To NT you know who you are.
I was an awful friend to you. I said and did some things I’ve wished I could take back for years now. I should of listened more. I should of seen you were in such a rough state when you were here and I was cruel to you and there no excuse for any of that. I am so incredibly sorry for all of the terrible shit I said to you and for all I put you though. It’s no excuse but I was fucked up too, I still am in some ways. I’ve mediated and thought a lot on what happened and how things went down and I wish I could of done everything differently. I don’t expect you to ever forgive me or even message really. All I hope is that you’re well and loved and that you’re happy. That’s all I’ve ever wanted for you. Just felt like I needed you to know you’re presence in my life is sorely missed even though I know I don’t deserve it. There are days where things happen and I think of you and it’s truly a gift to me. I guess it’s probably selfish of me to even wish you’d want to talk or even just say hi and let me know you’re okay. I don’t really deserve it after how I treated you and what I said. But if you ever do, I’m here. Much love. Judi
