You should see me in a crown.

"Not until we are lost do we begin to understand ourselves." - Henry David Thoreau Indie&Private Dorian Storm. Loved by L.

[stcrmsung]

Indie Dorian Storm from Critical Role

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[thoughtcascades]

“are u okay?”

no, i always think everything’s my fault bro

[stcrmsung]

"They say what doesn't kill you makes you aware. What happens if it becomes who you are?" - ( Orym ) @songshieldandselfcare

"I think," Dorian says SLOWLY, allowing his gaze to be focused on the fire in front of them for a moment, before turning towards his friend. "That we always have a choice. We can become what we hate if we're not careful, but there's always a choice, it's just about whether or not you're willing to make it."

[poohsources]

🐝  *  ―  𝑷𝑰𝑵𝑰𝑵𝑮 / 𝒀𝑬𝑨𝑹𝑵𝑰𝑵𝑮 𝑺𝑬𝑵𝑻𝑬𝑵𝑪𝑬 𝑺𝑻𝑨𝑹𝑻𝑬𝑹𝑺.

❛  i can't stop thinking about you even when i try.  ❜ ❛  every time i see you, it's like my heart skips a beat.  ❜ ❛  i never realized how much i needed you until you weren't there.  ❜ ❛  do you ever feel like there's something missing ... like a piece of your heart is somewhere else?  ❜ ❛  i wish i had the courage to tell you how i feel.  ❜ ❛  if only you knew how much you truly mean to me.  ❜ ❛  do you ever wonder what it would be like if things were different between us?  ❜ ❛  sometimes i wonder if you ever think about me the way i think about you.  ❜ ❛  i had a lot of dreams about you recently.  ❜ ❛  somehow, you're always on my mind.  ❜ ❛  i think i've been in love with you since the day we met - scratch that, i know i've been in love with you since the day we met.  ❜ ❛  my biggest wish is to hold you close and never let you go.  ❜ ❛  all my life i've felt like a part of me was missing, but with you i've finally found it.  ❜ ❛  you deserve better than who i am right now, but i'm gonna keep trying to become someone you do deserve.  ❜ ❛  every time you smile at me, i get this flutter in my chest.  ❜ ❛  do you think i'll ever be worthy of your love?  ❜ ❛  i want to be the person to make you happy. the one person you can always come to with whatever you need.  ❜ ❛  will we ever get another chance together?  ❜ ❛  you were the best thing that's ever happened to me.  ❜ ❛  my biggest regret is ever letting you go.  ❜ ❛  i'm still in love with you ... and i honestly never stopped.  ❜ ❛  when i wake up in the morning, you're the first person i want to see.  ❜ ❛  every time i wake up, i check if you wrote me another message.  ❜ ❛  i wish i could be as important to you as you are to me.  ❜ ❛  it hurts when you don't talk to me like you used to.  ❜ ❛  i miss everything about you, your touch, your laugh, your smile. i wish i could have that back.  ❜ ❛  i want to fall asleep wrapped in your arms.  ❜ ❛  hold me closer; i always feel safer when you're with me.  ❜ ❛  there's so much i wish i was able to tell you.  ❜ ❛  i know things aren't easy right now, but i want to remain a fixture in your life. after all, you're one in mine.  ❜ ❛  i miss the way you always made me smile.  ❜ ❛  you're the reason i keep holding on.  ❜ ❛  maybe we're supposed so to remain a case of 'right person, wrong time' forever.  ❜ ❛  if only you knew how i feel about you.  ❜ ❛  i'm yearning to hold your hand in mine.  ❜ ❛  i think you are the one for me, and i hope one day i'll be the one for you, too.  ❜ ❛  do you think i'll ever become more than a friend to you?  ❜ ❛  my heart belongs to you, always and forever.  ❜ ❛  my first instinct is to protect you, no matter the cost.  ❜ ❛  i've been thinking about us a lot lately.  ❜

