Geborgenheit; there isnât a direct German-English translation for this word, but itâs beautiful, and means (to the best of my understanding thanks to 2 anons) the feeling of safety / security in an embrace from a loved one (most commonly a baby in a motherâs arms but it can also apply to the security of an SOâs embrace.
// this is gonna be a mix of HCs and a fic so bare with / and itâs sad and happy and focuses on Nicky / so fuck all your hearts / also fluffy af cause Iâm dying from all the angst Iâve been writing lately// (Anyone who knows German better than I do please tell me if this is the correct interpretation of this word and also how to pronounce it please)
So itâs Nickyâs Junior year at Palmetto, and things start getting bad in his head again
Aaron has Katelyn and is rooming with Matt
Neither twin really talks to him anymore; heâs always the one making the first move
Neil is vice captain and the lil idiot is cocky af now and doesnât even need Nickyâs fashion advice anymore cause Andrew done his own kind of intervention at the end of the season when they won against the Ravens, and threw out all of Neilâs old and unfashionable clothes while Neil was out on a âDateâ with Allison who of course knew Andrewâs plan cause he had told her about it to make sure she kept Neil out long enough - now Neil always looks as well-dressed as a mannequin or model (save for when heâs fresh off the court or is lazy af and just in sweats and a Fox hoody)
Kevin is more connfident and back to being Kevin Day Son of Exy and doesnât need protection anymore cause theyâre all safe
The girls will graduate at the end of the year
And none of the Cubs (freshmen) are really bothered with Nicky
and he starts feeling really lonely
It starts slowly, so slowly he doesnât even notice the signs;
he gets bored of his videogames
he only practices when he has to
and at those practices Kevinâs snide remarks hurt more than they did before
he loses interest in a lot of things
and itâs only when Aaron asks him to come out with him and Katelyn to dinner and Nicky turns them down that he realises somethingâs wrong
When he realises heâs depressed again it hurts so much
he thought he was stronger than this and past this part of his life
itâs a downwards spiral fast
At first he tries to compensate for it by being brighter and louder than ever
but that quickly fades and he gets really quiet and withdrawn
everyone notices but at the same time no one notices
Except the twins and Neil
not that Nicky is aware of this
(Conversation between twins and Neil:
Aaron: âDoes Nicky seem different to yous since we got back from summer?â
Neil: âHeâs been quieter than usual.â
Aaron: âHeâs not been that mad about anything either. Not even Edenâs.â
Andrew: âIdiots, the both of you.â
Aaron and Neil: â???â
Andrew: âHeâs depressed again.â
Neil: âCan we fix him?â
Andrew: *glare cause by now theyâve been dating for months and how tf does Neil not know thereâs no cure for depression?!*
Neil: âI mean can we help him?â
Andrew: âSometimes I wonder how you two survive without me.â *walks out room*)
Unbeknownst to Nicky, Andrew calls Erik
He doesnât tell him whatâs going on, just tells him to fucking Skype-call Nicky and then call him back after cause after seeing his face Erik will get why Andrew called in the first place
So Erik skypes Nicky later that night, and doesnât tell him about Andrew calling him
As soon as Erik sees Nickyâs eyes he knows though
They talk and Nicky tries to be happy - Erikâs calling and Germany is only two years away and he just has to hold on and Erik is gorgous as ever - but his smile never reaches his eyes
âNicky whatâs wrong?â
âWhat do you mean?â - he canât lie to Erik but fuck the boy will try to deny / avoid the issue as much as possible
âBabe I havenât seen your eyes this sad since we first met.â
Nicky goes silent and still at that cause fuck fuck fuck
âItâs getting bad again, isnât it?â But Erik didnât need to ask
Nicky breaks down and everything comes out
They end up talking for almost 4 hours
Nicky ends the call with a half-hearted âI gotta go Iâve got class first thingâ (itâs 3am by now) and even though Erik knows Nicky will have a really shitty sleep he goes with it and hangs up
Erik calls Andrew, who picks up on the second ring cause of course heâs still awake (heâs actually on the roof cause he had a nightmare and had to get out of the room)
Andrew: âSince we came back from summer.â
Andrew: âWeâve got a game on next Friday.â
Erik: â??? Good luck???â *why the subject change???*
Andrew: âCheck your E-mail.â *hangs up*
That Friday, of course, is the game
Unbeknownst to literally everyone but Andrew, Erik flew in on Thursday and stayed at a hotel
(if anyone wants me to write what happened when Andrew picked him up from the airport LMK)
But Nicky gets hit really bad part way through second-half, and spends the rest of the game in Abbyâs room getting patched up and hugged
After the game (following Andrewâs instructions) Erik follows the crowd into the concession area, but ducks out the way and hides in the restrooms for 10 minutes before going back up to the stands and down to the inner ring (instructions told him there are no alarms on the court doors) and he follows it along to the door he assumes leads to the foyer / lounge, and when he opens it the girls and Matt are on the couch and Aaronâs getting suffocated by Katelyn cause sheâs a regular now
