Why do people ask for "all-consuming love" if they canât handle it when it arrives?
TL;DR: I gave my ex everything (my soul, my money, and my future) and was willing to overcome every obstacle, including religious differences, just to be with him. After a year of living together, he told me he "wasn't sure" about a future with me. I donât know how to love halfway, and being discarded after such total devotion is absolute hell.
I (26F) just broke up with my ex (23M) two weeks ago after living together for a year.
I gave him everything. My heart, my body, and my soul yearn for him and only him. I'm obsessed with every aspects of him.
Throughout our relationship, I made it my mission to ensure he felt nothing but completely loved for exactly who he is. I poured all my love, effort, and even my finances into him; there was nothing I wouldnât do if it was for his sake.
Even with our religious differences, I never asked him to change. Instead, I planned to work even harder so we could eventually marry legally overseas. I constantly pushed myself to be "better" for him, trying never to be an inconvenience (even when I was mentally struggling and he wasn't able to support me).
All I ever needed in return was his love. I just wanted his commitment and a shared future. But when I finally asked for reassurance, he told me he "wasn't sure yet." He said he wanted to figure out his own life, speaking as if I wasn't even a factor in his future, while my own future is filled with him in every prayer.
Why do people claim they want to be loved truly, madly, and deeply, but when they finally receive it, they have no idea what to do with it? This is so painful. I just want to devote myself to someone who will love me with the same intensity.
Itâs a special kind of hell to give someone your everything and realize they gave you nothing back. But for me, it's all or nothing. I don't know how to love halfway.
















