_Innocence_ Gojo x reader
Y/n comforting Satoru after he finds out about Suguru's betrayal. A tiiiiny bit of angst but we all love it through the tears. Hope you enjoy it. <3
I’ve been here before. At the terrace on top of the Jujutsu High building. With wind in my hair and the sunset’s orange beam shining in my eyes. The calmness of being alone with just your own thoughts. I grew to like this type of loneliness after having so many outgoing friends - I loved all of them but my social battery has its limits. I breath in smelling the wind and breathe out as if I’m meditating. Suddenly I hear a loud bang of the wooden doors that bring you here to the terrace. I presume it’s just the wind but then I feel his energy. Hasn’t he got somewhere else to be? Why does he have to occupy your sacred space?
The blue eyed boy stands in front of the door. I can hear him breathing violently as if he ran up the stairs. It can’t be that though - Gojo Satoru doesn’t get tired as easily as a human.
I study his expression to figure out what is going on when suddenly he speaks “please, don’t glare Y/n”. I tilt your head and reply “how did you know it was me? Ahh right the six eyes! I forget you’re so weird”
“I’m not… I’m special, okay?”
His lips are pursued. “Yeah, that’s doesn’t sound any bit better” I snort at my own remark. Then I see he isn’t smiling - and that’s weird cuz he’s always smiling.
„Okay Toru, What’s going on with you?” Seriously?” I ask since I feel that something’s off.
„For real?” I again tilt my head and squint my eyes at him.
„For real, real” he snarks.
„Alrighty then…” I go to lean on the railing and as I take a deep breath Satoru opens his mouth.
„Who?” I ask and he begins walking my way.
„Suguru... he ki-killed humans, people. I just don’t understand why…” His lips tremble as he mentions Geto.
Ohh right. Amidst enjoying my „peace” I forgot why I came up here anyway. All the bad talk about my friend made me need it. It was so sudden I couldn’t have seen it coming - his depression and his absence although did I really see him or did I just wite it off as his personality. Could I do something to stop him? Could Satoru do something to stop him?
„I don’t know why. I asked my self like ten times today and I still have no clue.” I breathe out the words as if it’s my confession.
„I’m sorry Toru.” His snaps his head from the view at the sunset back to me.
„What? Why are you sorry?” He asks, one of his brows spikes up.
„He was your friend after all, your best friend. It must really hurt. You were so close.” Suddenly when he hears this I swear I see a tear fall from one of his eyes.
„I- I’m okay…” He stops looking at me and looks back at the sunset.
„You’re not Toru. You can’t be okay in this situation. But you have to remember that even if you could see it happen you wouldn’t be able to stop it, stop him. He wrote his own fate. It was’t just the Riiko situation. It couldn’t have started it. These thoughts about humans about curses they had to be in his head before. They just ‚grew’ after.” I keep looking at him and I grab his hand to grab his attention.
„It’s not your fault, Toru.” These last words make him grab me and hug me, a hug that feels full of gratitude and kindness. One of his hands grabs my hair, and I can almost feel him trembling.
„It’s not my fault” His words sound almost like his asking so I just shake my head while we’re still embracing.
I grab his face to make him looking into my eyes and he does with his big cerulean eyes that seem like they’re almost glowing with the final lights of the sun before it completely sets. They are so big, but he looks so small in this moment. He shifts one of his hands to touch my cheek. This touch is so comforting, it makes me forget that we’ve been up here for like an hour or longer.
„You’re so pretty…” It’s like a whisper but I hear it.
„Toru…” My cheeks get pink from his compliment but I can’t help but think that he is just sad, and trying to find comfort in someone else. So I try to push him lightly away from my body. He grabs my arm, not hard but just enough to stop my actions. „What?” He looks genuinely concerned.
„Clearly you’re sad and I don’t want to be just a one night comfort for you.” I look at him furrowing my brows lightly.
„You think of me so lowly?” His face is full of emotions which isn’t common. „You could never be a one night thing for me, never.”
His face is so close to me. If I moved just an inch, our noses would be sticking. But I want to move, because it’s like he’s intoxicating me. I can smell his perfume and it’s intoxicating me too. We are just looking at each other but one of his hands is behind my neck and the other is still grabbing my arm. As we’re standing and just looking at each other I hear the similar sound again - the wooden creak of the doors.
„Here you too are. I’ve been looking literally everywhere. You wanna grab some food. Nanami bailed and I don’t wanna go alone” I hear Shoko as I quickly step out of the captivating feel of Satoru’s body in front of mine, so close.
„Did you ever heard of knocking?” Satoru asks with an annoyed look. „Knocking? On the doors to the rooftop?… What the hell were you two about to do?!” She replies.
„Nothing, Shoko. Absolutely nothing. Now let’s go grab some food. Come on Toru. Come with us” I try to change the topic and quickly move to the door where Shoko is standing.
„I’m not hungry, thanks” He replies looking into my eyes.
„Nonsense, you have to eat something or else you won’t be the strongest anymore.” I go grab his arm and drag him to the door as we make our way to get some take out.
I can’t stop thinking about the last thing he said to me. Maybe he is telling the truth?