The life and times of Stacy!

Just a place to share about life~

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Done with the bullshit...

Oh today must be my bitchy blog day. Passive aggressive posts on facebook are such crap. If you have something to say take it to the person. I won’t dignify that shit with any response myself. For me too many people put their drama out on facebook and then get pissy when people ask what it is about. Hell that is what a blog is for. Keep facebook fun lol. Really though I have people on my facebook that I don’t want reading my personal issues. So why am I writing a blog? Well I figure most of the people on facebook won’t read it anyway. Aside from personal friends and people who randomly find me on tumbler will be the lucky people that I pour my heart out to! 

Rant out~

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Riding the waves...

Sometimes lately I feel like I am totally sinking. I have however done some thing that keep me coming up for air. So it really is like riding a wave. I try to be nice to myself and know that I need to listen to what my body thinks I need. Which lately is sleep when I can. I did start a list, it is certain things that no matter how I feel I have to do. At this point I am working mostly on taking care of my physical needs. I tend to not do certain things to take care of myself when my depression is really bad. Not going to lie have had times where I would go a week without showering and things like that. So this list is all normal hygiene things that I have to do every day. It may seem silly but this checklist has been golden. For three weeks I have done my list. I think I missed one or two checks one day. So no matter how bad I hurt or how bad I feel I make myself do these things. 

Funny thing with depression is I don’t know why I am not happier. I mean yes there are things wrong but I have so much to be thankful for. People will ask well why are you depressed and honestly I can’t tell them. That I think is the most frustrating thing I deal with. Especially with my fiance. He wants to know because he wants to fix it. How can you explain to someone when you don’t even know. It is hard for him because he wants to help and really there is nothing he can do. 

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Sleep...what is that?

Ah well it gives me the chance to write a blog. These days I have been in so much pain I can’t fall asleep. I should be working my Younique stuff or cleaning. So the Younique is my first foray into MLM. I didn’t realize how many other seller’s there are which makes it hard to connect with people who don’t already have a Younique lady. I am not going to give up though I am going to keep plugging away. 

I am getting excited for Christmas because my oldest son, his fiance and the kids are coming! I haven’t seen my grandkids in so long. My mom and dad are going to Arizona to spend Christmas with my sister and her family. So this will be my first Christmas at my house. So I am going to try to come up with some traditions for my little family!

I also need to get busy crafting. Since money is tight I am going to try to make a lot of the gifts for my family. I am really wracking my brain for things to make for the men/boys. Women/girls are so much easier to make things for.

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A little fun with makeup!

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Starting out~

I figured I would start a blog to maybe connect with some people with the same types of things going on in their lives. On to my introduction!

I am the mother of three and grandmother of 4! I single parented my children from the time my youngest son was 2. My kids are now 26 (Lonnie), 25 (Sara) and 19 (Gene). My grand kids are 5 , 4 , 3  and 3.  Sara and her kids live in the same town as I do. Lonnie and his family live in a different state. It sucks not being close to them.

I am currently in a long distance relationship that has been going on for 15 years. Hoping in the next year to get him moved over here. It has been difficult doing the long distance thing this long but he is totally worth it. 

I deal with major recurrent depression which is so hard because it is like the depression is always there it is just varying degrees. About 15 years ago I started to get really sick with stomach issues. I saw so many dr’s. They removed my gal bladder thinking that was the issue but it didn’t make it better. It took a couple of years and they finally diagnosed me with crohn's disease. So we finally had an answer. I was on infusions of remicade and that seemed to help a lot. When I moved to Montana I once again had to find a dr. I went through so many who told me “no, you don’t have crohn’s” and then they would run tests and say that I did. So right now they say I am in remission, but now I have IBS as well. I also have diabetes, Fibromyalgia and I am obese. So needless to say at this point and time I am unable to work and I am on disability. It is so hard not to be able to work and contribute to my household. Also it makes the depression worse being home alone all the time. 

I am really trying to make some changes in my life and trying to be more positive. I recently started selling Younique although I am not making any money yet I thought it might help me to interact with other women and maybe make some friends.