Everything I love in my own little world!

This is a place for me to find hope and healing. I post things I love. I am a spoonie warrior and I battle several mental and physical diseases and disordered. Basically my body hates me and I have to battle it everyday. I am a Big fan of Lord of the Rings, The Hobbit, Sherlock, Doctor Who, Harry Potter, Star Trek, and Super Hero's. I am also an avid dog lover and activist.

[materiajunkie-deactivated201905]

“Curing AIDS? Shit, that’s like Cadillac making a car that lasts for 50 years. And you know they can do it, but they ain’t going to do nothing that fucking dumb. Shit, they got metal on the Space Shuttle that can go around the Moon and withstand  temperatures of up to 20,000 degrees, you mean to tell me you don’t think they can make an El Dorado with a fuckin’ bumper that don’t fall off?”

- Chris Rock (“Bigger and Blacker”, 1999)

[neuroatypically-speaking]

I hate living in a world that is more worried about people becoming addicted to pain killers than about people being in actual pain.

[thotketraccoon]

im laughing so hard little arms

[tattooed-disappointment]

one one deals with a disproportionate body like Gaston

[shyharpy]

[raptorkin]

“Do I have a virus or am I having a flare?”: The joys of chronic illness.

[spooniewarrior]

me: time for bed

me, laying in the dark 10 minutes later: holy shit i want to eat a whole baguette

[youhavelupus]

Wake up in the morning feeling like an old arthritic man filled to the brimm with inflammation inside, realizing to everyone else I look like a healthy young woman who choses to sleep in, to feel sick and be lazy.

[windinnightmare-deactivated2016]

I won’t let this be the death of me. I’m stronger than this; stronger than anyone thought I was.

(via windinnightmare)

[dogsaremypatronus]

Actual Animal Behavior #003

Your dog won’t stop barking?

Your dog’s big passion is to be a great singer, and you’re being, like, really unsupportive.

[ploppythespaceship-a]

Has it occurred to anyone else that Star Trek: Beyond will likely begin or end with a title card that reads “in loving memory of Leonard Nimoy”…?

[spooniewarrior]

Was that really necessary!? :,-(

[grandromantic-inme-deactivated2]

The journey sucks, but that’s what makes you appreciate the destination.

Chevy Chase (Vacation, 2015)

[spooniewarrior]

What the heck has happened to the dog rescue community? About 15 years ago when I first got involved with dog rescue there was never so much hate an animosity towards fellow rescues. We worked together, pulling off of each other's strengths to do whatever it would take to save a dog. Now it's all about who gets the credit and tagging yourself in a post on social media about a rescue. To be hurt so many times this past year by people in the rescue community that I thought were not only a friend but someone that I thought shared the same ultimate goal of saving a dogs life and finding them a perfect forever home. Now I get dismissive and hurtful text messages telling me to be a team player and let a "rescue" handle this dogs case. I've worked hard for almost 6 months do everything I possibly could to catch this guy. Including pushing my body to the point of pure spasms and passing out to build a special trap to catch him. Traveling back and forth to the town he is at in hopes of being able to get him off the streets. Then when the time comes to being able to actually catch him I'm informed that I don't get to work with him. I was dismissed by a person I asked to help us. Made out to be an uneducated "couch rescuer" that doesn't really know how to handle a feral or semi-feral dog. These people do not know my dog training and rehabilitation background nor have ever seen my ability with feral dogs. Feral dogs are almost impossible to place in a rescue and not have it euthanized. They are also extremely hard to adopt out. You have to earn a feral dogs trust and it will always be a potential flight risk. They need time, space, and the ability to recover and trust people in there own time. Extremely shy and feral dogs are my passion. I've been in the same mental state that these dogs are in. That feeling of pure and utter fear. That level of fear where you will either freeze or attack in order to avoid feeling that level of fear. It's terrifying and took me years to go out in public and months of being to scared to even speak to my own family. Now don't get me wrong, it's not the idea of another rescue than the one I operate taking him in. It's the fact I was treated so horribly by people that I thought were working in a team with me and the fear that he'll be euthanized because these people have judged me for whatever reason and deemed me incapable of helping him. People in the dog rescue community should not be so ignorant that they'll think "rescues by definition are 100% no kill." No kill has many definitions and interpretations by rescue. A no kill rescue could use that to mean no dogs that are highly adoptable will be killed or they transfer the dog to another rescue that does euthanize. Transferring a dog doesn't show up as being euthanized under their system. So many dogs need help and its financially a strain to keep un-adoptable dog. Fellow dog rescuers use to know this and understand it. Now they put on their blinders and only seek glory for themselves. It's extremely hurtful to me and it might cause a dog to loose it's life. Obviously my feelings don't matter but you'd think they'd care about the dog. It's all just so frustrating and painful. I pray God will protect him and he will not end up like the millions just like him that are euthanized.

[wrong-url-motherfucker]

[thejurassicjuan]

“I apologize for everything and to everyone I see. I hope one day to be able to apologize to me.”

My Depression (Robert Marianetti, Elizabeth Swados & David Wachtenheim, 2015)

[raiinbowroots]

Reblog if you have lyme disease, bartonella, babesia, etc.

I want to follow you. I need to know there are people out there that are like me.

[theshapeofthis]

MEEEEE

[inthevalleyoflyme-blog]

Have Lyme disease, waiting to be tested for the other stuff. 

[actual-spoonie-blog]

me me me!!!

[dulcetramblings]

That nausea problem where you’re not entirely sure what type of nausea it is, and whether eating will make it better or worse.

[fightingfearnotpain-blog]

Things that would be nice to experience again without illness

-feeling rested when you wake up

-that rewarding pain that comes with working out

-happy exhaustion after rocking out at a concert

-feeling refreshed after a long hot shower

-eating whatever the hell you like without worrying about reactions

-that happy, giddy feeling when you laugh wayyy too hard

-extreme adrenalin overload from performing/extreme sports etc

-cuddles that doesn’t hurt/make you uncomfortable

-not being scared of the choices you have to make on a daily basis

-having limitless energy that you can choose to do anything with everyday

Not dealing with constant pain and fatigue knowing that this could be for the rest of your life

[drizzyxdream]

Weeping as I read this

[fightingfearnotpain-blog]

It saddens me to know so many people related to this post. That so many people like me have lost so much due to illness. I read a lot of posts about how we only feel like we’re missing out because it’s the social norm, but I don’t believe that, I believe it’s because these are the things we love, the things we found joy in and they’ve been mercilessly taken from us.

I wish you all didn’t have to feel this pain, but I thank you for being able to relate and being the only ones to truly understand. We are all warriors!

[letsgonextdoor]

since i can’t say fucking anything on the rest of social media without getting passive aggressively ignored or outright bitched out, 

i’m just gonna leave all my thoughts to tumblr, where i’ll be ignored peacefully and left to my own devices to say whatever the hell i want

[spooniewarrior]

I'm 99.9% sure that this is the reason Tumblr exists.