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âIf youâre gonna bail, bail early. This applies to relationships, college classes, and sledding.â
â Advice from my high school science teacher, Mr. Miller (via zackisontumblr)
losing you meant finding myself. watching you move on meant forcing myself to be happy. i loved you more than i understood at the time and in a few ways i still do. but i cant continue to try and find people to fill the void you left in my heart. i cant continue to form unhealthy attachments. i miss you. i want to talk to you. but the you i miss, isnât there anymore. and the me i was, has changed a million times by now. and that void you left in my heart, no longer resembles you.
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the thing that fucks me up the most
is that you never once apologized.
you break me over and over,
but not once have you apologized
for leaving me in pieces.
you say that youâre awful,
just the worst kind of person,
but nowhere in there
is any kind of apology.
am i not worth the words?
or are you truly not sorry,
not the smallest bit remorseful,
about the way you keep me bleeding for you?
Your pain is valid even if they never realize they did something wrong.
Sometimes you just need to accept that you did what you had to do to survive and forgive yourself for it.
You might be suffering the consequences of long term abuse if:
you feel uncomfortable taking credit for things you did
you feel uncomfortable being praised or complimented, and you feel like sudden expectation or blackmail are coming up afterwards, you need to find intentions behind praise
someone getting mad at you is absolutely terrifying and youâll do anything to avoid it
you donât ever feel itâs safe to stand up for yourself, you can predict that even if you did that, ultimately youâd only be punished and hurt even worse, and you canât risk it
you always analyze every situation with âam I bothering these people? Is my presence a burden to everyone?â even when youâre with friends or at a place where you were invited
you donât feel like a part of anything, not your family or your peer group, you worry everyone is going to figure out that youâre out of line trying to pretend to be a part of their group and reject you
you worry that you have no value to anyone and you feel like you need to deserve to be a part of society
you feel inexplicably ashamed of yourself, there are so many situations you canât talk about, or even think about without feeling overwhelming shame
you keep feeling everything bad that happens is your fault, even for things that arenât related to you directly, you feel responsible and like you should have done something to prevent it
you feel like everything would be better if only you didnât exist
you struggled with suicidal thoughts before (or still struggle with them)
you feel like anyone who hurts you is justified in doing so and you deserve to be hurt
youâre terrified of being punished for anything you do, and donât do, to the point where you paralyze and canât do things youâre supposed to do at times, because you canât tell if itâs going to end up in you suffering punishment
you donât feel comfortable being touched or cuddled, you feel like it makes you weak if you desire it
you donât feel okay showing big emotions in front of anyone, you feel your feelings in secret, or not at all
nobody knows just in how much pain you are. You donât show it.
you can tell that even if you did talk to someone about your problems, youâd be accused of exaggerating, asking for attention, faking it, or being weak for not controlling your emotions better
you feel like the dream of a good life, where youâre loved and happy and cherished, is something completely unrealistic and it feels silly to even imagine it, itâs out of reach for you
If itâs only a few you can relate to, they can be caused by outside factors, but if you relate to almost all of these, itâs likely youâve been living in a situation that is unbearable for human being without severely affecting their personality and mental health. Abuse can cause all of this, and these are not little things, this is lowered quality of life.
convincing yourself that your trauma isnât valid is often a coping mechanism to block out what happened. admitting that you were hurt by what happened is scary, but itâs the first step towards recovery
even if it was unintentional, even if they thought they were doing the right thing- youâre still allowed to be angry or upset about how you were mistreated
Every time you go to say âwell, it could have been worse,â I want you to stop and remember that it should have never happened at all.Â
Please donât invalidate your experiences or yourself. It is okay to feel whatever it is that you feel about it. The bottom line is that it should not have happened, and you deserved better.Â