My favourite things: bunnies, caterpillars, sheep, jellyfishies, build a bears, palm pals, pochacco, guinea pigs + Ashnikko
This is a completely sfw blog.
Fandoms I'm in: Yellowjackets, Arcane, Daisy Jones & The Six, Heartbreak High, Agggtm, The Pitt, Stranger Things (massive byler shipper), Solitaire (by Alice Oseman), Agatha All Along
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I take requests even though no one's requested anything before!! I wanna write more fics and I'll be more motivated if someone's requested me something than if I have an idea. Currently hyperfocused on arcane I will write anythinggg (for any of my fandoms)(fics, headcanons, moodboard anything)(can be regression related or even not I just love my fandoms and will do anything).
This blog is for me to post about my favourite shows and to share my writing. I'm currently focusing on writing in the arcane and yellowjackets fandom. I love writing little!Caitlyn Kiramman and autistic Caitlyn Kiramman. If anyone has any Caitlyn requests I would love to write it I'm running out of ideas for my 'I write autistic Caitlyn to cope' series on ao3. For yellowjackets, I'm interested in writing Jackienat, specifically little!Jackie and cg!Nat. For stranger things i'm interested in writing Mike and Will. One day, I'll write in the Daisy Jones & The Six fandom but I need to get the hyperfixation back to do so. It recently ended but it usually comes back every few months.
I post a lot of agere things because I like it. I won't post anything personal.
DNI= anything NSFW, k1nk, age play. Sfw interaction only. I will block freely. $h + pro ana as well. Makes me feel icky. Non age-re blogs are welcome. Dni if you write about anything hateful to these characters: Jackie Taylor, Caitlyn Kiramman and Daisy Jones. Especially Jackie Taylor I won't stand for it :(
If you want to be moots/friends just ask!! I struggle with talking to people but I really want to make friends!!
This blog is just a safe space for me. I try and make it as kid friendly as possible.
Ao3= stcrew
Warning for my ao3: In some of my previous fandoms, I wrote some 3d and $h stuff. I don't write those things anymore as it was making me really sad but I don't want to take it down because I like having it to see how far my writing has come. I've not written anything like that in Yellowjackets or Arcane, but Agatha All Along and Solitaire/heartstopper I have, so just be mindful.
Neither one of them remembers what the context was anymore, but at some point, Dennis texted Trinity that she was his best friend. Trinity keeps a screenshot of that message in a private folder on her phone for nights when her bad thoughts get too loud. Because sometimes, the only thing stopping her is the thought that she can't do to him what her old best friend did to her
Characters: Trinity Santos, Cassie McKay, Dana Evans, Victoria Javadi, Jack Abbot, Baran Al-Hashimi, Yolanda Garcia
TW for: Death (a patient) and meltdowns
Trinity gets sick at work and regresses. Unfortunately for her both Baran and Yolanda are away for a medical conference
This is a combination of two tumblr requests I got. The first chapter is Trinity’s pov and the second (that I’ll write eventually) is Baran’s
THIS FIC IS ABOUT SFW AGE REGRESSION IT IS NOT A KINK. IF YOU FIND THIS SORT OF STUFF KINKY GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME AND MY FICS
I hope you enjoy!
Trinity’s felt sick for days. With both Baran and Yolanda at a medical conference, for the past few days there was no one to make her stay home, so she’s been going to work sick.
Her illness didn’t really catch up to her until about six pm, Wednesday night.
Trinity’s eyes feel heavy. She has to prevent herself from yawning while patching up a patient’s third degree burn. “That should be all good, however it’s hospital policy that we keep you here for at least another hour so we can monitor everything” Trinity says, stifling yet another yawn.
Getting up to exit the room, she spots Cassie standing in the doorway. “Doctor Santos, can we talk for a second?” Cassie asks with a sternness in her voice that leaves no room for objection.
Trinity nods solemnly, knowing she’s about to get in trouble for something. Was it about teasing Victoria again? Trinity knows how protective Cassie was over Victoria.
Closing the door to the patient’s room behind her, Trinity casually leans against the wall. “What’s up?”
“You seem a bit tired today, is everything alright?” Cassie asks.
“Huh? Oh-yeah, I just didn’t get a lot of sleep last night, you know” Trinity lies, hoping it sounds casual enough that Cassie buys it.
