Becoming Alex

// 19 years old // Canadian // 12.31.14 // UC Strong

[spooniekid]

I've never loved someone so much in my life and I'm so damn scared of losing you

[spooniekid]

Sometimes I get nervous that my significant other won't be able to deal with this life anymore

[spooniekid]

To the girl I’m madly in love with,

I remember when we first met and how I instantly fell in love with your smile and the way that you laugh when you get nervous. At 16 years old, I knew I wanted to spend my life with you. You brought a whole new meaning to “forever”. 

I’m 20 years old now and I can say that you still are the love of my life. You’re still the first person I think about in the morning and the last person I think about at night. You’re my go to, my best friends and the forever that I never want to let go of. Although we are not together right now, I’m not giving up on us. I cannot imagine not fighting for you, because I know that I will only regret it.

When I say “I love you”, I wasn’t just saying it to say it. I love you with my whole heart, on the good and on the bad days. 

You’re who I want in the end, and I’ll never give up on us. 

[spooniekid]

This past little while has been a roller coaster for me. I lost the love of my life, got betrayed by people I grew up with and found myself dealing with an overwhelming feeling of loneliness. I fight everyday to not give into the temptation of giving up and I always look towards the future to remind myself that things cannot be this bad forever. But I will be the first to admit that it's hard, especially when your will to live isn't strong enough to really care if the future gets better. So here's a picture I took the day I was sure I was ending the pain. It's to remind myself that i fought to wake up the next day, even when I saw no purpose.

[spooniekid]

[spooniekid]

This disease is definitely making its presence known today

[spooniekid]

Don’t live your life afraid to be who you are; be somebody.

[spooniekid]

This disease has a funny way of making you constantly think about the future. Wondering whether or not you’re going to end up doing what you love or settling for something because it’s easier on you. And that’s the scary part – settling. 

[spooniekid]

I would give anything to be a normal teenager

[spooniekid]

This disease has a funny way of making you constantly think about the future. Wondering whether or not you’re going to end up doing what you love or settling for something because it’s easier on you. And that’s the scary part – settling. 

[spooniekid]

Don’t live your life afraid to be who you are; be somebody.

[spooniekid]

Here's to hopefully a new beginning!

[bayocake-deactivated20160731]

It’s not just men who think they are entitled to sex or a woman’s body. 

[mimisavagee]

Consent is needed every time, no matter what the relationship is

[thechronicleofshe]

shes terrifying, 

[tuxedomask3]

What the actual fuck?

[wicked-yarn]

Wow she’s scary.

[evilguacamole]

You’re no feminist if this doesn’t bother you, that you don’t see the rape vibes here. Women can and do rape men. They use force, they use words, they can manipulate- just like men do. And it is just as wrong.

[mymildmanneredalterego]

No means no, friends. Gender does not matter. No. Means. No.

[blackwitchnyx]

Wow. Disgusting.

[beesplosion]

This is not okay. Wtf is wrong with this girl.

[disabilityhealth]

When a new symptom pops up unexpectedly

[Gif of Daniel Radcliffe making a face and saying, “That’s not right.”]

[spooniekid]

A part of me was lost within this disease

[tattoos-org]

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[thoughts-memories]