Spinel

SSP AU (Spinel AU made by Funtime_Nova)

[spinelspau]

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This specific Spinel is based of my own personal AU. Titled: Spinel Surrogate Pink AU.

In basic, Spinel was found during Blues revisiting of old places that reminded her of Pink before her shattering. She was taken in as a treasure from her previous standing game and made into what I would call a surrogate of Pink. A replacement.

The more you ask, the more will come to light.

There will be a lot implied things here, so this is NOT for the light hearted.

There will be:

- Abuse / Neglect. (Emotional, Mental and Physical)

- PTSD.

- Self hurt.

- Examples of BPD.

- Spinel is not as naive.

- Intense Guilt and Trauma.

- Spinel is REPLACING Pink during Era 2, anything Pink went through is now put onto Spinel tenfold.

- Spinel is convinced she deserves this for not being enough for Pink.

- And many other things.

I will put warnings on posts when needed. But reader discretion is advised. Once again, NOT FOR THE FAINT OF HEART.

Old Art - Below is what her form looks like.

[spinelspau]

Soo spinel whats you're view on that kid ....Steven survey you must feel some connection homeworld has been trying to kill the poor little dude

I uhm.. I dunno who or what that is?

Is that some kinda.. Uh- Some kinda planet?

I-I'm sorry. I'm confused.

[spinelspau]

Do you have a full body image of your Pearl?

What do the Diamond's Pearls think of her? What is she like?

I would send more pictures if the stupid device thingy would let me.. I'm still tryin' tah figure it out. I'll see if I can later..

And, I'm still kinda stuck in my room.. But Petal does leave every so often since she's kinda taken over my duties for now.. Till they let me out..

Uhm.. From what I gather, Petal doesn't really.. Talk much? Like.. At all. I don't think the other pearls get her either.. B-but she's a good listener!

[spinelspau]

Think of it in a good way, you now have a friend of sorts!

Maybe?

Though, she doesn't seem very talkative aside from takin' orders.

She won't even laugh when I try and juggle! Who doesn't like juggling??

[spinelspau]

What name do you plan on giving your Pearl? Also I think she looks nice!

Uhhhh-

Name..? Name's- Petal?

I like Petal. Reminds me of.. Stuff.

I think she looks nice too, it's just kinda wacky that we look similar and stuff.

...I dunno how to feel havin' a pearl.

[spinelspau]

So uh- Got my pearl a day ago. I think I.. Messed up the customization-thingy?

I didn't know what tah so say when she started forming, so I kinda just said 'Oh! Look like me- I think?'

And uh.. She kinda came out like this?

Lemme try an get a picture-

Stars.. This is so awkward.

[spinelspau]

….. iridescence… will be seeing you shortly

Who? I-I don't think anyone can really visit me right now?

The diamonds wouldn't like it.. O-or allow it.

[spinelspau]

How are you handling everything?

I'm.. Okay, I guess.

I've been kinda stuck in my room the past week or so.. And it's gotten kinda.. Lonely.

I mean, at least I have the pebbles. They're a buncha sweethearts, they like listenin'.. But they keep callin' me Pink an'.. I don't like it.

Tried tah tell em not to, but they don't seem to get it, so I gave up tryin' tah correct em.

[funtimenova]

Hey.. I'm gonna take a break for a while.

For personal reasons.. So uhm..

@azurethespinel @yooooournewbestfriend

@spinelspau and @norathestarjester

Will be inactive for a while..

I'm just-- Not okay.

[spinelspau]

If you had to get a Pearl, what would you want in one?

Color, form, personality? A friend or a servant? A companion or just decoration?

Ah.. Uh-

I mean.. If I had to assume, I'll probably end up with one that's pink.

I dunno if I could.. Design a whole gem? It sounds kinda.. Wrong.

But I'd hope she'd be nice. More a friend than a servant.. Not.. Not a decoration. Stars, I hate the idea of ownin a gem. I know I used to be 'owned' but..

..Maybe I'm just too emotional.

[spinelspau]

How does one earn a Pearl?

...Honestly, I dunno. Some kinda accomplishment?

For my case, I guess.. I need tah start tryin tah be more like.. Her. But also, not her?

They sometimes even call me 'Pink', ya know? It's.. I dunno how to feel bout it. They want me to be her, but a better her?

[spinelspau]

What kinds of Guards does Spinel have? How about some Aura Quartzes?

Bubblegum Aura Quartz

Pink Mystic Aura Quartz

Hot Pink Aura Quartz

Rose Aura Quartz

Pink Aura Quartz

Cotton Candy Aura Quartz

Uhm.. I-I'm a little overwhelmed by all this.

I have some Amethysts guarding Pinks-- My door normally.. I think the guards used to be Rose Quartzes.. But uh.. For obvious reasons those are no longer a thing...

The Diamonds have been strict since Blue brought me back. I haven't had a chance to be outside my room much.. Or the tower.. Aside from a ball every so often or to see the Diamonds themselves.

[spinelspau]

Have the Diamonds given Spinel a Pearl? What does she look like?

Have they given me..?

Oh, no.. No, I haven't.. Earned one yet..

They said I need tah act better before I get one, I dunno if I want one.

..But, I overheard Blue and Yellow discussing somethin' bout The Reef. So.. Maybe soon.

[funtimenova]

Hey y'all, so- I'm fine with asks n stuff for any of my accounts... But some of the asks for most of my accounts are genuinely making me uncomfortable. Especially anything regarding hurtful words, even just towards the character I'm playing. A couple every now and then is fine.. But all at once is a lot.

My accounts in question:

@azurethespinel @yooooournewbestfriend @spinelspau

I deal with mental health issues myself, and I don't really.. Appreciate the constant sayin of stuff. I just wanna have fun and answer silly questions. Maybe stuff regarding the oc x canon I have goin on, or the dark parts of my Spinel AU. But I'm.. Kinda losing my want to participate here.. I can only handle so much at a time.

Even just spacing out those kinda asks over a few days would be nice.

Sorry everyone. I don't mind it at times for the angst factor, but the spam of it is just.. A little much for me.

[spinelspau]

OOC

[spinelspau]

Ah! I was right! Blue came back for me!

She said I'm gonna havta be stuck to my room for a bit now, but I'm gonna be out of the tower!

..She also said Yellow was unimpressed with my actions.. So I guess I gotta work on that still.

[spinelspau]

“That blasted tower they rebuilt it? After I destroyed it-oh you’re not from my reality…. I keep forgetting….that…. Yet I still feel like I failed you….. like I’m failing everyone”

Rebuilt..? Reality..?

Stars, my head is spinnin', an' not in the fun way.

[spinelspau]

So.. Spinel, how are you feeling?

Could be better.. Could be worse. I mean.. It's been a while since the diamonds left me in the tower an' I wonder when I'm gonna be let out..

If I'm bein' honest.. I've cried like.. A lot the past couple o'days.

B-but I'm sure I'll be out soon.. Blue doesn't like me not bein' around for too long.

[stretchy-therapist]

Oh...no no this is borderline abuse... okay we're getting you back to you're girl

[spinelspau]

Uhm.. Sorry? Are ya.. Like me, but not?

Either way. I'm fine. Really.

I messed up n' the diamonds are just tryna get me tah do better.. I gotta try and act more like her..