Cassie raises an eyebrow at her, clearly not believing a word. “Alright then. But if you’re not feeling well, then it’s probably best if you go home”
Trinity gives her a sheepish thumbs up before returning back to work.
—
It’s about seven pm when Trinity starts going downhill. She’s starting to feel dizzy and nauseous and also really hot. But there’s only a few more hours in her shift so she decides to power through.
There’s an incoming trauma; an older man had suffered a heart attack. Trinity’s called into the room by Langdon whose been attempting to keep the ER together while Baran was at the conference.
The patient is offloaded from the gurney while Mel starts chest compressions. Trinity stands near the back of the room, unsure how to help. Everything starts blurring together. Langdon using the defibrillator in between Mel’s chest compressions, the loud sound of flatlining after each attempt, Dennis taking over for Mel when she becomes tired, the patient finally being pronounced dead at 7:13.
The group share a moment of silence before they are all rushed out of the room, in order to have it reset for the next incoming trauma.
Trinity heads to the break room, attempting to shake off what just happened. She sits at a table and lays her head down. She feels so terrible. So hot, so dizzy, so tired. Trinity just wanted her Mama. But her Mama was at a very important business conference right now and couldn’t come help her.
She shakily pulls out her phone and opens the messages app.
“Mama feel sick” She sends the message to Baran, knowing she probably wouldn’t get a response for a few hours.
To Trinity’s surprise, three little dots appear on the right side of the screen, meaning that Baran was texting her back.
“Oh my goodness, I’m so sorry Trinny, do you need to go home?” Said the little grey text message.
“Wanna go home but don wanna be lone” Trinity replies.
“I know baby. I’ll call Dana and see if she can come help you, okay?”
“Kay mama” Trinity puts her phone face down on the table, the screen was hurting her eyes.
—
The break room door quietly opens but Trinity’s too tired to move her head.
“Hey kiddo” a familiar voice calls out.
Trinity looks up to see Dana, holding Trinity’s backpack and little bag. Baran must have put the little bag in her locker.
“Mama told me you’re not feeling to well, huh kid?” Dana takes a seat next to Trinity.
Trinity’s eyes start to fill with tears. She misses her Mama so much and feels so impossibly small right now.
Taking note of this, Dana opens her arms to the girl.
Trinity immediately takes up the offer, sitting herself in Dana’s lap.
“I know, I know” Dana pets Trinity’s hair soothingly.
“Wan Mama” Trinity wails, grabbing tightly onto the back of Dana’s scrubs.
Dana can feel Trinity’s hot tears land on her neck,
“Oh sweetheart, I know how hard it must be without your Mama”. She coos, rocking Trinity back and forth in her lap.
Ever so quietly, Cassie opens the door. She walks into the room and kneels down next to Trinity. “Hey little one” she coos, reaching into the bag Dana brought in earlier.
Cassie finds Trinity’s Rainbowdash pacifier and offers it to her. Trinity stuffs it into her mouth and slowly starts settling down. Her breaths become less rigid and her tears begin to dry.
Dana and Cassie talk quietly while Trinity recomposes herself, it takes about ten minutes but eventually she does.
Once Trinity’s calmed down, she peeks out from her spot against Dana’s chest.
“Hi baby” Dana coos, softly rubbing Trinity’s back.
Trinity looks shyly up at Cassie, who offers a warm smile.
Once she’s pretty sure that both women are okay with her in this regressed state, Trinity makes grabby hands towards her little bag.
“Oh my goodness, does the baby want something?” Dana coos, pulling the bag within Trinity’s reach.
Trinity digs around for a bit until she finds what she’s looking for; her Snoopy plushy. Trinity pulls Snoopy close to her face, inhaling his calm lavender scent. “Noopy” she babbles quietly.
Both Dana and Cassie can feel their hearts melting.
“Alright kiddo, it’s 8:00, we have another hour before it’s time to go home, what do you think we should do in the meantime?” Cassie asks.
“Hmmm…” Trinity has to think for a little bit about this, there’s so many options! “Play?” She finally decides.
“That sounds like a great idea” Cassie praises. “I unfortunately have to go back to work for a bit, but I think that I can probably get Victoria to come in here for a little bit.” Trinity claps her hands enthusiastically at the idea of Victoria coming to play with her.