[enspelled]

he   might’ve   been   anxious,   choosing   himself,   but   seeing   dorian   so   contented   reassures   him.   his   brow   furrows   as   he   concentrates.      “    yeah,    ”      he   says,   and   nods,      “    i   think   that’ll   be   good.   then   there’ll   be   less   noise   and   stuff.    ”      he   gives   dorian’s   hips   a   little   squeeze.      “    you   smell   really   good,   by   the   way.    ”

their   trip   continues,   and   he   looks   with   genuine   interest   at   every   item   dorian   considers.   he   also   finds   a   vendor   selling   cool   rocks,   and   gets   one   for   himself.   it’s   rough   and   pink,   and   called   rose   something-he-forgets.

after   they   get   back   to   the   inn   and   have   dinner,   he   makes   an   excuse   to   speak   with   dorian   in   their   room-   saying   he’s   learning   a   new   song   on   his   flute,   and   needs   some   pointers.      “    okay,   so   i   didn’t   actually   need   to   practice,    ”      he   says,   once   the   door’s   closed,      “    well,   i   do,   but   right   now   i   thought   .   .   .    ”      he   might   as   well   be   delivering   a   wedding   ring,   for   how   awkward   he’s   being.   dariax   sits   on   the   bed,   and   pats   the   spot   beside   him.      “    can   you   sit   with   me   for   a   sec?    ”

[stcrmsung]

"Well, thank you." Dorian replies with a smile as they continue on, and he actually ENJOYS having a slow day for once. Sure, they've been out and about, but there's no fighting and no running for their lives which, honestly, he doesn't always mind, but he also cares for the days where they get to rest.

Once they're all done for the day, he settles in with Dariax, one eyebrow raised in a 'Don't you?' expression, but finds his lips curving into another smile as he sits down, leaning back onto his hands, eyes fixed on the other man. "Yeah, sure. Of course, what's up?"

[drawsmaddy]

[ID: A page of digital drawings of Dorian Storm from Critical Role. There are eight drawings of Dorian, showing various expressions. From top left to bottom right the expressions are laughter, frustration, blank confusion, an affectionate smile, displeasure, unimpressed, and an open mouthed "oh!". End description.]

Some expression practice with Dorian!

[remanence-of-love]

[crumbpigeon]

the return of the king!!

[uselesslexbian]

the tortured poets department: the anthology sentence starters.

i just don't understand how you don't miss me.

i may never open up the way i did for you.

do you hate me?

you knew the price goin' in.

i can tell when somebody still wants me.

whether i'm gonna curse you out or take you back to my house, i haven't decided yet.

you were never not mine.

even if it's handcuffed, i'm leaving here with you.

we broke all the pieces but still want to play the game.

told my friends i hate you, but i love you just the same.

pick your poison, babe. i'm poison either way.

they tried to warn you about me.

you're in terrible danger.

i tried to warn you about them.

if you want to break my cold, cold heart, just say "i loved you the way that you were."

you said some things that i can't unabsorb.

you needed me, but you needed drugs more.

if you want to tear my world apart, say you'll always wonder.

will i always wonder?

i can't pretend like i understand.

how did it end?

it's happening again.

tell me 'bout the first time you saw me.

are you gonna marry, kiss, or kill me?

no one's ever had me, not like you.

tell me something awful.

tell me all your secrets.

i don't believe in good luck now that i know what's what.

seems like it was never even fun back then.

i'm lonely, but i'm good.

i'm bitter, but i swear i'm fine.

this place made me feel worthless.

i can't forgive the way you made me feel.

there wouldn't be this if there hadn't been you.

maybe you've reframed it and in your mind you didn't beat my spirit black and blue.

i don't think you've changed much.

everyone knows that my mother is a saintly woman but she used to say she wished that you were dead.

does it feel alright to not know me?

i'm addicted to the "if only."

i guess a lesser woman would've lost hope.

i don't want money. i just want someone who wants my company.

do you believe me now?

they say what doesn't kill you makes you aware. what happens if it becomes who you are?

is it something i did?

i thought it was just goodbye for now.

you said you were gonna grow up then you were gonna come find me.

life was always easier on you than it was on me.

i didn't want to hang around.

we must stop meeting like this.

you are bloodthirsty.

you have no room in your dreams for regrets.

i'm not a donor but i'd give you my heart if you needed it.

the story isn't mine anymore.

