it's only the wind

I picture myself singing among twisted willows

But does it make a sound if it's a song on the air and they and I are alone?

I will fade into the earth

and try to see worth in my quiet work

And if you hold me in your thoughts long enough the air might start shimmering

Drawing form out of firmament to walk among the living

One day maybe they'll find the box of journals under my bed

But we've only got 12 years until the planet might be dead

Maybe the time of late artists and philosophers has fled,

And a ghost praying to the wind must make her peace with them.

When I was alive I raised my voice too loud

And felt it knocked into silence by an uncaring crowd

So let the vines twine around me

Let the boards of this hallway creak

Under wind instead of feet

Let me disappear, freely

To watch the world quietly

Immersed in its beauty

Watch the great play of things

Uncomplicated by me

And if you hear singing, startling you from your bed

Sleep soundly, dear, don't worry your head.

Sometimes it whistles, and sometimes it howls;

Let it fade from your mind, sleep peacefully- it's blown on, now.

It's only the wind, It's only the wind.

It's only the wind, I'm only the wind.