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I NEED TO START TAKING MY MEDS holy fuck lol i am so embarrassed of myself sometimes

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Someone might need this, just let thought out but please don’t delete other’s writing, it goes on forever. Please reblog, I feel like this is just everyone’s safe space. Write thoughts! Every corner is yours! Someone will see it!

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#dose of positivity. it does get more managable over times. never forget that

im just a kid bro how do i desl with this

everyone online fucking hates me i need to delete insta or i swear im gonna k/m//s but its the best place to get resources for my activism

its so fucking hard i hate social media i hate it i hate it i cant deal witg it i cant because it hurts so bad

gaydeivs

i’ve been dreaming

autumnhobbit

literally all four Fs of trauma typology lmao

autumnhobbit

Flight—Responds to abuse by constantly attempting to escape it, devolves into self-repeating perfectionism in the belief that it will prevent future abuse, obsessed with either geographical escape or forcibly recovering instantaneously to escape the continual, constant torture.

Fight—Responds to abuse with anger and aggressiveness because that is the only thing that appears to give control in family dynamic. Responds to anything that resembles attack with cruelty and defensiveness and attempts to manipulate with intimidation and disdain before others can manipulate them.

Fawn—Responds to abuse by attempting to become the perfect victim in the hopes of being less hated and less mistreated in exchange for cooperating. Turns off all personal desires, boundaries, traits, and emotions, tries to become exactly what the abuser wants. Continues this set of interpersonal rules even with non-abusive outsiders.

Freeze—Responds to abuse by attempting by any means to dull or numb it. Shuts down mentally, tunes everything that is said or done out, drowns it out with electronics or isolation or addictions. Prefers being disconnected and unaware to actively living.

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fuuuuck i just wanna be happy i kno it’s possible but it’s so much goddamn work and the work is so tiring i wish i was high all the time i wish i had harder drugs i wish i could self harm

IM SO FUCKING SAD LOL

aloe-sunset

nobody ever talks about how selfless it is to choose, over and over again, to not commit suicide. nobody ever acknowledges the tremendous sacrifice suicidal people make every time we choose not to kill ourselves. when a person who is suffering so horribly that death seems like their best option decides not to take their one way out, and to instead remain in hell, day after day, year after year, because they don’t want to hurt the people they love, they are doing something extraordinary. not killing yourself when it’s all you want to do is the purest act of love i can imagine. dying for someone is easy – you don’t have to deal with any of the consequences, you have your moment of nobility and then it’s all over. but living for someone, when the simple fact of consciousness is literal torture for you? every single suicidal person who ever made a choice to not kill themselves in a moment of misery is a goddamn hero in my eyes. wanting to die and still surviving is an act of titanic courage and self-sacrifice. we deserve more credit for it.

#this is ... a really nice thought #this is much more helpful than the -suicidal people are selfish- mentality #this makes me want to live a whole lot more than that