i fucking can't because my brain is buzzing with Caerdroia because because becauseee
part from what i thought of as masking and emotions actually got explaied as two equaly important but diffrent moods of the doctor??? fucking losing it couse wow!!! LIKE???? HIS TWO SIDES OF HOW HE SAW HIMSELF ARE EXPLAIED AS JUST TWO MOODS, NOT HIM NEEDING TO CONSTANTLY THINK ABOUT WHAT HE IS SHOWING AND HOW HE IS SHOWING HIS ANGER AND HAPPINESS IN THE MOST APEALING WAY BECAUSE FUCK!! HE PHYSICALLY GETS REALLY EMBARRESED BY EEYORE EVEN EXISTING IN THE FIRST PLACE!!!
fuck im losing it because Eight has to think so hard on how he wants to show himself to Charley, and now also C'rizz!! ("you've just never seen him happy" WHEN SHE SAYS THIS TO HIM WHEN THEY ENTER THE TARDIS FUCK, FUCK CHARLEY YOU DIDN'T NEED TO KILL ME LIKE THAT ON C'RIZZ'S PRESEPTION OF THE DOCTOR LIKE THAT), how he originally wanted to keep himself on "always happy, romantic and fasinating," and now, after being stuck in a new universe, and being physically unable to stop his negative emotions from showing anymore!! his more cold, caculative and and agrevated side was shown in full force!! (of course not being helped by him losing a fucking limb thing of missing his time sense) (think the most as Scherzo but also Creed, even natural history of fear!!, the Last, some in Faith Stealer too!!) that we finally are getting a better more full verions of the doctor anyway, so then what do they do??? split those two moods up so we can witness them in full glory!!! finally pulling all of him right there on the surfice!!! im losing it
the salotion to masking everyone!! have your masked and non masked self torn out of your body to be viewed to everyone witouht your control!!
so then you have, suprisengly, one of the most wholesome 8th doctors audios i have ever seen (and that's saying something because we are what... littiraly 19 audios in and wholesome is not a reguler emotion from these ill say that much), showing how both pats of the doctor are important to him and now my autistic ass is getting emotinal because wtfff my heart
the fact they took both parts of Eight and made them so obvios to the eye? interact and just exist??? its such a good way to show a handeling on his personaity to me!! its really neat!! (i am aware i am puttiong a lot into what is actually a pretty simple audio story, but its so neat to me)