shrink the world, nothing left

i'll sleep when i am dead

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# STAYINSIDE, an independent roleplay blog featuring original characters, written and adored by alexander (he/him, 25+).

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open starter: any (21+) muse: nathan wright, vampire, musician, thirty-four/immortal, he/they, queer plot: nathan spots y/m in the crowd at one of his shows. the audience doesn't grow very often, so they zoned in on you pretty quickly. this could go all sorts of ways!

stepping away from the stage after his performance, nathan slips through the crowd and towards the bar, signaling for a drink. his curiosity is piqued, he'll admit, but he's well aware of how... overwhelming he can be.

watching them from the corner of his eye, nathan sips their drink and pretends to make polite conversation with the usual crowd, all the while meandering his way through them and towards the newcomer.

with practiced ease, nathan trips, collapsing into them, just barely saving his drink.

"ah!" he gasps, feigning innocence, righting themself on their feet.

"don't think i even saw you there! glad i saved my drink," nathan winks. "why don't i grab you one too, yeah?"

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open to : m/f/nb plot : fake dating </3 (could be to make someone jealous, to appease a parents, etc. etc!)

indigo doesn't know why she agreed to this. maybe it was a form of self torture, or maybe it was done out of the sheer love she felt for them. her eyes trail over them across the room, until she steps up and slides her hand onto their shoulder, a smile plastered on her lips. "there you are! i've been looking for you."

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she's going to owe indigo a million favors after this.

hollie slips her hand around indigo's waist, squeezing slightly, expressing her eternal gratitude for putting up with hollie's bullshit—again. she turns a blinding smile towards their audience, feigning ignorance to the phone camera flashing to their left.

"hi babe! i was just telling the girls all about you!" hollie turns the grin to indigo. "they were talking recipes and i just had to brag about the dinner you made last week."

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open starter: any (21+) muse: dani jacobs, final survivor of her family after the apocalypse, twenty-eight, she/her, bisexual plot: dani & y/m had known each other pre-apocalypse, but had no idea the other was alive afterwards. this is their first time seeing each other in years (since childhood? 5 years? 10?) and dani is thrilled to see a familiar face.

yeah, dani had seen a therapist before the world ended. most people did. she's not special. but one thing she knows for sure is that she never had hallucinations. but when she sees them, across the same street she'd walked a thousand times, she wonders if her mind had finally snapped. she wants to speak, even gets as far as opening her mouth, but they beat her to it: dani. and that is not a hallucination. "how... how are you here?"

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open starter : m / f / nb ( 21+ ) muse : hendrix 'trick' hawke , twenty - seven , bisexual , guitarist for solarflare. plots : trick & y/m were dating long term but y/m didn't agree with trick wanting to go off & tour with his band so they broke up . . . and now trick's band is Very well known & y/m finds trick after one of his shows to talk . . . or something like that

it was a great show , and trick heavily enjoyed hanging around the venue after shows when he was in a good mood. he loved meeting people , and as of late he had been a bit prone to head back to the bus with someone. but in this case it's late , almost one am , and most had gone on their way when he hears his name- hendrix , the name typically reserved for people close to him. head snaps up , shocked to find his eyes falling on his ex. " oh. " eyes narrow - maybe this was someone else ? surely not. " what the hell are you doing here ? "

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hollie can barely believe that she even said it—said his name out loud for the first time in... too long to even think about. of course, she's thought about him... in the right circumstances (re: drunk), she may even admit to having dreamed about him. but to speak his name out loud... it seems a step too far. as if she's crossed a line she didn't even know existed. not until she saw him on stage, playing the music she swore she hated, living the life she swore he'd never have.

she takes a much-needed breath, "too convenient for you to believe this is one big coincidence?"

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HOLLIE BENNETT, twenty-seven, she/her, bisexual.

content warning: n/a

Hollie grew up in a middle-class family with aspirations that she's spent her entire life building on. Whatever adversity she's faced, she's pushed it down and stepped over it. She refuses to let anything get in her way.

Hollie grew up in a wealthy neighborhood with a close-knit family. She considers herself very family-oriented and continues to foster close relationships with her parents & younger sister. However, things weren't always great between them.

At 19, Hollie moved out of state to attend university, majoring in hospitality management, with goals to build an empire in hotels. Early in her time as a student, Hollie made friends with various people, and was introduced to sex work.

With some friends already active in the SW community, Hollie quickly joined them and made a name for herself. Although she never intended to share this career path with her family, questions were raised when she supplied her sister & parents with gifts far outside her typical paygrade. Trusting her parents, Hollie told them about the work she'd chosen, while keeping things vague enough to not scar them all for life.

