not peter parker

ben reilly // closed rp "So many people come through here to begin a new life. Find a new chance. Start everything over again. Why not me, then? Why not Ben Reilly?"

[spideyclone]

[spideyclone]

"Alright-- alright, definitely not panicking---”

[spiidermcmarchive]

“There’s no way in hell I’m putting that ridiculous suit back on.”

[spideyclone]

“And now suddenly I miss my suit. If I only had a mask behind right now.”

[jneswatsnarchive]

“No, I love creating earthquakes before breakfast. All good. All fine.”

[spideyclone]

“So that’s what I was feeling earlier. Uh-- are you alright?”

[gibbgrl-archive]

“It’s redundant to ask what the hell, right?”

[spideyclone]

“Maybe it is, but I’ve said it probably a dozen times already so--”

[marvelgiirls]

“Anyone is welcome to kill me again.”

[spideyclone]

“..again?”

[auroresarchive]

“Am I supposed to have any sort of idea about who I am?”

[spideyclone]

“I certainly don’t-- I dunno who you are and I sure as heck don’t know who I am.”

[vclkyriorsarchive]

“When do I get to become bigger?”

[spideyclone]

“Please don’t hulk out right now-- I don’t wanna die looking like this.”

[gxmbiitarchive]

“Every time we do this, I always crave a white chocolate mocha, no whip, no matter who it is.”

[spideyclone]

“This has happened to you before?”

[svrsiiarchive]

“I think I had a nightmare once that looked like this.”

[spideyclone]

“My dreams are not this weird. They’re weird, but not this weird.”

[ghcstspiderarchive]

“Everyone else can hear this voice too, right? Right.”

[spideyclone]

“Nope, no one else is hearing it but-- I’ve met this guy once. He has a.. friend. A black gloopy friend.”

[xsoldiier]

“I’m pretending like this isn’t happening. Because it’s not. It can’t be.”

[spideyclone]

“O-Oh, so you’re also a blond girl that you aren’t supposed to be?”

[spideyclone]

“Well at least everyone is in the same boat I guess. Even if this is the worst thing to have ever happened.”

[spideyclone]

“Kinda. Well I mean let’s do this-- what’s the first color that comes to mind? Don’t think about it, just let it come to you.”

[spideyclone]

“Hey, hey you’re not stupid MJ. And you’re not selfish.” Ben watched as she got up and moved away from the bed. He shifted where he sat, unsure if he should stay put or get up and comfort her as she started to cry. It was hard seeing her so upset. And the pit in his own stomach grew tighter and Ben wasn’t sure his cheeks would be dry for much longer.

“We--We just made a mistake. We both miss him. I think we just, didn’t know how to handle it.” He stayed on the bed, feeling that it would be too weird if he got up when they were talking about not being around each other anymore.

He didn’t want that, though. Not really. Even if it seemed like the smarter option. Separating himself from the past life of Peter’s that still had a grip on him was difficult. Ben cared about MJ. He did and Peter did. Maybe both of those things mattered. 

“So.. not even friends?”

[spideyclone]

“Don’t worry, I won’t ever make you stand by that decision because I won’t ever make it. The classic red and blue won’t ever go out of style.”

[spideyclone]

“Well that’s good to hear. At least I don’t scare everyone away with my dumb mouth. I don’t even know you and I’m rambling again.”