[stcrmsung]

Dorian watches for a moment as the other man weaves his way through the crowd, a slight SMILE on his face. Dariax seems excited, and whatever he's really looking for, he hopes the other finds it. Dorian himself walks along the stands and takes a look at some of the fabrics, running his hands over them and simply...ENJOYING them. It's been a while since he's made anything, and maybe they would have some time, soon.

He buys a few things and puts them away, finishing off his last transaction eventually and then let's Dariax find him once more, the very same smile from earlier returning to his face.

"We didn't set a SPECIFIC time," he then chuckles with a nod. "So you can't be late. Did you get what you were looking for?"

[enspelled]

dariax   nods,   happily.        "    yeah,    "        he   says,        "    i   think-   i   think   they'll   really   like   it.    "        a   bit   of   apprehension   creeps   into   his   chest.   when   he's   not   acting   on   a   sudden   impulse   (   which   is   rare   ),   he'll   often   question   his   own   judgement.   his   decisions   have   caused   back   after   back   to   turn   on   him.   but   dorian   always   treats   him   so   gently.   dariax   can't   imagine   he'll   be   upset   when   he   sees   the   gift,   even   if   it's   not   to   his   taste.

he   keeps   his   arm   around   the   genasi's   waist   as   they   speak.   the   fabric   feels   soft   under   his   grip.        "    do   you   think,   um   .   .   .    maybe   i   should   give   it   to   them   tonight?   like,   when   we're   alone?    "        he's   oblivious   to   how   obvious   he   sounds.

[stcrmsung]

Dorian looks down at the other, the hint of a smile still on his face. He's ENJOYING himself, which is rare with how busy they always are these days, so he's planning cherishing every moment of this day. He KNOWS that Dariax is up to something, well, he ALWAYS is, but that's not the point, and it causes a spark of warmth to settle in his chest as he pretends to think for a moment.

"Well, depends on what kind of gift it is, really." Dorian then replies, "but if you WANT to give it to them, and want to do so when you two are alone, then that's probably a good idea, yes."

[stcrmsung]

at   the   moment,   you   want   .   .   .

to run away

your heart at the moment desires to run. it's haunting, chasing you, booming louder. sometimes it's distant enough that you can handle ignoring it, but now, it's so loud. maybe you've tried to face it before, even fight it. you may have failed, or possibly succeeded, but you spared its life, and now it has returned. maybe you never fought it, and simply kept running. and now more than ever, this feels like your last resort. your mind is telling you that you need to run, to run, to run, faster and faster, to lose sight of this. to shake it, because you couldn't shake it before. but is that the right solution? will it really solve anything?

tagged by: @proelio-procusi

tagging: @dawnshe @dvarapala @seeliecourt

[lunememes]

🌙 * ― 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝐈𝐒 𝐈𝐍 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐀𝐈𝐑 ( a collection of date locations and things to do with your date. feel free to adjust the prompts as needed! do not add to the list. )

a relaxing date

quiet night. our muses snuggle up together beneath a blanket on the couch or in bed and listens as the other muse reads a book to them. bookshop. our muses go to a bookshop and pick out books for each other to read once they get back home. console. our muses play a casual and fun game on a console together, requiring teamwork and strategy. park. our muses take a relaxing walk through the park together to talk and get to know each other better. spa. our muses go to a spa to treat themselves to a day of relaxation and pampering. movie. our muses go to the local cinema to watch a movie together, where they can snack on popcorn and be transported to another world. beach. our muses go to a warm sandy beach, where they can soak up the sun and dip their toes into the sea for a swim or a splash.