“But remember, you’re still sick kid, take it easy” Dana reminds.
Trinity gives her a very pouty face in response, crossing her arms.
“I know baby, but I can’t let ya get any sicker” Dana coos.
“Hhmmff” Trinity huffs. Her tantrum however, is soon interrupted by Victoria entering the break room.
“Toria!” Trinity exclaims, flapping her hands excitedly.
“Hi Trinity, I heard that you needed a playmate” Victoria coos, taking a seat next to Trinity and Dana. She sets a bottle of children’s Motrin on the table. “Cassie made me promise that I’d have you take this before we play”.
“Nuh-uh, yucky” Trinity whines, nuzzling back up against Dana’s chest.
Dana smooths Trinity’s hair back soothingly. “I know you don’t wanna take it kid but it’ll help ya feel better”.
“Also, the label does say it’s strawberry flavored” Victoria adds in a sing-songy voice.
Trinity peeks out from her spot against Dana’s chest. “Stawbewwy?” She questions.
“Mm-hmm” Victoria confirms, picking up the bottle and pointing to the little cartoon strawberry.
“Hmmm…okay, but we play after” Trinity argues.
“Deal” Victoria agrees, pouring a bit of the liquid into the cap, handing it over to Trinity.
She drinks the medicine with a sour look on her face. “Not very good stwawbewwy” she pouts.
“I know punkin’ but you did a good job takin’ it” Dana praises.
“Play now Toria?” Trinity asks.
“Sure thing” Victoria responds, taking things out of Trinity’s little bag and placing them on the table, in search of something they can do together.
As it’s pulled out, Trinity’s eyes immediately lock on a wooden block. “Pay bocks!” Trinity announces, clapping her hands together in excitement.
Trinity has a set of rainbow alphabet blocks that Baran bought her for when she’s feeling extra small. Trinity likes to watch other people build really tall towers and then knock their towers down, it makes her giggle.
Hearing a knock at the door, Trinity turns her head. Very quietly; Doctor Abbot enters the room. “Do you guys need anything?” He asks, walking over to the table.
“Well, the little one was planning on playing a game, and if I know anything, it’s eventually going to end up on the floor” Dana chuckles, adjusting Trinity on her lap. “Is there any way you could bring in a sheet or blanket for her to play on?”
“Sure thing” Jack replies, tussling Trinity’s hair. “I’m sure we have some extra in the supply closet”
“Bye-bye” Trinity mumbles through her pacifier as Jack leaves the room.
“Vic, do you think you can watch Trinity for a minute?” Dana asks. “I have to go…take a break”.
“Sure thing!” Victoria confirms.
Dana tries a few times to transfer Trinity to Victoria’s lap, but the more times she tries, the harder Trinity holds onto her.
“No no no!” She exclaims, tears starting to form in her eyes. “Don’t wan you ta go!”
“I know babygirl, but I’ll be back in just a little bit, I promise” Dana soothes, holding Trinity tightly in her arms.
“Can go with?”
“No baby, but you can stay here and play with Victoria”
“Hmmm…okay” Trinity considers.
Dana carefully places Trinity into Victoria’s lap. “I promise I’ll be right back” Dana quickly gets up and leaves before Trinity can further protest.
Like clockwork, as soon as Dana leaves the room , Jack enters. “I found a few pairs of kitty-cat sheets up in peds” Jack says, tossing them on the table. “I’ll be at the charge nurse desk if you need anything Vic”
“Heard” Victoria replies, trying to calm the fussy baby in her lap.
As soon as Jack leaves, Victoria whispers to Trinity; “Do you want to build a fort?”
Trinity nods enthusiastically, reaching out for the sheets.
“Okay, so we’ll take a sheet and put it over the table, and take the other and put it under the table” Victoria explains, standing up with Trinity still in her arms.
It’s a bit of a struggle for Victoria to make the fort with a baby in her arms, but it’s not too long before it’s all set up and ready to play in.
—
Trinity’s sat next to her Snoopy on the kitty sheet under the table while Victoria hands her blocks one by one.
She sorts them into a neat pile under the table, waiting for Victoria to join.
“Make a tower” Trinity instructs, as Victoria joins her under the table.
