HOPE HAS BLUE EYES

ind. pri. sel. nadia godfrey from hemlock grove  |  mature and triggering content!

[dantvra]

HI I AM…  not back but i just wanted to post an update so all of you know.  i haven’t really been well mentally.  i’ve been struggling with anxiety and depression for quite some time and it’s just been brutal.  i’m really more active on d.iscord than anything.  ( i change my username too much: relaxing bird#7063 ) even there though i’m really spacey with communicating.  things have been looking up though,  so i will be back eventually.  i still absolutely love these children and i could not abandon them for the life of me.  i’m just struggling.  i hope y’all understand.  and i hope y’all are havin’ great ass days.  love you guys 

[renastere-deactivated20191215]

today  u  were  born  so  happy  birthday!

hey  may,  my  cherub  friend  may,  my  good  fellow  may.   from  what  i  know  you  have  had  a  good  day  today  and  sincerely,  that’s  what  you  deserve.   i  hope  you  have  many  more  to  follow  and  that  you  can  be  content  again.   even  then,  some  days  i  think  you  are  or  are  simply  having  a  better  day,  and  that  makes  me  happy  to  know.   your  well  being  has  always  mattered  to  me  and  nowadays  it’s  been  no  less.   i’ve  known  you  for  Just  About  a  year  now,  coming  up  four  days  after  today,  and  really  i  can’t  fathom  that  it’s  been  that  long.   a  lot  has  happened  between  us,  with  some  ups  and  downs  but  those  are  okay.   you  are  still  one  of  my  closest  friends  and  i  can’t  stress  enough  how  worthwhile  and  valuable  this  friendship  has  been

i  guess  to  start  off  i  want  you  to  know  how  proud  of  you  i  am,  truly.   i  probably  say  that  too  often  anyway  but  for  as  long  as  i’ve  known  you,  the  progress  you’ve  made  has  been  incredible.   and  i  know  you  have  days  where  things  are  stagnant  or  regress  but  that  doesn’t  redefine  the  steps  you’ve  made  and  what  you’re  doing  now  to  better  yourself.   all  of  that  takes  persistence  i  think,  and  you  have  a  good  handle  on  that,  i  know  you  do.   you  might  doubt  yourself  or  find  some  things  hard  to  swallow  and  acknowledge,  but  i  insist.   i  also  think  that’s  something  i  look  up  to  you  with.   your  emotional  intelligence  goes  far  and  your  words  do  resonate  with  me.   you  being  a  close  friend  of  mine  probably  plays  a  role  there  too,  aka  i  trust  you  and  your  goodness  as  a  person  because  you  Are  good  and  committed  and  earnest,  whatever  else.   typing  that  made  me  think  of  the  activia  yogurt  stuff  for  a  moment,  couldn’t  tell  u  why  

and  on  another  note,  you  really  are  talented,  you  know.   i  mean  this  as  sincerely  as  i  do  when  i’m  not  being  comprehensible  on  discord.   the  care  and  time  you  have  put  forth  toward  developing  All  of  your  muses  (  a  scary  amount  tbh  u  have  a  lot  )  really  makes  me  step  back  and  be  thoughtful  sometimes.   somehow  you  manage  all  of  them  and  shed  enough  characterization  on  each  and  every  one  to  make  them  human.   then  you  illustrate  all  that  through  your  writing  and  it’s  really  a  wonderful  thing  okay.   i  think  i’m  going  to  leave  this  here  now,  though.   i  could  express  myself  more  but  knowing  myself  i’d  go  on  tangents  and  tangents.   know  that  i  love  u  and  think  ur  raaaaa  cool

[balavr]

rises from the dead sorta

aaa i’ve been gone lately since my muse has dropped but i’ll be back. i feel like these are the only posts i make lately gdsklgsd;g ??? but i promise i’m not ditching! just wanted to check in and say ily and hope ur all well and if ya wanna talk to me you can catch me here:

(just tell me who u r)

anyways imma poof back onto d.isc and work on building up my muse again ??? idk how to do that but o well i’ll still be back dw

[sperazur]

“there’s someone outside watching the house.”

  —  suspicious  sentence  starters

she isn’t scared.   quite the opposite,  in fact.   nadia is brave  ‒  and she wants to prove that she is.   stepping away from the window,  eyes focused on the stranger outside she says    ❛ i can handle it. ❜    whether he believes her or not,  whether she believes herself or not,  she wants to show her father that she isn’t as helpless as she seems.

[sperazur]

agnelino‌  :  bella.

         she tries to carry the conversation lightly,    but nadia is too smart to not know that not everything is in it’s right place.    and for that,   bella can really hold no grudge,   but only pride in the younger girl.    she can only wish that she had as much strength in her that nadia had now,   but she feels that her bones are more weary,   and her heart is lost somewhere within her.       ❛  –   as far as i know,    dad and papa are doing alright.   maybe just a bit bothered by the little things that come up day to day,   but i think they’re fine.   maybe my energy is throwing everyone a bit off, huh?   ❜    she teases slightly,    ❛  i know,  baby.   thank you.   i just don’t want you to worry too much about me,  okay?  ❜

          she doesn’t like that answer very much.   nadia knows when something’s wrong most times.   she likes to think so, at least.   and right now,  something feels wrong.    ❛ too late. ❜    she stretches one leg out and scoots closer to bella,  as though if she were closer she could read her better.    ❛ what’s wrong?   you know i’m stronger than i look,  right? ❜    and even if that wasn’t true,  nadia wants to be.   she relies on everyone.   she wants everyone else to be able to rely on her.

[sperazur]

“I told you that they were bad news.”