a fun date

pins. our muses go to a bowling alley together, where they can play a casual game or aim to have the highest score. wheels. our muses go roller skating together, where they can race one another or skate hand in hand for a more relaxed date. rink. our muses go ice skating together, where they can show off their moves or wobble on the ice and tumble in unison. swim. our muses go swimming together, where they can playfully splash one another, go down the slides or brave the wave pool. shopping. our muses go to the mall together, where they can shop to their hearts content and find a new thing to take home. ride. our muses go horse riding together, either separately or together, and enjoy the sights atop their horses. hole-in-one. our muses go to a crazy golf course, where they must overcome obstacles and get the ball to its end destination. laser. our muses go to a laser tag event and test out their stealth and aim as they try to hunt one another down to tag them. paintball. our muses go paintballing together and form up to be a formidable team or test their skills against each other. rodeo. our muses attempt the mechanical rodeo bull, where one muse must hang on for dear life or try to stay on together.

a delicious date

restaurant. our muses go to a nice restaurant, dressed up and treated to vintage wine and delicious food. fast food. our muses go to a fast food place, where there are no expectations and the company is all that matters. café. our muses go to a homely little café, where they can enjoy a warm drink and homemade cakes. truck. our muses go to a local food truck, where greasy but delicious food is served up right in front of them. homemade. our muses have a home-cooked meal, where one muse cooks the other a delicious and intimate meal. baking. our muses bake something together, sending flour everywhere and bringing out the playfulness of one another. picnic. our muses go on a little picnic together, a quiet patch of grass beneath the warm sun. cold treat. our muses find an ice cream truck and decide to treat themselves to a cold treat. sweet treat. our muses go to a desert place where they can get waffles, crêpes and brownies.

a nature date

zoo. our muses take a trip to the zoo where they can admire all the various walks of life and get the special privilege to feed an animal. wings. our muses visit a butterfly sanctuary, where the air is filled with colourful wings and life flutters all around them. feed. our muses visit a park with a bag of seed on hand to feed the local wildlife, getting to see them up close and personal. sea life. our muses visit and aquarium together, where they can stand beneath a tunnel of water and see sharks and fish swim overhead. sun. our muses find a clearing or a good vantage point to watch the sunrise or sunset together. stars. our muses lay beneath the stars together, where they can try to catch a glimpse of shooting star or point out the constellations. garden. our muses visit a botanical garden, where vibrant colours and fragrant flowers bloom.

an entertaining date

play. our muses attend a play at a theatre, where music fills the halls and actors perform on stage. opera. our muses attend an opera hall, where classical music takes people back to a different age. ballet. our muses attend a ballet showing, where elegance and grace captivates the audience. sport. our muses attend a sports event with the best seats in the house, where they can cheer on their favourite team and have a beer or two. concert. our muses visit a concert together, where the crowd raves to the music and joins in harmony. amusement park. our muses go to an amusement park, where they can relax on a log ride or risk it all with a daring ride. night out. our muses go to a bar where the drinks never end and the party goes well into the night. prize. our muses visit the arcades where they can try to win as many prizes as they can or jump into a stimulation game. old games. our muses have a fun and competitive go at old board games, where it could bring them together or test the strength of their relationship.

an educational date

pottery. our muses attending a pottery class where one muse helps the other to make a pot, hands on. paint. our muses attending a painting class, where they can gift one another their painting or paint one another. dance. our muses attend a dance class, where they can learn a few new moves and share an intimate moment. axe. our muses go to an axe throwing class, where a professional teaches them how to throw axes. museum. our muses go to the museum, where they can learn the earth's history, admire the artwork or venture into space. castle. our muses visit an old castle, where history lingers and people can peer into the past.

a medieval date

renfair. our muses attend a renfair event, dressed up for the occasion and enjoy the festivities. joust. our muses attend a medieval restaurant where they can dine, watch knights joust and have a medieval experience. ball. our muses attend a grand ball, where couples take to the dance floor and let the music flow through them. masquerade. our muses attend a masquerade ball, where masks shrouds faces and scandals thrive. feast. our muses attend a grand feast, where jolly laughter and mountains of food await.

an adventurous date

climb. our muses attend an indoor climbing place or brave the mountains, to put their strength and resilience to the test. camp. our muses take to the wild and set up camp in the woods, putting their survival skills to the test. sail. our muses go on a cruise together, where they can kick back and enjoy a nice cocktail on the ocean waves. lake. our muses brave the brisk waters and go skinny dipping together for some naughty fun. rapids. our muses go canoeing in the treacherous waters of a fast running river sky diving. our muses take to the skies and go sky diving, either together or side by side, and experience the world from above. slope. our muses go skiing or snowboarding together, soaring past the snow covered trees and gaining air with ramps.

