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New tag: spoonie friendly recipes!

I decided to start a new tag on this blog, #spoonie friendly recipes, for people who want to cook / have decent meals but are low on spoons! I hope you all can benefit from it!

Also, check out my other tags here.

#ref #thank you!

Tsunami occasionally speaks with a British accent and its absolute agony to be cofronting with her because of this

“What’s with the accent?” “Oh that? Who knows hahahaha”

- Austin

#austin talks #you’re embarrassing me #for Tsunami #reflecting

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Just Autistic Things™:

“I’m hungry but we don’t have the incredibly specific food that I wanted guess I’m not eating today”

Room is messy but I know where everything is so what is the problem???

Hearing Bad Noises in public and trying not to visibly freak the fuck out

“I wanna do something but I don’t know what I wanna do and also if I figured out what I wanted to do I probably have too much executive dysfunction to make myself do it anyways.”

Wanting so badly to read a book/watch a movie/tv show that you force yourself to even though you’re zoning out the entire time.

Feeling a thing turning into a special interest and DREADING what that means

People making fun of your special interests and that Silent Pain when you have to pretend to laugh it off because it’s “just a joke” but you really can’t hear criticisms about the things you’re deeply invested in.

School/work doesn’t matter as much as special interest does???????????

Like why should I be stuck here when I could be researching/reading/watching things about my special interests :/

People saying “Oh I totally understand what you’re going through, I have a cousin who’s autistic” (EVERYONE has a cousin who’s autistic????)

People saying “you don’t LOOK autistic” or “oh I never would have guessed but now that you SAY that….”

“I want to do something rebellious but what if I get in trouble??”

I’m So Tired™

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I love this post so much, I relate to every single thing!

#heck heck fuck a duck

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shit tier: fake therapy session in your head

god tier: fake livestream in your head wherein you’re a famous youtuber venting to your fans during an impromptu younow at 2am while crying uncontrollably

#oh good I’m not a weirdo other people do this

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sometimes i remember how frog and toad from frog and toad are friends are gay and how the author wrote it as a first step to accepting himself and it genuinely makes me feel so good in my heart

#mmm :)

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if you were a vine, which vine would you be?

add yours in the tags!

#“sir I can’t give you the display bagel it’s not real” “toast it” “no”

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Things I Didn’t Know Were Symptoms of C-PTSD

Getting overwhelmed in crowds

Getting upset or angry at a loud alarm

Ordinary nightmares (that have nothing to do with the circumstances, just stupid nightmares much more often than the average person)

Getting sharp pains in your back/neck/collarbones that make it hard to breathe (due to hypervigilance/constant high anxiety)

Learning that “high anxiety” does not mean “generalized anxiety” like other people have with panic attacks and not feeling that they can accomplish thing. PTSD anxiety just means this frenetic energy that makes you want to talk/think/do things (even as an introvert) to avoid stopping.

Feeling constantly bored like you have to chase after something, even if you’re just at home: I spend hours on tumblr, pinterest, watching tv, reading books, making art, never just laying there alone…because if you stop…the darkness is there

Thinking up stories before bed. This is a symptom of high anxiety because you’re trying to calm down and fall asleep in a “safe world” where people are looking out for you and caring for you.

Trouble falling asleep (which is distinct from insomnia) because turning off electronics etc. doesn’t help since your heartrate/fight or flight response is engaged

Periods of racing heart (mine has gotten to 120bpm for five hours) that make you feel like you’re waiting for something to happen

Exaggerated startle response. When I was a kid I used to hide behind corners to surprise my sisters. Two years ago my friend hid under my desk to scare me. I literally screamed, fell out of the chair, and started crying. She was laughing because she thought the joke went well, and then got concerned because I kept crying.

Purposefully “tanking” a bad day with sad music/tv/movies/books because it “was already ruined anyway”

#library #you’re kidding?

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*remembers something from my childhood*

Me: now… how OLD was I when that happened?? Like 12 I think??

Me to me: you have said that about every childhood memory. You can’t have been 12 for everything you experienced

Me: yeah 12 sounds about right

#vroom vroom that’s a mood

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#for Pinkie #for Alice

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us government asleep, post skipping baguette child

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my therapist: yeah come on in, you can put your purse down wherever, i’ll be with you in just a second.

me:

#get out of my head

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swear words are illegal now. if you say one you’ll be fined.

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heck

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you’re on thin fucking ice

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oh no

#this whole post is me and Tsunami #for Tsunami

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Love doesn’t leave you traumatized.

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Listen to me, LOVE doesn’t leave you traumatized. What was happening to you wasn’t love.

#oh :(

Who wants to bitch about Heathers (2018) with me

- Pinkie

#it looks disgusting #Pinkie talks

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Weekly Discussion #1: Littles

Of those who have littles in their system, how did you feel about it when they first appeared? Was it planned or was it an accident? How do you feel now as the parent/guardian/etc. of a little?

-James

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When Alice first appeared, only a couple of us were active. We were on vacation and had been looking at pictures of mlp g3, and things started to feel dreamy. That was how we met her! As her self-proclaimed mom (Pinkie), I couldn’t be happier to have her in my life. Alice is sweet, funny, and super energized. She was a surprise, but I wouldn’t trade her for the world.

- Pinkie

#Pinkie talks #for Alice