“Yes Ma’am” Victoria says in all seriousness, which makes Trinity giggle.
She builds the blocks up until they almost reach the bottom of the table. “Alright, what now?”
Trinity immediately responds by knocking over the tower. This causes her to giggle uncontrollably.
“Oh I see” Victoria replies.
This immediately snaps Trinity out of her giggle fit. “No, you have to be pretend mad” she directs, crossing her arms.
“Oh-okay then” Victoria says, almost a little to quickly. Nervous that she made Trinity upset.
“Build it ‘gain” Trinity instructs.
Victoria does as she’s told, rebuilding the tower. Trinity is about to knock it down, when she’s interrupted by the door opening.
She peeks her head out from underneath the table cloth to see Dana, carrying a juice box.
“Miss Dana!” Trinity squeals, practically running into Dana’s arms.
“Hey kiddo, I told you I’d be back” Dana coos, tussling the girl’s hair.
“Wanna see what me and ‘Toria made?” Trinity asks, grabbing Dana’s hand and guiding her under the table.
“Wow, this is pretty nice” Dana remarks, poking the straw into the box before handing Trinity the juicebox. “I figured you were thirsty”
“Fank yew” Trinity babbles, taking her pacifier out in replacement of the straw.
After she’s done, Dana reaches from under the table to put the drink on top of it.
Trinity puts her pacifier back in her mouth, before immediately turning to knock over Victoria’s tower. She giggles and claps, while Victoria makes her best pretend mad face.
“I worked on that tower for so long just for it to be messed up” She huffs.
Dana is taken aback by this as she wasn’t in the room for the conversation about the “rules” of this game.
“I guess I’ll just start building it again….” Victoria mutters, gathering the fallen blocks.
A mischievous smile starts to form on Trinity’s face as Victoria stacks the blocks.
Just as she places the eighth block up, Trinity pushes the tower over.
Trinity’s giggling so much that she falls over.
“Hey! I just rebuilt that!” Victoria scolds. “I’m going to get you” she lunges towards Trinity and begins to tickle her.
The little girl lets out squeals of excitement as Victoria tickles her.
Avoiding her kicking legs, Victoria tickles Trinity until she can’t take it anymore.
Laying on the ground, huffing and puffing, Trinity lets out a small cough.
Over the span of forty minutes, Victoria had completely forgotten that she’s sick. “Tough girl” Victoria coos, lifting Trinity into her lap.
Trinity latches onto Victoria like a lifeline.
“Looks like she finally warmed up to you” Dana says, offering Victoria a knowing smile.
“Sometimes all it takes is a little patience” Victoria replies, fondly stroking the hair of the little girl in her lap.
—
Trinity’s fast asleep against Victoria’s chest when the door to the break room opens once again.
The sudden noise wakes up Trinity. Sleepily rubbing her eyes, she crawls out from under the table.
“Mama!” Trinity exclaims, throwing herself into Baran’s arms.
“Hey baby, how are you feeling?” Baran asks, placing her hand against Trinity’s forehead; attempting to feel how hot she is.
“Mm okay, Miss Dana and Victoria ‘ook ‘eally good care o’ me” Trinity babbles happily.
“Glad we could be of service” Dana replies, gathering all of Trinity’s things into her bags.
“Mami’s waiting in the car for us” Baran says, picking Trinity up and placing the girl on her hip.
“Love Mami” Trinity babbles, nestling into Baran’s chest.
“Thank you for all the help today” Baran mutters, taking the two bags from Dana.
“It was really more of a group effort” Dana states, winking at Victoria.
“We’ll see you guys on Monday” Baran yawns, walking out of the break room.
—
The walk to the parking lot isn’t that far, but when there’s another person in your arms, it tends to take longer.
Baran sets Trinity down in the back seat of her car, carefully buckling her in and setting down her bags on the floor.
After her baby’s all settled, Baran buckles herself in the passenger seat, laying back against it.
“Long day” Yolanda states, staring the car.
“Yeah but it was worth it” Baran says, looking into the rear view mirror to see Trinity sound asleep with her pacifier in her mouth.