an unconventional date

heist. our muses go on a more unconventional date and go on a heist together to bring home a new, shiny and expensive addition. fight. our muses attend a fighting match where adrenaline is high and cheers fill the room. rage. our muses go to a rage room and smash things together, letting out pent up rage and stress in union. graveyard. our muses visit a graveyard at night, where they can try to scare one another with a scary story or visit the dead. ghosts. our muses try to find the paranormal in an abandoned place, where spirits are said to linger. hunting. our muses go hunting together, but what exactly will they be hunting? escape. our muses go to an escape room, where they will need to work together if they ever stand a chance of getting out. sacrifice. our muses perform a ritual with the intention of summoning something, but is it for fun or is it something all the more sinister?

[enspelled]

he's   fascinated   by   the   news,   but   it   shouldn't   come   across   as   a   surprise   at   this   point.   dorian   can   do   anything   he   sets   his   mind   to.   maybe   the   genasi   will   let   him   watch   him   make   something.   dariax   hands   some   coin   over   to   the   nearby   vendor,   getting   a   honey-glazed   kebab   in   exchange.   he   nods   as   dorian   finishes.

"    mmhmm.   yeah.   for   my   friend,    "        he   says,        "    sounds   good!       "

after   eating   and   making   sure   dorian   gets   what   he   needs,   they   separate.   dariax   bounds   through   the   market,   looking   for   anything   sparkly.   there's   plenty   of   trinkets   to   choose   from,   but   he   really   wants   to   find   something   that   suits   dorian   specifically.

a   glint   of   silver   catches   his   eye-   a   set   of   rings   to   match   dorian's   earrings.   most   of   them   are   simple   bands,   but   one   has   a   little   half   moon,   and   one   has   a   pair   of   tiny   wings.   dariax   beams.   the   vendor   wraps   them   up   in   a   layer   of   tissue   paper,   then   brown   paper,   and   he's   off.   his   heart's   pounding happily   by   the   time   he   reaches   dorian.

"    hey,    "        he   says,   giving   him   a   half-hug   by   pulling   him   in   by   the   hip,        "    sorry   i'm   late.    "        he   doesn't   know   if   he   is   or   not,   but   it's   a   possibility.   it's   easy   for   him   to   lose   track   of   time.

[stcrmsung]

Dorian watches for a moment as the other man weaves his way through the crowd, a slight SMILE on his face. Dariax seems excited, and whatever he's really looking for, he hopes the other finds it. Dorian himself walks along the stands and takes a look at some of the fabrics, running his hands over them and simply...ENJOYING them. It's been a while since he's made anything, and maybe they would have some time, soon.

He buys a few things and puts them away, finishing off his last transaction eventually and then let's Dariax find him once more, the very same smile from earlier returning to his face.

"We didn't set a SPECIFIC time," he then chuckles with a nod. "So you can't be late. Did you get what you were looking for?"

[luddlestons]

the besties need some sleep

[enspelled]

it   seems   like   dorian   knows,   but   he   isn't   gonna   highlight   it.   dariax   bashfully   ducks   his   head,   before   nestling   into   his   boyfriend's   side.   he   starts   flicking   through   the   options,   immediately   gravitating   towards   the   cartoons.

"   it's   just,   like,   the   music   and   stuff,   you   know?   "        he   says,   quietly,        "   if   we   were   in   a   real   fight,   i'd   protect   you.   "

[stcrmsung]

"It's FINE. You don't need a reason not to like it." Honestly, being afraid of horror movies has nothing to do with being in a real fight, and how one would react to it, he knows as much. "We'll watch something funny instead, yeah?"

He scrolls around and finds some comedic movie instead, leaning against the other man as the opening sequence begins to play. "Better?"

[heroexxs-a]

[mintyfangirl]

Tender, intimate ( I found a fun pose reference) and of course the quality got chewed up