Decaying

[ssilhouette]

Fyodor / Ace ── 19yo, May 18th.

He / they only!

Bi and engaged ( severin 🫶 )

DNI list! (probably wip)

homophobic, racist, ableist, misogynist.... You get the point. Anti-plural, anti-furry/therian ect... Dream/wilbur supporters, right-wing, anyone under 16 (with very few exceptions)...

[ssilhouette]

I barely front anymore, and it sucks. I've lost over 5 friends since the last time I fronted, and I don't even know what has happened, because realistically, how am I supposed to find out?

Can I go back to being the host dude... </3 -Ace

[ssilhouette]

I'm getting so tired of our workplace, sigh. I'm fronting with Flo, and she keeps talking to me </3. Normally I wouldn't mind, but we've barely slept and for some reason the place we work at is extremely busy... Which is insane, considering it's Sunday. </3

[ssilhouette]

I also feel bad for our fiance because hes staying up with us... ✌

[coszmicst4rz]

all for some1 who doesnt gaf btw

[ssilhouette]

You're so infuriating can you kill yourself.

[ssilhouette]

I also feel bad for our fiance because hes staying up with us... ✌

[ssilhouette]

i cant stop thinking about our friend dude i have work in an hour and twenty mins and I can't sleep. i feel so shit for turning him down when he needed me most

[ssilhouette]

I might retheme our blog to distract myself off this situation.... Im praying that we hear from our friend tomorrow, I need him to be okay

[ssilhouette]

Dude nothing's worse than uneducated twats with a fucked up mindset 🤞

[ssilhouette]

I MIGHHTTT js be extremely paranoid but dude im worried smth has happened to our friend bruh 🤧🤧 like man it's been a whole day and he hasnt responded to any of our texts or calls which is EXTREMELY UNLIKE HIM!!!! idk maybe hes just taking a break?? but at the same time the recent post on one of his alter's blogs makes me think that he mightve harmed himself.... IDK. maybe I'm just worrying too much and hes perfectly fine and stuff ✌💔

[coszmicst4rz]

i hope hes dead!

[ssilhouette]

Oh wow you're a massive dick dude 🤞was that fr the first thing that came to mind after you read me rant about my closest friend potentially being dead

[coszmicst4rz]

maybe he js got sick and tired of u and doesn't feel like answering

[ssilhouette]

That couldve been a possibly, except he hasnt been online at all since that post his alter had made, i think i have every right to be concerned about his wellbeing?

[coszmicst4rz]

Ur wasting ur time on someone who doesnt even gaf like i js saw his post and i can understand why he killed himself 😹😹 I mean good for us one less problem

[ssilhouette]

hey so thats my friend of SEVEN YEARS we are talking about! lets just acknowledge the fact that they're a system, and that not every alter has antin's personality. Even so, antin CLEARLY wasnt coping well at all if he had to resort to potentially attempting suicide? Your lack of empathy sickens me significantly...

[coszmicst4rz]

I hated their whole system lol so no im not gonna acknowledge that cuz why would i if i hated everyone within it

Also he chose to kill himself so why is that my issue help maybe he shouldve been less depressed

[ssilhouette]

Yeah, he chose to kill himself BECAUSE he didn't get the support he needed... I am partly at fault here, as I hardly had the time to respond to his messages when he texted me asking for help. You cannot blame him for making that decision when he felt like a burden for fucking living??

And, also, that's not how depression works lmao

Please educate yourself a little

[coszmicst4rz]

why are u talking to me abt empathy when u hardly sound like you r every empathetic urself lol?

[ssilhouette]

We collectively have NPD, and struggle with empathy a lot because of that... However even I know that this is fucked up dude.

Anyways, you aren't worth arguing with as clearly you just refuse to understand how fucked your mind is, so I refuse to continue this conversation.

[ssilhouette]

I MIGHHTTT js be extremely paranoid but dude im worried smth has happened to our friend bruh 🤧🤧 like man it's been a whole day and he hasnt responded to any of our texts or calls which is EXTREMELY UNLIKE HIM!!!! idk maybe hes just taking a break?? but at the same time the recent post on one of his alter's blogs makes me think that he mightve harmed himself.... IDK. maybe I'm just worrying too much and hes perfectly fine and stuff ✌💔

[coszmicst4rz]

i hope hes dead!

[ssilhouette]

Oh wow you're a massive dick dude 🤞was that fr the first thing that came to mind after you read me rant about my closest friend potentially being dead

[coszmicst4rz]

maybe he js got sick and tired of u and doesn't feel like answering

[ssilhouette]

That couldve been a possibly, except he hasnt been online at all since that post his alter had made, i think i have every right to be concerned about his wellbeing?

[coszmicst4rz]

Ur wasting ur time on someone who doesnt even gaf like i js saw his post and i can understand why he killed himself 😹😹 I mean good for us one less problem

[ssilhouette]

hey so thats my friend of SEVEN YEARS we are talking about! lets just acknowledge the fact that they're a system, and that not every alter has antin's personality. Even so, antin CLEARLY wasnt coping well at all if he had to resort to potentially attempting suicide? Your lack of empathy sickens me significantly...