Went toy/plushie shopping in London!!!! Hamleys was so cools omgie an entire 3 floored building full of toys!!! Dream come true :0 of course I had to get a build a bear!! Stuffed it by myself :> not sure what to call her yet so I'm just gonna keep calling her Pawlette for now cause I like that name :> had super duper fun time
Sorry I've disappeared I've been feeling super sick nd tired nd all my time that's spent not in sixth form is spent studing which is making me feel even more blah :< hoping to write some stuff over the summer!! (if I get a break between volunteerin-coursework-revision-reading that is). Life sucks rn but I'm going to build a bear this weekend!! Like the actual store :0 I used to go all the time as a kid because I had one close to me but then that closed down nd I haven't been since! Super excited :3
Do you have any headcannons on how Trinity's Autism may inpact her when regressed and not? (Autistic trinity has my heart)
Autistic regressor Trinity
Thanks for the ask anon!
Trinity’s autism definitely affects her both in and out of regression, however when she’s small her mask slips and it’s definitely seems to impact her a lot more.
Tw for mentions of self harm
🐈⬛ Trinity is very good at masking her autism. Most people would never guess she’s autistic. It’s a whole different story when she’s small.
🍼 Little Trinity always needs some sort of sensory regulation. Whether rocking back and forth, chewing on a pacifier or sucking her thumb. She always needs to be doing some sort of self soothing or else she’ll get super fussy.
🎧 She has PDA so a lot of times she’ll end up fussing about something Baran tells her to do because her brain perceives it as a threat, not because she doesn’t want to do what Baran tells her.
🐈⬛ Little Trinity Santos who’s a kitty regressor because she finds it a lot easier to communicate her needs through actions rather than words. (And a tiny bit of meowing).
🍼 Although she has like twenty different sippy cups and bottles, Trinity only ever uses her favorite; A purple sippy with Rainbowdash and Fluttershy. Baran is constantly washing the cup because Trinity will cry if she has to drink from any other sippy.
🎧Trinity’s a sensory seeker so she’s always biting on random things around the house. Baran has to constantly redirect her to either her paci or a chewy toy. Baran never scolds her because she understands that Trinity’s just a baby and babies teethe.
🐈⬛ When Trinity’s small, it’s really easy for her to get upset. Unlike most of the other littles that have easily resolved tantrums, Trinity usually has full blown meltdowns. Meltdowns that result in her biting, scratching and hitting herself. These meltdowns usually either stem from overstimulation or PDA. They normally last about fifteen minutes if Baran is actively attempting to calm her down. If she’s alone then they normally last longer. Baran is very good at stopping her meltdowns, giving hugs with the right amount of pressure that also prevents her from hurting herself. Constantly reassuring Trinity that “it’s okay to be upset but that we need to use safe hands”.
🍼 When her and Baran are out, little Trinity will often run off, either because she’s upset or she sees something she wants, not noticing that her Mama isn’t with her. Once she notices, she’ll freeze and start to worry, her bottom lip juts out and her eyes fill with tears, just as Baran finds her. “Baby, you need to remember to hold Mommy’s hand, okay? I don’t want you to get lost”. Baran pulls her into a tight hug and for the rest of the trip Trinity makes extra sure to hold onto her Mama’s hand.
🎧 When she’s big, Trinity absolutely refuses to wear ear defenders because “They look dorky”, but little Trinity loves wearing them. Whenever she’s in a loud environment like a group playdate, she’ll normally wear them. She has a really cute pink pair with cat ears ontop. It definitely helps her to wear them because she loves wearing cat ears but the headbands hurt her head.
🐈⬛ Little Trinity absolutely loves stimming. Jumping up and down when shes happy, flapping her hands, toe walking, it all makes her feel very small and safe. Baran always encourages it because she knows how much it helps her girl.
This was kind of short, sorry about that, I couldn’t really think of many headcanons but I hope you enjoyed!
— online bunny regressors who spend hours on the internet, sending emoticons to friends and spamming heart buttons. who find solace in being tucked under a blanket and a device close to their heart.
Little!Jackie going to cg!Lottie when she's having a bad mental health day. When she wakes up from a bad dream nd she's having bad thoughts circle her brain, Lottie understands the best, nd knows how to make her feel better 🐛🐇
This!! Lottie is such a steady and calming presence, who always knows when to push and when not to. She makes Jackie feel so secure and comfortable being in whatever state or headspace she needs to be.