âCan we help you?â Renee asks and all eyes go to Erik
âUhm Iâm Erik-â Of course they hear his accent straight away and âOMG THE ERIK?!â is shreiked at high volume
âNicky didnât tell us you were coming fuck we wouldâve gotten you better seating and like access to our door instead of having to deal with all that stuff!!!â
âNicky doesnât know.. Andrew invited me.â
Obviously this shuts everyone up
At that moment Neil and Andrew appear from the changing room
âDown that hall, first door on the left. Knock once and just go in - always works for me.â Itâs all Andrew says but itâs more than anyone was expecting
Erik goes down the hall and everyone is staring at Andrew
*Bored glare* âYou said you wanted to help him.â
Erik does as Andrew said and knocks once on the first-aid door before opening it
âAndrew, are you alri-â Abby starts cause of course Andrew is the only one of the Foxes who only knocks once, but then she turns around and sees this person is very clearly not 5â˛0 Andrew Joseph Minyard
âCan I help you?â she asks cause the woman is polite til the end
Nickyâs sitting on the bench with his gaze on the floor and a bottle of Andrewâs whiskey in his hand
âNicky?â Itâs all Erik can manage cause he hasnât seen Nicky look so utterly shit since the first few weeks in Germany
Nickyâs head bolts up at Erikâs voice and the boy is frozen for 2 seconds before he somehow jumps across the room to Erik
âOh, you should have told us you had invited him!â Abby says cause obviously thereâs only one person who could cause that reaction from Nicky
Nicky has 458438572085 thoughts running through his head but the only one that actually forms itself into words is âI didnât.â
Erik smiles - âYour cousins care more about you than you thinkâ
Nicky looks shocked and then like heâs going to cry
Abby excuses herself but just before she shuts the door she says âIâd say âno sex on the benchâ but youâre related to the twins so I know itâs pointlessâ or something to that effect
Nicky squawks when he realises what she said a few seconds later
But Erik laughs and kisses him and 4357873 of the thoughts disappear; the other 458434214212 thoughts all fight each other cause yeah theyâre everything he wants to do with Erik
They stay in the room for what feels like forever but is actually 10 minutes
And yes they wind up on the bench but they donât fuck they just cuddle
Nickyâs crying but itâs happy tears this time
Thereâs a single knock on the door before Andrew opens it
Aaron and Neil are behind him
Aaron is still confused af and Neil looks more curious but Andrew looks as bored as ever
âYou two want a lift or not?â
Nicky wipes his nose - the poor boy is a hot mess
âWait wait which one of you two invited him?â
âAndrew,â Erik says after neither answer
Nickyâs shocked ok this cousin he was convinced didnât give a single shit about anything - who he thought couldnât give a shit about anything not even Neil - is the one who bothered to invite Erik out of the blue
And then Erik shows how fucking amazing he is in one simple minute; he holds his arm out to Andrew, the universal for âWant a hug?â
Of course Nicky, Aaron and Neil start to tell him âDonât bother he doesnât do hugsâ but then Andrew moves
He goes over and lets Erik hug him - Erikâs smart so he knows to only hug around Andrewâs shoulders and itâs a quick hug but itâs still the most shocking thing ever to Aaron and Nicky (Neil is grinning like fuck in the background)
And Nicky just makes some inhuman noise and hugs Andrew really close to him cause this tiny man has done so fucking much for him
Andrew toleraes it and Nicky lets go after almost 10 seconds
He goes to appologise but Andrew shuts him up when he brushes Nickyâs tears away
âFucking idiot.â *walks back to Aaron and Neil*
Needless to say Erik and Nicky go back to the hotel (Andrew drives them there without question actually without being asked, and drives off without comment and ignores the look Neil and Kevin give him)
The pair stay there for the whole weekend (mostly naked the majority of the time) and just talk (amongst other stuff)
Nicky is 110% going to Germany for Christmas this year
Andrew drives them to the airport and waits on the hood of his car while Nicky sees Erik off, and lets Nicky sit in the passenger seat on the way back to the dorm
âThank you,â Nicky says and Andrew looks at him for a few seconds before letting some of the mask fall and Nicky can see his mouth quirk and the hint of something in those eyes as his little cousin says âDonât fucking let it get that bad again or I swear to your God I will send you to Germany for the rest of collegeâ and Nicky can hear something in Andrewâs tone that isnât bored detatchment for the first time since he came off his meds
Itâs almost enough to make him cry again but he swallows and nods
From then on the twins make sure to drag Nicky along with them and Neil asks him if they can go shopping the week after cause he needs more comfy stuff and Andrew threatened to crash the car if Neil tried to drag him along
It takes time, but Nicky heals again - he has his family back, and he realises he never really lost them in the first place