hi! maybe you know me or maybe you don't. i'm an aging disabled genderqueer who has been living on this site for ages. i've shat posts, written poems, made music & videos too. i also host a few tumblr communities like my book club.
i have been unable to work for a while & am currently surviving in a low income apartment with help from family support, weekly plasma donations, commission orders & pawning old items. i am in a tighter spot than ever now with little help from assisted living services so far.
if you have enjoyed anything on this blog & want to help me live:
theme songs for just about any story or idea you have
background/AFK/intro & outro music for streamers and youtubers
8-16 bit retro sounds for game projects
battle songs, lofi, from breakcore & triphop to classical & country
and literally everything in-between
CURRENT PRICES (REDUCED):
$30 for a 0-2 minute song
$60 for 2-3
$90 for 3-4
$120 for 4+
i got my start playing live instruments with my dad as a child, & have both self training & classic training influences under my binder i mean belt. i made the transition into digital production about 9 years ago, although i still live record as well & enjoy blending both mediums.
i have completed quite a few orders since then! there is no genre I consider off limits, but i will tell you if I have less experience with something in your request. for more questions, just DM me or send an ask. have a safe day.
It is such a hopeless feeling to see someone who is a dear friend, who you care so deeply about living with a constant threat on their life and not be able to help.
It has been 3 years of genocide in Gaza, and people like my friend @mohdayesh are still trapped in Gaza with no escape from their treacherous daily life.
Mohammed's wife is pregnant and to this day dealing with the pain of having a bullet lodged in her chest. And Mohammed is bearing the responsibility of trying to keep his family taken care of to the best of his abilities with the limited resources he can get his hands on.
Mohammad and I often spoke of his desires to start a life for himself and his wife outside of the war zone, away from the genocide, where they can finally have a taste of safety and security. There is nothing more that I want than the ability to snap a finger and help him achieve their dreams, but unfortunately that's not within my power. All I can do is plead with you to help.
Mod'd is my friend and someone I've been working with for the past 3 years to ensure that you can trust where your money is going and weed out harmful actors taking advantage of the crisis in Gaza. And he has worked tirelessly to that end. He often doesn't ask for help for himself because he wants to see others thrive, but now he has a wife and a child on the way and he can't sit and watch as they suffer in this genocide.
He is trying to reach a preliminary goal of £3,000 on his gofundme, and has reached £2,046/£3,000 up until the time I'm writing this post.
But you can also help via his paypal!
And please share this post!!
My name is Mohammed ayesh from Gaza Recently, I started a new chapter in my li… Shelley Gordon needs your support for Support Ayesh’s family
Go to paypal.me/MAyesh674 and type in the amount. Since it’s PayPal, it's easy and secure. Don’t have a PayPal account? No worries.
I am a father writing to you with a heart trembling in fear for my little daughter ImanIman suffers from a serious injury in her foot and her condition is getting worse every dayDoctors confirmed that delaying the surgery could lead to permanent paralysisThe thought of my child growing up unable to walk is breaking me every moment.
Iman looks at me with hopeful eyes not understanding why she cannot walk like other children She asks me every day “Dad when will I walk?” and I have no answer to ease her pain Doctors said there is still a chance if the surgery is done urgently But my financial situation stands between me and saving her life
I beg you from a broken father’s heart please do not leave us alone in this pain Any help or even sharing this message could save Iman’s future You can be the reason she walks and lives a normal life again Please help me save my daughter before it is too late
Help me and my couple to escape pinochetist nazi regime
If u want to help me (teacher and artist) and my couple (teacher, poet and writer) please check
my PayPal or MACH
and make a donation, even $1 helps. If u can't donate, please reblog bc thats the only way to make this post circulate thus receiving help. And if you know of a country that helps political exiles, please comment or tag.
I currently (date 13 feb 2026) have $354 dollars donated (coz I spent some in food and meds this past months). You can check the old post here and see a Meet the blogger here.
The cost of a one-way flight ticket for two people is $1096.17 dollars.
I need $10.537 dollars or € 9.760,95 euros aprox to pay all the documents (including the passaport), the bank money I need to have to prove I deserve to migrate, the tickets, rent money I have to show, and all that. So I'm just hoping to have the money for the tickets and not be trafficked in the process of leaving or killed before that.
If someone knows a country that accepts political exiles, please comment.
Please, we need to migrate so help us to not die. This is no longer asking money to eat, this now is to not be tortured and disappeared. We can speak and read english even if not perfectly. If you know a country that allow political refugees and put less trouble to migrants, please comment.
