~ StellaRyser~

these are my words, writings, thoughts, and photos that each deserve a whole book but will never get one. Insta:@stellryser

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i look at you and think you don’t deserve happiness but then I realize even the most twisted people get to be happy

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Sometimes I still think about what I’ve been through and still can’t believe I ever made it through.

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There’s a ghost around when you aren’t here, but disappears when you appear

~s.r.b

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Just because I don’t talk to you everyday doesn’t mean I don’t miss you.

~S.r.b

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My first poetry book is out! If you like poetry then check out my book!

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This is a preview of my upcoming poetry book that I hope to release next year. It is filled with some writings off my tumblr and new ones. I would love if you guys checked it out and told me what you thought! Thank you. Love you! ❤️

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To feel like you’re breaking but breathing To feel like you’re happy but unaware of the bleeding To feel like you’re smiling but you a wreck To feel like you’re laughing but know it’s no good That’s what it feels like to be damaged goods.

~writings that deserve more #44

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Wow haven’t been in here in forever, have y’all missed me? Lol probably not. 😂

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I’m not sorry I decided to love myself.

-34-01

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You're right, I am a mess.  I am a beautiful mess that is part of a chaos bigger than you.

unauthored

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Well I will check out your new book next year because if I’m going through depression issues and a lot of other girl drama I just read some Of your quotes because I really do enjoy reading every day because I see that it comes from your mind and you just write whatever and I like that

well thank you so very much I appreciate that <3

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Well my bad on that post what I was trying to say was what inspired you to come up with those quotes I am enough and I’m not ashamed if that’s right

Well the I am enough is saying i tell myself to remind myself that i am enough. I am enough to walk this world and to breathe and do other things. I am not ashamed came from my past saying I’m not ashamed of how i got here. My past made me who I am today and for that I am not ashamed. So that’s why I said, not ashamed because I Am Enough. I hope that sums it up.

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In your “I’m enough and I’m not ashamed In your opinion what is the backstory about those two

What do you mean? The back story?

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I Am Not Ashamed

I am not ashamed. 

You can look on my skin and see the scars that some might use to define me but, I am still not ashamed. 

You can plainly see that I am not other. 

Some may say I am crazy or slightly insane. 

Throw slander and shade but, I will not be ashamed. 

See me for who I am or see me how you want, just know that I won’t care or even give you a stare. 

Talk behind my back about what I've done, better yet add me in. 

I will let you walk and talk nasty about me because I know, you are not me. 

I do not care if you laugh and point at me, I know my story. 

I've dealt my pain so, I will stand tall above those and proudly say,

 I am not ashamed. 

~writings that deserve more #41

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An Unspoken “I Love You”

he though the was a mystery, a closed book with a sticker that read “damaged.”

she saw him as more, more than a broken man and more than a disorder.

she saw the heart that was his, torn and ripped at ever edge by greedy hands and cursed lips.

he spoke with words that built a wall around him.

but, she knew the wall was to keep him inside not invaders out. 

with soft eyes she took the wall apart allowing him to see a safe way out. 

no thanks was needed because her wall came down too. 

he saw that her story was written on her skin while his were only caused within.

she felt sad when she saw he was holding hurt in. 

with gentle hands she touched his head that was work and his heart that was torn ad cried softly from her eyes “never again will I let you feel this pain.”

his hands fell to her waist slowly showing her she only deserved grace. 

with their pain filled lives they build a tie to fight together side by side.

she new knew love, he never knew trust but together they fought demons into dust. 

leaving them with the idea that together both hearts felt truly loved within. 

~writings that deserve more #40

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now that we are both out, everything is real. our plan is real, our late night 1am discussions about what’s next are now real. but the question I ask you still stands, are you all in? 

I'm all in. 

~writings that deserve more #39