I think the aspect of Descole I enjoy the most is the jealousy. The deeply rooted indescribable feeling of not being able to STAND someone and knowing that it's not for any reasonable fault of theirs but just because of how poisonously bitter their success or happiness makes you feel to the point you can't be near them without the urge to tear them down from their pedestal. And having to suppress it until it boils over so badly that it briefly consumes the entirety of who you are. Just his wrath in general. That feeling of being so angry that in the moment, you don't possibly care how much of your life you destroy as long as you can destroy everything else. Even the pettiness of absolutely rubbing the sharpest most ruthless comments you've been holding back in someone's face.
I love the idea of a character throwing caution to the wind and being the absolute biggest asshole no matter the price they will have to pay for it, because their anger is more important to them than their life.
This is also arguably the aspect I like most about Clive and Randall, and I like how anger is portrayed as addictive to all three of them. Because I've found that it often is in real life. It feels good to be angry and lash out and get to say your piece, and shut everyone up who tries to get a word in edgewise, it feels powerful, it feels in control.
The regret only comes afterwards, when you're all out of rage, when you've said things you can't take back, when the people around you don't look at you the same anymore, when there's nothing left to destroy.
And that reinforces the addiction, you have to stay angry, keep the rage burning, keep finding things to burn because you know deep down that when the flame dies and there is nothing but ash you will still feel hollow.
It's brilliant. I think it's very cathartic to me because I had (and honestly a lot of the time still have) major anger issues as a child. Anger and frustration has maybe always been the emotion that came the easiest to me. But I also could not ever vent that frustration because many adults and other kids acted like my frustration was their worst burden. So I started pushing it deep deep down until I eventually inevitably lashed out, all because it was for the Greater Good.
I think that's what makes it cathartic for me, it's endlessly satisfying to see a character who has been forcing themselves to shut up and say nothing Ever in the past let go of caring about even the greater good and just unapologetically be mad. Especially when they're not fully in the right, because that makes the situation much more interesting. A character rightfully getting mad at people who wronged them is satisfying but has an obvious conclusion, a character taking that much too far has you wondering what's next.
On the flipside this is what causes me to want to watch most very patient and polite restrained characters flip their shit, because I can visualize the pressure that's building up in the back of their minds and oh dude you would feel so good if you just broke the nearest vase.
All characters should get more angry now speedy out
romaincrisis
amandla
s-u-f-j-a-n-s-t-e-v-e-n-s
tangentwithtanner
dailybridgerton
gracieabrams
