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21 Minors DNI

[spotropy]

I feel horrible. But on an unrelated note I’ve had at least 300mg of caffeine and I’ve only been up for 3 hours

[ct-lambykins]

id rather hang myself than play your stupid underage anime girl horse game

[spotropy]

I can’t stop grinding my teeth and it doesn’t feel good at all but I can’t stop. And do NOT suggest gum.

[spotropy]

I broke the window that goes next to my bed and there’s probably broken glass in my bed now but I don’t really care

[stbmoving]

History in the making:

Bonus:

[manu-script]

"it's not that deep bro"<-guy who refuses to examine personal biases and grow as a person

[spotropy]

I still think that people who are seething over Gwen being the focus in The Black Phone 2 are just misogynistic

[rainbowfunks]

[imjunebitch]

drawing ppl pregnant bc ur mad at them or don't like them is genuinely sexual harassment btw.

[uvb76fan]

IDGAF ABOUT YOUR GRIPPY SOCKS VACATION I WAS CRAZIER THAN U WITH A FULL TIME JOB

[bruzum]

[spotropy]

Eating disorder guy that thinks three meals a day sounds like a lot of fucking food? But also I don’t think I know how much food is a normal meal. I’ve built the habit of eating little to nothing all day, and then eating myself sick at night directly before conking out. And I think I’m the normal one

[spotropy]

Coyle false prophet is a kinda horrific and very frustrating realization. Should’ve realized it sooner bc he was fucking up literally everything, and it’s frightening that he was able to effect so much in the real world. I should’ve listened to John. Everything he wanted me to do was some bullshit that doesn’t make any sense with the rest of what everyone else wants me to do and what I know I should do. Really should’ve listened to John I should’ve known he’d have my back I’m so dumb. Need to be more skeptical too. I’m frightened by how well he blended into everything, he might’ve even tricked others too. Grrr. Don’t like this

[blasesaint]

I'm a gay retard and I need donations to allow me to continue making increasingly irresponsible financial decisions. Please give me your money. $$$

[spotropy]

Not sure if I’ve ever had a valid feeling ever. Probably not.

[schizospecfaye]

Today in therapy I learned the term double bookkeeping and everything makes much more sense now

“Double bookkeeping is a term introduced by Eugen Bleuler to describe a fundamental feature of schizophrenia where psychotic reality can exist side by side with shared reality even when these realities seem mutually exclusive.”

This is why I can know I’m schizophrenic and still believe my delusions. My psychosis is its own separate reality where everything is possible. Logic doesn’t apply there, I’m unreal, my reality is unreal so unreal things can happen. I know it’s physiologically impossible and implausible, I know it’s a symptom of psychosis and not an experience I share with most of the world, but it’s still real to me

Do any other schizospec folk experience this?

[spotropy]

For my experience, I know that my reality is very different to other people’s reality, and I just know it’s bc I’m the one being shown my reality. Other people aren’t shown it or even given the ability to perceive it, so that’s why I sound so crazy. It’s like trying to explain colors to a dog, they can only see so many, so when you tell them their gray ball is actually red they’ll think you’re insane. Except everyone is a dog and they’re all shutting on you even tho u know you’re right. Not to just hijack op’s post tho ! I do relate to the original point in just talking about my own drivel. Good day

[spotropy]

I’ve had this issue of thought for years now, and I know it’s factually very wrong, but I genuinely struggle to understand that eating can be good for you. Like in my mind, the healthiest possible thing to do is to eat nothing at all. And again I know that’s wrong but it’s just so impossible for me to know it in a deeper level. If that makes any sense at all (no it doesn’t)