_Innocence_ Gojo x reader
Y/n comforting Satoru after he finds out about Suguru's betrayal. A tiiiiny bit of angst but we all love it through the tears. Hope you enjoy it. <3
Iâve been here before. At the terrace on top of the Jujutsu High building. With wind in my hair and the sunsetâs orange beam shining in my eyes. The calmness of being alone with just your own thoughts. I grew to like this type of loneliness after having so many outgoing friends - I loved all of them but my social battery has its limits. I breath in smelling the wind and breathe out as if Iâm meditating. Suddenly I hear a loud bang of the wooden doors that bring you here to the terrace. I presume itâs just the wind but then I feel his energy. Hasnât he got somewhere else to be? Why does he have to occupy your sacred space?
The blue eyed boy stands in front of the door. I can hear him breathing violently as if he ran up the stairs. It canât be that though - Gojo Satoru doesnât get tired as easily as a human.
I study his expression to figure out what is going on when suddenly he speaks âplease, donât glare Y/nâ. I tilt your head and reply âhow did you know it was me? Ahh right the six eyes! I forget youâre so weirdâ
âIâm not⊠Iâm special, okay?âÂ
His lips are pursued. âYeah, thatâs doesnât sound any bit betterâ I snort at my own remark. Then I see he isnât smiling - and thatâs weird cuz heâs always smiling.
âOkay Toru, Whatâs going on with you?â Seriously?â I ask since I feel that somethingâs off.Â
âIâm okayâ he barks back
âFor real?â I again tilt my head and squint my eyes at him.
âFor real, realâ he snarks.
âAlrighty thenâŠâ I go to lean on the railing and as I take a deep breath Satoru opens his mouth.Â
âWhy did he do that?âÂ
âWho?â I ask and he begins walking my way.Â
âSuguru... he ki-killed humans, people. I just donât understand whyâŠâ His lips tremble as he mentions Geto.
Ohh right. Amidst enjoying my âpeaceâ I forgot why I came up here anyway. All the bad talk about my friend made me need it. It was so sudden I couldnât have seen it coming - his depression and his absence although did I really see him or did I just wite it off as his personality. Could I do something to stop him? Could Satoru do something to stop him?Â
âI donât know why. I asked my self like ten times today and I still have no clue.â I breathe out the words as if itâs my confession.
âOhâ Satoru hums back.
âIâm sorry Toru.â His snaps his head from the view at the sunset back to me.
âWhat? Why are you sorry?â He asks, one of his brows spikes up.
âHe was your friend after all, your best friend. It must really hurt. You were so close.â Suddenly when he hears this I swear I see a tear fall from one of his eyes.
âI- Iâm okayâŠâ He stops looking at me and looks back at the sunset.
âYouâre not Toru. You canât be okay in this situation. But you have to remember that even if you could see it happen you wouldnât be able to stop it, stop him. He wrote his own fate. It wasât just the Riiko situation. It couldnât have started it. These thoughts about humans about curses they had to be in his head before. They just âgrewâ after.â I keep looking at him and I grab his hand to grab his attention.Â
âItâs not your fault, Toru.â These last words make him grab me and hug me, a hug that feels full of gratitude and kindness. One of his hands grabs my hair, and I can almost feel him trembling.Â
âItâs not my faultâ His words sound almost like his asking so I just shake my head while weâre still embracing.
I grab his face to make him looking into my eyes and he does with his big cerulean eyes that seem like theyâre almost glowing with the final lights of the sun before it completely sets. They are so big, but he looks so small in this moment. He shifts one of his hands to touch my cheek. This touch is so comforting, it makes me forget that weâve been up here for like an hour or longer.Â
âYouâre so prettyâŠâ Itâs like a whisper but I hear it.
âToruâŠâ My cheeks get pink from his compliment but I canât help but think that he is just sad, and trying to find comfort in someone else. So I try to push him lightly away from my body. He grabs my arm, not hard but just enough to stop my actions. âWhat?â He looks genuinely concerned.Â
âClearly youâre sad and I donât want to be just a one night comfort for you.â I look at him furrowing my brows lightly.Â
âYou think of me so lowly?â His face is full of emotions which isnât common. âYou could never be a one night thing for me, never.â
His face is so close to me. If I moved just an inch, our noses would be sticking. But I want to move, because itâs like heâs intoxicating me. I can smell his perfume and itâs intoxicating me too. We are just looking at each other but one of his hands is behind my neck and the other is still grabbing my arm. As weâre standing and just looking at each other I hear the similar sound again - the wooden creak of the doors.Â
âHere you too are. Iâve been looking literally everywhere. You wanna grab some food. Nanami bailed and I donât wanna go aloneâ I hear Shoko as I quickly step out of the captivating feel of Satoruâs body in front of mine, so close.Â
âDid you ever heard of knocking?â Satoru asks with an annoyed look. âKnocking? On the doors to the rooftop?⊠What the hell were you two about to do?!â She replies.
âNothing, Shoko. Absolutely nothing. Now letâs go grab some food. Come on Toru. Come with usâ I try to change the topic and quickly move to the door where Shoko is standing.
âIâm not hungry, thanksâ He replies looking into my eyes.Â
âNonsense, you have to eat something or else you wonât be the strongest anymore.â I go grab his arm and drag him to the door as we make our way to get some take out.
I canât stop thinking about the last thing he said to me. Maybe he is telling the truth?Â