  —  suspicious  sentence  starters

❛ i get it. ❜    she huffs through closed mouth and crosses her arms.    ❛ trust no one. ❜    she hates the i told you so conversations.   just like any godfrey,  nadia hates being wrong.    ❛ can we not talk about this now? ❜

[sperazur]

nadia  godfrey  edits  1 / ???

[thistlewytch]

Alice in Wonderland (1985)

[straprights]

yall vagueposting: ** ***** *** **** 👀

me:

[sperazur]

agnelino‌  :  bella.

       and it was remarkable how tied bella was to the girl   –   oh,   it really is like she was just a baby not long ago.   and consistently and for the rest of forever,   she would protect the girl with every fiber in her body.   yes,   she had roman and peter to really be there for her,   provide wings to hide under,   but bella –   she really loved nadia like her own.       

      her smile is small and tender,    and she presses her lips to the top of the girls head before releasing her.       ❛   no,  no..    it’s okay.     i just wanted to check in on you.  ❜     the fact that the girl is so empathetic often makes her worry about the projection of her own emotions;   she remembers jasper,   calling her out when her mask worked a bit too well.     bella opts for voicing the bits of her thoughts to her,  though.      ❛  you know i try to be as open as i can with you,  right?   –   you’re a good reader,   s’hard to hide things from you sometimes.   i think i’m just feeling..   a bit out of my own head lately.   and i just want you to know,  no matter how i seem,  i’m still here for anything you need.  ❜

          there’s a pause,  and it takes a moment for the girl to decipher her own thoughts on how bella is presenting herself.   she doesn’t seem like she’s in too much distress.   not any more than she knows bella can handle.   maybe she’s lonely?   or doubting herself?   it makes nadia sad to think of.

          ❛ we’re an emotional family.   it’s hard not to be a good reader, ❜    she says with a quirk at the corner of her mouth.    ❛ but this... ❜    nadia sighs and tucks her feet underneath her,  crossing her legs.    ❛ are you sure everything’s okay?   dad and papa seem kind of tense lately, too. ❜    when don’t they?   is there something she doesn’t know about?   something she’s not supposed to know about?   or it could just be that time of year...    ❛ you know you can talk to me about anything, right? ❜

[sperazur]

agnelino‌  :  bella. 

            ❛  nadia –  ❜     pale digits wrap around the girls shoulders,    gentle and tender;   she pushes some of the girls hair back,   under some kind of motherly instinct.     ❛  i just want you to know you can talk to me about anything,   okay?      do you trust me?  ❜

@sperazur liked for a starter.

     bella isn’t her real mom.   she didn’t give birth to her.   she didn’t have bella’s eyes,  or her nose.   but bella is still just as much a mother to nadia as any child could have.   she raised the girl.   and,  though nadia may not call bella MOM,  both know just how true that title would be.

          ❛ i know  —  i... ❜    bright blue eyes focus on bella’s face.   the line of questioning no doubt confuses her,  but she answers truthfully.    ❛ yeah.   i mean...   i do trust you.   why wouldn’t i? ❜    quizzical brows furrow and lips purse in thought.    ❛ is there something you want to talk about? ❜    though empathetic,  nadia’s powers can only grant so much insight into someone’s mood.   questions are still essential in order to decipher another.   ‒   and bella is starting to worry her.

[sperazur]

when i run through the deep dark forest long after this begun where the sun would set, trees were dead and the rivers were none and i hope for a trace to lead me back home from this place but there was no sound, there was only me and my disgrace

[filmgifs]

Uptown Girls (2003) dir. Boaz Yakin

[arabwife]

I’ll get over it I just gotta be dramatic first

[horrificmemes]

Suspicious Sentence Starters

Send me one of the following sentences regarding suspicion, trust, and paranoia.

“I’m not sure you have the best intentions.” “When have I ever steered you wrong?” “What makes you think I can trust you?” “I don’t trust you. Not yet.” “It’s hard for me to believe anything you say.” “It hurts that you still can’t trust me after all this time.” “I made a mistake, okay? Are you going to distrust me forever?” “It takes me a long time to open up to people, I’m sorry.” “There’s someone outside watching the house.” “I have a weird feeling about him/her/them.” “Why do you always think people are up to something?” “I won’t give you my trust. You have to earn it.” “You can’t live your life being suspicious of everybody around you.” “I know we just met, but you have to trust me.” “What on earth are you up to?” “So, what were you whispering about?” “You’ve been keeping a secret from me.” “I’m not crazy, we’re being watched!” “Why do I get the feeling you’re not telling me the truth?” “I’d rather be safe than sorry when it comes to people I don’t know yet.” “I trusted you once and I’m never doing it again.” “You see that person? I think they’re following us.” “I just get this feeling that someone has been watching me.” “Who are you and why have you been following me?” “I used to be a very trusting person.” “Where were you?” “I’m sorry I didn’t trust you.” “You won’t call me ‘paranoid’ when you realize I’ve been right all along.” “You were right, okay? I’m sorry I didn’t listen to you.” “Give me one good reason to trust you.” “After last time, I’m not sure I should listen to you.” “Nope. Nuh-uh. I’m not trusting another one of your bad plans.” “How can we trust this person?” “How do I know you won’t just stab me in the back?” “I’m sorry, I just can’t bring myself to trust you again.” “You were right. I was a fool to trust them.” “I’m not suspicious. I’m just cautious.” “I told you that they were bad news.” “No, facebook stalking isn’t ‘creepy’, it’s called ‘being careful’.” “I get a bad feeling about them.”

[malnedott]

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[itsmelark]

Elle Fanning at the private reception as costumes and props from Disney’s “Maleficent” in London