Although their relationship was tense for a while, it eventually mellowed out, and Hollie was thrilled to be able to care for her family financially, while making enough money to do everything she wanted.

At twenty-five, Hollie made the decision to semi-retire from SW. She'd never been afraid of the work, and wasn't uncomfortable by it, but wanted to take time post-graduation to focus on herself. She travels, and takes her family on trips, and buys clothes & shoes that would've made her 10-year-old self cry.

With her SW history and current travels, Hollie is now an influencer giving advice on SW, as well as documenting travel, culture, and fashion from around the world.

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THEO CABALLERO, twenty-three, he/him, gay.

content warning: n/a

Theo is a hockey player, proudly lacing his skates for his university's hockey team. He learned to skate as fast as he learned to walk, and he has always loved hockey.

He doesn't play at a professional level, and doesn't plan to, so he puts everything he has into his years remaining with his university's team.

Theo is a trans man, having transitioned as a pre-teen. His parents were incredibly supportive, and assisted in putting him on puberty blockers and hormones that assisted in his physical transition. This is known to the people around him, because Theo feels it's not something that needs to be hidden or shied away from.

Outside of hockey, Theo is majoring in psychology. His plan is to eventually assist other trans people in receiving gender-affirming care. He also volunteers as a teacher to help kids learn to ice skate.

Theo is seen by many as a typical frat boy, and although he does have some of those stereotypical traits, he much prefers being seen as his own person.

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HARLEY VELASCO, thirty-one, she/her, bisexual.

content warning: transphobia, depression, anxiety, allusions to self-harm

Harley is a vampire. As far as she's concerned, no one else ever needs to know this.

She considers herself an off-the-grid kind of person. She keeps to herself, feeding only from donated blood, and tries to avoid forming attachments to people, alive or undead.

Through it all, that may be the hardest thing she's faced: no attachments.

As a human, and now, Harley thrives with community and friends, and without these relationships, Harley feels isolated. Her vampirism frightens her though, and she worries how it would impact a relationship with another person.

Harley's biggest issue is the fear she holds against herself. She was never taught the rules of being a vampire, and is always in fear of what she could do to an innocent person. She's also afraid of what she could do to herself, if she has to spend eternity alone.

⸝⸝　harley is a trans woman, and her experience with vampirism closely mirrors my own experience as a trans person.

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NATHAN WRIGHT, thirty-four, he/they, queer.

content warning: horror

Nathan was born in the 40s, and reborn in the late 70s. He was targeted by a vampire searching for a companion to share eternity with, but chose wrong with Nathan.

His sire was terribly sad, finding immortality worse than death, and their plan was to turn Nathan and have someone to share this devastation with. Nathan, however, took to vampirism better than he ever did humanity.

After only months together, where Nathan learned the basics of vampirism, he planned to leave his sire and build a life for himself. He had never connected with his sire the way they had hoped, so Nathan had no qualms in simply leaving. Their sire, however, refused to allow this, which resulted in a fight.

Although Nathan had killed humans, this was the first vampire he had ever killed. To him, there was no difference. It was a necessary death to keep himself alive, and that is something he's happy to live with for eternity.

Alone and immortal, Nathan was the happiest he'd ever been.

Nathan soon began using his skills in poetry and music to write lyrics, and eventually singing in the London underground scene.

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IAN ROTH, forty-nine, he/him, straight.

content warning: parent death, suicide, depression, alcoholism

Ian's father was sick his entire life, although his parents kept the truth from him. In the end, Ian only learns the details after his father dies.

Ian's father was diagnosed with cancer after unknowingly working with asbestos. He died slowly, at home, with no chance of acquiring medical help. It would've been useless anyway. Weeks after his father's death, his mother takes her own life, leaving behind a short note written in shaky print.

At nineteen, he was alone, but he refused to let that stop him from making it in the world.

Using persuasion and bribery, Ian connects with an attorney that files a lawsuit against the company his father worked for. Although it takes years, Ian successfully wins the lawsuit and wins millions of dollars, bankrupting the company at the same time.

In his mid-20s, Ian had more money than he could've imagined, but he was so angry. Mostly, angry at himself for being so sad, when he has the world at his fingertips. This leads him to drink.

He struggles for years with alcoholism, and is only drawn out of it by a relationship with his wife (quick to become ex-wife). She was able to convince him to drink less, but not quit entirely, which is why their relationship ends only a year after they married.

At thirty-five, Ian is convinced by an Alcoholic's Anonymous counselor to visit a psychiatrist, who then recommends therapy. After years, Ian finds sobriety, and finally picks up the hobby that he adored as a young man: photography.