If you wonder why I don't open a mail box so people that prefer to donate food can sent it in place of money, is because I have to pay to the border $39.13 for 1 kg to 500 kg of any food I could try to enter the country. And I know no one is gonna donate 500 kg of food, and I will not spent that sume of money for 1 kg of rice or noodles if someone wanted to donate that, for example.
Help is welcomed, we are still here trying hard, I don't want us to die.
The whole story under the cut
In In August 2024, I was without electricity, phone or internet because of really bad storms with lots of lightning, rain and strong winds. We even have floods. On 25 May 2025, we had our first tornado in the south of the country. This has never happened before. Then spring and summer came and bc all caught fire throughout different regions a number of times. There were fires every week for months. Almost every day somewhere in the country.
To make things worst? We still live under the dictatorship constitution made during Pinochet's dictatorship installed by USA, and its politicians and families, whom own everything here and pay the owners of internet to have bots, make fake news, terror campaings, etc ploted to make the country sink and put a pinochetist nazi as president: josé antonio kast.
The war of USA (operation condor) against South America lead to the new president of Chile be a chilean german pinochetist nazi (his father a nazi liutenant that used the ratlines with the help of the Vatican to escape after exterminating ppl all over europe, for example in germany, italy, france and soviet union) and is proud of his nazi family which also helped to exterminate chileans and anyone in Chile during Pinochet's dictatorship. He even is memeber of a fundation dedicated to the creator of the dictatorship constitution, pinochetist Jaime Guzman whom Kast loves deeply since his youth. Between his people there are torturers, nazis and neo nazis, a pinochetist nephew of a german pedo christian cultist (check Colonia Dignidad), families of german colonialists that made genocide of natives at the south of Chile and Argentina between XIX and XX century, pedos, etc. All upper class from european background, upper class from Chile, as well the cops, agents, and military. Kast was a piece of shit since childhood, being part of the chilean version of the nazi youth and helped Pinochet, and this past decade helped to put Bolsonaro and Milei in power in Brazil and Argentina.
He hates and wants to enslave South America, poc, women, children, workers, etc anyone that is not like him. He is proud of his nazi family and their work helping the Pinochet Dictatorship. He is a proud pinochetist and visits torturers that are in prison for crimes against humanity as well have such criminals among his people which, among many things, put rats inside the vaginas of women, trained dogs to rape people, opened mothers to steal the babies from their wombs, forced fathers to rape their dauthers, made kids eat shit with torns and trow their bodies all over the country, mutilated people and torture them in ways so monstrous that no one in the world is told so you all can keep living happily.
My couple and I need to fly the country. We survived the ex president Piñera tortures and genocide in 2019/2020, we will not survive another extermination again.
We still unemployed even when we tried everything. Nothing worked. I got rejected in all and honestly I can no longer work because of my disability. I'm even losing my hair and growing grayhair. Now getting a job is asking to be tortured and killed.
My health is getting even worst. Chronic pain, chronic illnesses, long covid, celiac disease and lactose intolerance. Being autistic and having c-PTSD as well depression and fibromyalgia doesn't help and the violence never ends.
As far as I'm concerned, I've been on my own all my life (abusive family, my father tried to kill my mother, brothers criminals and abusers, now I'm alone and homeless bc I left the storage room in which i was living). My only support is my couple that also helps me as a caregiver and takes care of an old abusive cultist mother which pay the basic bills. My couple is the only family I have. This means having less money bc i make the bills bigger and the pinochetist nazi is gonna eliminate the money that elderly people are pay by the state for being a mother and a widow which is the money that pays for food and water and a roof over our heads. The father has already died. The neighbours are violent.
My couple fears that we end up in the streets, homeless. I fear that we will die under the dictatorship of Kast bc that's what what this ppl do, specially his family and all the other upper class families. The neighbours are gonna snitch on us. Their mother told a family of cops and agents (primal agents of dictatorship here) that she is a communist even when she is not (she an iliterate cultish evangelical with far right ideas) so we have a target in the face thanks to that. In the last big dictatorship, people (including kids and teens) were taken from their houses and jobs (specially students, univeritaries, teachers and culture workers, for example which is all our labels basically) and most never returned, being disappeared. Others were tortured so much that they died or ended up disabled and traumatized for life.
Dibujo de Miguel Montecinos, ex prisionero político de Villa Grimaldi.
Check info about dictatorship in my blog under the tag condor operation
EDIT: Kast's former campaign manager said that he would probably appoint his cabinet before the legal deadlines and that the National Libertarian Party would be one of the parties in the government, in addition to the party founded by Kast. In other words, the Nazis.