[coszmicst4rz]

I hated their whole system lol so no im not gonna acknowledge that cuz why would i if i hated everyone within it

Also he chose to kill himself so why is that my issue help maybe he shouldve been less depressed

[ssilhouette]

Yeah, he chose to kill himself BECAUSE he didn't get the support he needed... I am partly at fault here, as I hardly had the time to respond to his messages when he texted me asking for help. You cannot blame him for making that decision when he felt like a burden for fucking living??

And, also, that's not how depression works lmao

Please educate yourself a little

[ssilhouette]

I MIGHHTTT js be extremely paranoid but dude im worried smth has happened to our friend bruh 🤧🤧 like man it's been a whole day and he hasnt responded to any of our texts or calls which is EXTREMELY UNLIKE HIM!!!! idk maybe hes just taking a break?? but at the same time the recent post on one of his alter's blogs makes me think that he mightve harmed himself.... IDK. maybe I'm just worrying too much and hes perfectly fine and stuff ✌💔

[coszmicst4rz]

i hope hes dead!

[ssilhouette]

Oh wow you're a massive dick dude 🤞was that fr the first thing that came to mind after you read me rant about my closest friend potentially being dead

[coszmicst4rz]

maybe he js got sick and tired of u and doesn't feel like answering

[ssilhouette]

That couldve been a possibly, except he hasnt been online at all since that post his alter had made, i think i have every right to be concerned about his wellbeing?

[coszmicst4rz]

Ur wasting ur time on someone who doesnt even gaf like i js saw his post and i can understand why he killed himself 😹😹 I mean good for us one less problem

[ssilhouette]

hey so thats my friend of SEVEN YEARS we are talking about! lets just acknowledge the fact that they're a system, and that not every alter has antin's personality. Even so, antin CLEARLY wasnt coping well at all if he had to resort to potentially attempting suicide? Your lack of empathy sickens me significantly...

[ssilhouette]

I MIGHHTTT js be extremely paranoid but dude im worried smth has happened to our friend bruh 🤧🤧 like man it's been a whole day and he hasnt responded to any of our texts or calls which is EXTREMELY UNLIKE HIM!!!! idk maybe hes just taking a break?? but at the same time the recent post on one of his alter's blogs makes me think that he mightve harmed himself.... IDK. maybe I'm just worrying too much and hes perfectly fine and stuff ✌💔

[coszmicst4rz]

i hope hes dead!

[ssilhouette]

Oh wow you're a massive dick dude 🤞was that fr the first thing that came to mind after you read me rant about my closest friend potentially being dead

[coszmicst4rz]

maybe he js got sick and tired of u and doesn't feel like answering

[ssilhouette]

That couldve been a possibly, except he hasnt been online at all since that post his alter had made, i think i have every right to be concerned about his wellbeing?

[ssilhouette]

I MIGHHTTT js be extremely paranoid but dude im worried smth has happened to our friend bruh 🤧🤧 like man it's been a whole day and he hasnt responded to any of our texts or calls which is EXTREMELY UNLIKE HIM!!!! idk maybe hes just taking a break?? but at the same time the recent post on one of his alter's blogs makes me think that he mightve harmed himself.... IDK. maybe I'm just worrying too much and hes perfectly fine and stuff ✌💔

[coszmicst4rz]

i hope hes dead!

[ssilhouette]

Oh wow you're a massive dick dude 🤞was that fr the first thing that came to mind after you read me rant about my closest friend potentially being dead

[ssilhouette]

I MIGHHTTT js be extremely paranoid but dude im worried smth has happened to our friend bruh 🤧🤧 like man it's been a whole day and he hasnt responded to any of our texts or calls which is EXTREMELY UNLIKE HIM!!!! idk maybe hes just taking a break?? but at the same time the recent post on one of his alter's blogs makes me think that he mightve harmed himself.... IDK. maybe I'm just worrying too much and hes perfectly fine and stuff ✌💔

[ssilhouette]

We're at work, and some lady just yelled at us for being "too slow" with her order. We're literally on our break.

[ssilhouette]

I’m not usually one to talk about our friends publicly or make posts aimed at specific people, but holy shit, why are his friends so fucking casual about him getting high off his ass? On a substance that doesn’t even have a label, no less. He could literally die. We don’t know what he’s being given. He doesn’t know what he’s taking. That’s dangerous as fuck, and I need people - especially the ones he calls his friends - to understand that.

It’s no secret that he’s mentally fucked up, but maybe if people close to him stopped dismissing him everytime something was wrong, he’d feel even slightly better. But apparently it’s become normal to not give a fuck about your friend’s life.

Honestly, shame on every simgle one of his friends. You should’ve made at least a slight effort ensure he doesn’t put his life at risk.

-Poseidon

[bqndaged]

I was trying to convince Odysseus to smoke but he wouldn't. Now I'm here, and I will.

-Antinous

[ssilhouette]

Literally me when I try convincing my partners to smoke when they front.

-unnamed