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my mind hand touched a hot memory stove

sometimes it’s better refrain from deep introspection and allow yourself to just be.

and by that I mean: I don’t have to sit with myself and overthink and analyze and rationalize every ounce of my being. I am not a case study I am a person. faults and all. like any other person. sometimes I have to look at my mistakes and avoid self flagellation. sigh and learn what I can and move on. remember that I am living, and this is part of the process. free myself of that inner critic. allow myself to be, and try again.

#i say and believe this often i think forever rumination is the core of self obsession #and like constantly thinking about what is Wrong is just ego driven behavior #but then i never stop doing it so //shrug

off from class n work. too tired to move n make food but not ☝️ too tired to crack open a cold one. #BEER!!!! 🍻🍺

#i’ll make food the beef is already on the counter i’m just too lazy to get up rn

tw for discussing eye trauma/sorta gross eye violence

been nonstop getting intrusive thoughts about dragging a papercut across the surface of my eye which is like. not that it bothers me per sae or that im gonna do it, but its so weird. why that.?? this is also like the first time ive actually had a reoccurring intrusive thought thats like, i think about it daily. what the hell’s happening.???

using groupme for uni group (using cain) and work group (using deadname) so i have to decise on a fucking name and do something for someone im gonna kill myself

laptop bricked itself for no fucking reason at all im gonna take enough substances to stop caring about it and we’ll see how it goes from there

(my prof asking the class) "what's the preferred drink of texans thats not beer?" "everclear?"

#EVERCLEAR????????????????????

maidthings

they hate me for my loving nature and sentimentality that borders on delusion

eating disorder professor is calling on and asking random people in class "how many calories [they're] allowed to have". because its a class designed to give people eating disorders

finally settled enough at work that i’m considering bringing gravity’s rainbow to work… i hate scrolling on my phone it stresses me out im wasting so much time…

just got hit with the “oh! :)” at the pronoun circle

#at my friend aspen’s 21st which btw had a great time #but i did momentarily become evil #them them/any pronouns ppl when they meet a pronouns visably do not match gender binary trans

7bitter

is it possible to fix my life but still be weird abt books tv film & music forever? i will attempt it

bwuhhhh what is it about inhaling a meal that makes you sooo sleepy…

#zzzzz… =_=

if you overwhelm your cohort trainee by grasping concepts too quick and leaving them feeling like they’re the one that’s stupid and not fast enough and theyre struggling alone do you go to work heaven or hell

i ❤️ my gayvape of course for giving me a lower nicotine dose (in one session) with less irritating complications and a longer overall life but god nothing beats a real life cigarette..

#had a smoke w a friend on a warm summer night after rain humid n kinda sticky warm outside #drove both of them home after. hands smell like coagrette nicotine.. reminds me of my grandparents…

yall i’m arriving on the objective truth i’m almost there trust POST CANCELLED SOMEONE IS SETTING OFF FIREWORKS??????? WHY…………

jd was so right getting high and listening to the cure

#goths one of the best for many reasons but that’s surely up there

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