This is me, is my other account so please help me with a reblog or money if you can, I'm starving. A reblog is the only way to this post to reach more people so please reblog.
Their mother is in critical condition and urgently needs treatment.
Anyone who is able to donate, please offer your support and help them in this difficult time.
Help My Mother Get Urgent Medical Treatment Abroad
My sister does not want to die. She has simply been left with no other choices. Malnutrition and anemia have drained her strength, and silence has stolen her hope. Donating is not charity — it gives her another option besides collapse.
People think words save lives. But bodies don’t survive on sympathy. My sister needs food, medicine, and real blood in her veins. Every dollar gives her another chance at living instead of counting down to death.
When the body starves and the blood weakens, death becomes closer than tomorrow. My sister stands at the edge not because she wants to fall, but because there is no ground beneath her. Your donation is the ground she can stand on to stay alive.
I am writing this post feeling deeply disappointed by everything that is happening to us here. The situation is beyond horrific. Life here has become hell, almost nonexistent. In less than a minute, the prices of everything rise insanely. On top of that, the bombing and killing never stop, and my sister is suffering from anemia and malnutrition, which only adds to our pain and burden. Everything is painful and unbearable here in Gaza.
All I'm trying to do is collect as many donations as possible to survive in the hell of Gaza and escape at the first opportunity. Please give us your support and donate now. Your donation can give us hope for my sister's treatment and for us to stay alive until we can get out of here. Please donate.
Zeina's sister urgently needs medical treatment, but resources in the Gaza Strip are extremely limited and treatment costs are very high. Please donate now to help them. This is an urgent humanitarian case. Please don't hesitate to donate whatever you can. Your donation could save the life of a sister and her entire family.
I am writing this post with great sadness and sorrow after discovering today that my child Mahmoud His health deteriorated significantly in the hospital because he had a hole in his heart since birth.
With the lack of resources, medical equipment, and supplies, his chances of survival are very slim.
All I'm trying to do is collect as many donations So that my child can survive . Please give us your support and donate now. Your donation can give us hope for my child treatment and for us to stay alive until can get out of here. Please donate.
This is not a passing phrase or a trick to catch attention, but a final plea not to scroll past us as you would any other post. We are still trapped in Gaza, living between death that hunts us, cold that pierces the tents, hunger that exhausts our bodies, and a future that is erased a little more every day.
You say you are tired of the news, and we are tired of staying alive without a life. You say you cannot do anything, but the cruelest thing is to do nothing at all to keep scrolling as if our suffering were just content. Our children do not know what “ignoring” means; they only know shivering at night, crying from hunger, and fear that never sleeps.
If your conscience is still alive, do not skip this. Help in any way you can donate, share, raise your voice, and do not leave us alone in this hell. We are very close to reaching our goal, and our survival today may depend on a single click from you please don’t fail us.
Original Post: Keith Porter was tragically taken from us by an off-duty ice agent, and his family is seeking justice during this difficult time. Every donation can help support their fight for truth and accountability. Please consider clicking the link below to contribute or share it with others who might want to help. Thank you for your support! https://gofund.me/530afb61e
Aahed has shared some disheartening news about his daughter's condition... As someone with a family member who has lost their ability to walk properly due to health conditions, my heart is breaking for their family right now.
Help if you can. Share if you can't. Thank you all for not giving up.
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Oh, my God, it feels like the first days of the war all over again. Bombing everywhere in Gaza right now. It you scroll past this without sharing, please question your humanity.
I just got a call from my mother while I’m lying in a hospital bed. She was screaming as my younger siblings cried in terror. The bombing was very close, and they survived by a miracle. Please donate to help evacuate my family and keep them alive.
Unfortunately, my sister Ronza will die—this is what awaits her if help does not arrive today. I am writing now to stop this sentence from becoming our reality tonight, while she is still breathing.
I hold Ronza close, counting her breaths, bargaining with time. Donations are low; seconds matter. Please stop, share, and donate now—your kindness can rewrite tomorrow and keep my sister alive today, please, now.
Silence is killing Ronza faster than wounds. Every ignored post steals minutes from her life. I beg you, pause here—donate, share, and choose mercy before this silence becomes permanent for her.
Every ignored second is a verdict. Ronza is breathing now, not later. Please stop scrolling, break the silence, donate today, and choose life before this post becomes an obituary for my little sister.
I am begging before dawn breaks. Ronza is alive right now, not a memory. Please don’t let indifference finish what war began—pause, share, donate, and give my sister another chance to breathe today.
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