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Hi! I'm Oliver, We're bodily 23, and the host of the Spectral Ensemble! We are a diagnosed polyfragmented traumagenic system with 300+ alters, some of which don't front very often anymore but they very much exist in headspace.

I will likely be the only one who talks here, but just in case here are other frequent fronters!

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Roux/Raia (27 / she & he / bisexual)

Sheridan (adult / any / bisexual afaik)

Violet (adult / she & it / straight)

Mortis (16 / they & she / aroace lesbian)

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Our blog we follow from is @lullabynorth, and that's where I, the host, like and reblog stuff. Any system posting will usually end up over here. Our partner system is @sycamoretower !! ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

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DNI if you are one or more of the following:

Someone who posts syscourse

Post mostly NSFW content

Are anti-kin

Are anti-agere

Think systems are just roleplaying

Post untagged vents on purpose

Are anti-LGBT+

Think narc abuse exists

Are pedo / map or supporter

#pinned post #oliver.txt #actually did #actuallydid #dissociative alters #actually traumagenic #did #dissociative identity disorder

please save us. i'm in co-front with a fictional vampire. he's picking apart his source characterization and cursing anne rice into oblivion.

#actually did #actually traumagenic #actuallydid #dissociative alters #anti endo #dissociative identity disorder #did #oliver.txt #l.txt #no you are not getting his name but i did hint towards it in the post #he does not wish to have that name be public yet

pluralitypoll

I NEED YOUR HELP.

okay so, long story short, i'm rebooting this poll. why? because it's been too long since i did part one, and we as a system have met and learned about more characters that are plural since then.

so! i have a google form where you guys can also submit your own characters/headcanons. that way you guys can be more involved!

#hi

krerue

#gardner tag.

that struggle of not knowing any good system/did youtubers to watch because the main one we used to watch is..... very controversial

#oliver.txt #actually did #actually traumagenic #actuallydid #dissociative alters #anti endo #if you know of any tell us here bc god

satanfemme

icried4you

Jellyfish Table Lamps by Joel Bloomberg

cnidarian dreams

Happy #JellyfishDay! The oceans are increasingly full of these gelatinous invertebrates, provoking a range of responses in humans, from disgust to awe. The biologist and artist Ernst Haeckel was most certainly in the latter camp… https://publicdomainreview.org/collection/ernst-haeckels-jellyfish

#bort's stuff

squishsquishy

>> the_story_of_a_biologist

#bort's stuff

sysboxes

[Text: This alter feels guilty for being hypersexual.]

[Text: This user feels guilty for being hypersexual.]

[Text: This system feels guilty for being hypersexual.]

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zain-syscourse

"just dont let vulnerable alters front alone!" its not a choice for some people. particularly CDD systems, not being able to control who fronts is very common. take your performative unrealistic advice elsewhere.

many-but-one

If our system is in a situation in which vulnerable alters are ever in front and gatekeepers can’t switch someone else in, we really only have three major rules and that’s these:

1) alters who don’t know how to drive are not allowed to drive

2) alters who don’t know how to cook are not allowed to cook

3) only frequent fronters are allowed to text family

The way our system functions is that we (almost) always have our fronting gatekeeper (who is technically a persecutory protector) watching the front, though that doesn’t always mean he has control of the body, so for the most part if any other safety concerns are present he can usually guide those parts to a safer situation. Which is different than some CDD systems and is different than OP’s original statement.

However, these three rules alone are the ones that are most important for keeping vulnerable safe for us at this time. If we don’t let our vulnerable alters talk to anyone ever or don’t let them do anything ever, they will never learn how the world works in “today time,” which will leave them vulnerable forever. Our vulnerable alters are allowed to do or access anything the less vulnerable alters can do or access in exception to cooking and driving, because those can have major physical safety hazards, like crashing a car or burning an apartment down. The third rule is to keep vulnerable parts from trying to text people who are unsafe in our family.

Our goal is to keep ourselves safe while also giving vulnerable alters the chance to learn how to exist in a world that most of them haven’t taken active roles in for sometimes almost two decades. We want all of our parts to eventually be accustomed to how to function normally, and if we deprive them of that, we are doing not only them a disservice, but also our entire system.

Introjects have feelings too.

We are not just caricatures or cardboard cutouts of your favorite characters.

We exist to protect the body from harm. Some of us exist to keep track of others in the system. Others like us.

And some of us just exist to exist, and that's okay.

Being an introject isn't fun and games either.

It's worrying about how our psuedomemories connect to the body's own.

It's being confused by a world we don't belong in.

It's no longer feeling like us.

It's having to hide in fear of others perceiving us wrongly just because of our source.