Ian photographs cities around the world, travelling on a whim. He doesn't photograph the flashing lights and silver buildings, but rather the things people miss in the busy streets, and the people that walk by, all with lives of their own.

⸝⸝　there are very specific aspects of ian's character that will never change. this includes his marriage, his alcoholism, the loss of his father, and his passion for photography.

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DANI JACOBS, thirty-two, she/her, queer.

content warning: horror, zombie apocalypse, sibling death

Danica "Dani" Jacobs is the lone survivor of her family after the zombie apocalypse overtook the world. For years, it was her and her brother, alone against the hoard, but after a devastating attack, her brother was killed.

Dani was still a teen when the apocalypse hit. In an ideal world, she'd be living in a small town where she knows everyone by name, and shares the spoils of her garden with her neighbors. But it's not an ideal world.

Instead, Dani spends everyday trying to survive, all the while mourning her brother.

⸝⸝　i've kept dani's bio short and vague, so she can fit into a variety of universes.

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CARINA DE CARLO, forty-one, she/her, lesbian.

content warning: domestic violence, child abuse

Carina is a werewolf currently working as a therapist. She grew up seeing therapists, working through her own struggles, and thrives on helping others. She tends to put her work over everything else, especially her relationships. It's easy for her to introduce herself, and meet new people, but keeping up the facade gets hard.

She is a lesbian, and has known this about herself for over twenty years. Carina has no shame in this, and is confident in her identity. Not everyone in her life knows her sexuality, but that's simply because she considers it a private part of her life.

Growing up, Carina was traumatized by family arguments, domestic violence, and abuse. She is no-contact with her parents, and had no siblings. One of her many late-night thoughts is how grateful she is that no other children had to suffer at her parents' hands.

Her childhood greatly influenced her career choices, leading her to a successful career as a therapist. She framed her degree and it hangs proudly in her office.

Carina still struggles with her own mental health, but has a huge repertoire of skills to keep herself healthy. This is one reason she struggles to form relationships. Despite what she teaches her patients, she feels as though her own health would be a burden on a partner.

⸝⸝　carina is a werewolf, but that lore can be put into any sort of supernatural situation. she can be a born werewolf, or turned later in life.

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# STAYINSIDE, muse list

CARINA DE CARLO, forty-one, she/her, lesbian. werewolf working as a therapist.

DANI JACOBS, thirty-two, she/her, queer. lone survivor.

IAN ROTH, forty-nine, he/him, straight. professionally tired photographer.

NATHAN WRIGHT, thirty-four, he/they, queer. underground vampire musician.

HARLEY VELASCO, thirty-one, she/her, bisexual. unassuming under-the-radar vampire.

HOLLIE BENNETT, twenty-seven, she/her, bisexual. former sex-worker, current influencer.

THEO CABALLERO, twenty-three, he/him, gay. college-level hockey player.

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# STAYINSIDE, guidelines

⸝⸝　my name is alexander. i am twenty-six. i use he/him pronouns. i am queer and disabled, and both of those things impact the way i write my characters.

⸝⸝　this blog features themes including suicide, self-harm, discrimination, ableism, bullying, death & loss, and other themes that may be uncomfortable for some users. please protect your space. i will not be hurt if you block me.

⸝⸝　i do write smut, and i love writing smut, but this is not an exclusively smut blog! i am also relatively new to writing smut in an rp style, so i may be a bit hesitant with new people! i will never write non-con, dub-con, incest, or any illegal things.

⸝⸝　i am twenty-six. this blog is strictly 21+. i do not write with muns under 21, and i do not write with muses under 21.

⸝⸝　if we're writing together, please do not use extra spacing, or font smaller than tumblr's default small font. please do not use copy/paste fonts or excessive symbols.

⸝⸝　i will match length, but will happily write more or less, depending on where we plan to go with our characters. i will rarely post a starter that doesn't have 2-3 paragraphs to work off of, but i don't require my partner to match that length. just give me something to work off of, and we'll be great!

⸝⸝　i type in lowercase and use tumblr's small font, bold, italics, strikethrough, and medium-sized gifs (268px wide). all gifs will be credited in the alt text on the post they're used in. if you're using images, please make sure they are at least 100px wide. if you have any issues with my formatting, please let me know and i'll be glad to match your formatting, or use none at all.

⸝⸝　i do not have a list of banned faceclaims. if i see a faceclaim i don't want to interact with, i simply won't.

⸝⸝　do not come near me if you use ai in any creative capacity, including generative ai to create images, writing, or anything else.

⸝⸝　if i follow you, i want to write with you! if i don't reach out first, please feel free to reach out to me. if you don't want to interact with me, please hard block me, as i will not notice a soft block.